#the unabridged journals of sylvia plath
― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
[text ID: God, who am I? I sit in the library tonight, the lights glaring overhead, the fan whirring loudly. Girls, girls everywhere, reading books. Intent faces, flesh pink, white, yellow. And I sit here without identity: faceless. My head aches. There is history to read… centuries to comprehend before I sleep, millions of lives to assimilate before breakfast tomorrow. Yet I know that back at the house there is my room, full of my presence. There is my date this weekend: someone believes I am a human being, not a name merely. And these are the only indications that I am a whole person, not merely a knot of nerves, without identity. I’m lost.]
― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
[text ID: A little thing, like children putting flowers in my hair, can fill up the widening cracks in my self-assurance like soothing lanolin.]
musings on girlhood
Sylvia Plath, Suzanne Buffam, Kristin Chang, Jenny Slate, Warsan Shire, Ikenaga Yasunari
musings on girlhood
— Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
[text ID: It seems to me more than ever that I am a victim of introspection. If I have not the power to put myself in the place of other people, but must be continually burrowing inward. I shall never be the magnanimous creative person I wish to be. Yet I am hypnotized by the workings of the individual, alone, and am continually using myself as a specimen.]
– Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
[text ID: Someday, god knows when, I will stop this absurd, self-pitying, idle, futile despair.]
“I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)”–from “Mad Girl’s Love Song - A Villanelle”, 1954
“I made a model of you”
–from “Daddy”, 12 October 1962
“How we need another soul to cling to, another body to keep us warm. To rest and trust; to give your soul in confidence: I need this, I need someone to pour myself into.”
–The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, entry no. 25, 1950
“I do it so it feels like hell.
I do it so it feels real.”–from “Lady Lazarus”, 23-29 October 1962
“I thought, ‘This is what it is to be happy.’”
–The Bell Jar, Chapter Eight, 1963
“It was my first big chance, but here I was, sitting back and letting it run through my fingers like so much water.”
–The Bell Jar, Chapter One, 1963
“Perfection is terrible, it cannot have children.”
–from “The Munich Mannequins”, 28 January 1963
“For the eyeing of my scars, there is a charge
For the hearing of my heart–”–from “Lady Lazarus”, 23-29 October 1962
“Everything is the same but different.”
–The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, entry no. 132, 1952
“I am myself. That is not enough.”
–from “The Jailer”, 17 October 1962
“If you expect nothing from somebody you are never disappointed.”
–The Bell Jar, Chapter Five, 1963
“I desire the things which will destroy me in the end…“
–The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, entry no. 63, 1951
“I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)”–from “Mad Girl’s Love Song - A Villanelle”, 1954
“I felt very empty, the way the eye of a tornado must feel, moving dully along in the middle of the surrounding hullabaloo.”
–The Bell Jar, Chapter One, 1963
“It is so much safer not to feel”
–The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, entry no. 155, 1952
“I am calm. I am calm. It is the calm before something awful“
–“Three Women: A Poem for Three Voices“, March 1962
“We should meet in another life, we should meet in air,
Me and you.”–from “Lesbos”, 18 October 1962
“Out of the ash
I rise with my red hair
And I eat men like air.”–from “Lady Lazarus”, 23-29 October 1962
Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
Salutations, but like Sylvia~
me, when any minor inconvenience happens
adorable, sweet …
Sylvia, a concept <3
The Bell Jar is just a big collection of all the “feminine urges” possible.
“I am jealous of those who think more deeply, who write better, who draw better, who ski better, who look better, who live better, who love better than I.”
-Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
Sylvia just gets me like no one else…
“I am still so naive; I know pretty much what I like and dislike; but please, don’t ask me who I am. ‘A passionate, fragmentary girl,’ maybe?”
The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath(2000)
Sylvia Plath