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At thirteen I met him online through Myspace
I know that to meet someone there isn’t the ideal place
Because people want to interact and see each other face to face
But I was in no rush to fall in love as if it were a race
So we met in person and instantly we became best friends
He was always the guy that would reach out for me until the earths ends
We met at thirteen years old and I know that’s too young
But happiness and laughter is what was brung
At fourteen we fell in love but we pushed that feeling away
At fourteen he brought me the nicest words to say
At fourteen he brought me a rose
And at fourteen I wrote him a love letter of prose
At fourteen he asked me to be his girlfriend
And I accepted because of all the nice things said
We talked on the phone like a couple should
And I told him my sorrows because I know he understood
To bring me happiness I know he could
And to always be there for me I know he would
But we decided we would be better off as friends
But deep down inside we knew our love would never end
At fifteen we were still best friends but we weren’t going out
Because that’s not what our relationship was about
Outside we had this platonic love for one another
But deep down inside we knew we were in love with each other
At fifteen I started seeing someone else
But being with him wasn’t the type of happiness I should’ve felt
Every time we’d try seeing someone else it didn’t feel right
So to each other we held on even more tight
At fifteen he gave me advice
At fifteen he tried to protect me from the world’s lies
He healed the wounds others brought
At fifteen I realized this was the type of love people sought
At fifteen I knew he was unique
And I realized there was no one else to seek
At sixteen he told me he was still in love with me throughout the years
And that losing me would be his biggest fear
We’d see other people but we knew we belonged together
But we didn’t stay because we were too young to be in a relationship that would last forever
At sixteen when he got his license he drove to see me and brought me a smile
And all I wanted was for that moment to last for awhile
At sixteen I’ve went through a lot of troubles in life
Be he looked passed them and said he’d think I’d make a great wife
I remember once he got me out of a bad situation
And he said he still loved me without hesitation
I told him I could never love anyone the way I do for him
Because his love is stuck in my heart to my limbs
At sixteen when I thought I was pregnant from a man who forced me
David said he’d claim the child as his and marry me
Pregnant is not what I turned out to be
He told me if I had been he would’ve continued loving me
At seventeen we never had sex and we never once kissed
But that doesn’t mean our feelings were dissed
Because our love was strong enough to not need intimacy
But at seventeen the world decided to take him away from me
Because at thirteen we fell in love but in the end he couldn’t stay
Because at seventeen my first love passed away
At seventeen I went to his funeral and I cried
At seventeen I had this feeling of emptiness that can’t be described
At seventeen I realized that the world had lied
At seventeen the roses have died
At eighteen the smile he brought faded into my deepest abyss
At eighteen I had my first kiss
At eighteen all I felt for others was emptiness
At eighteen I didn’t want to exist
I’d call his cellphone just to pretend he was still alive
And every day happiness and laughter didn’t arrive
At nineteen the clouds started to fade
At nineteen sadness and joy made a trade
At nineteen even poetry couldn’t take away the pain
At nineteen a new love I have gained
At twenty I realized I could never rip away my love for you
Because ripping it away would be like ripping away the sky from blue
At twenty I realized that I had to move on in life
At twenty I realized one day I would be someone else’s wife
At twenty one I finally decided for the first time to visit his grave
At twenty one I realized our love couldn’t be saved
But he was enrooted into my veins
At twenty one the sky stopped the rain
At twenty one I picked up a pencil and I wrote you a letter of prose
At twenty one I wondered why you were the one life chose
At twenty one a poem for you to your grave I would bring
At twenty one the roses finally started to blossom that spring
At twenty two I’m still editing this poem
And at this very moment I’ve never felt so alone
Every day I miss you and wish your life I could save
Because at twenty two you buried my heart along with you in your grave
This has been the worst year that could be
I wish you were here to save me…
I’m twenty three now and can’t finish this poem for years
I guess it can’t be finished from the denial of you not being here
I haven’t visited your grave ever again
But I can never get you out of my head
It’s been six years since you passed away
It’s been ten years since I began to love you everyday
I bet you’d be proud of who I’ve become
Thank you for teaching me you were always the one
At twenty three I’m writing to you to ask for my heart
Since you buried it with you in your grave when life ripped us apart
I don’t ask for it back to fall in love with someone else
I just need my heart back so I can love myself
I will continue to edit this poem throughout the years
I will always continue to write because of you my dear
I’m 24 now and I tried going on dates this year, I really tried
But I think sparks for me have died
My love for you only grows more inside
At 24, I said I moved on, but I lied
Because I’m 24 now, but I still can’t get you out of my head
I am dying along with you from this pain of dread
I wish there was something I could have said
So I could have saved you instead
I’m sorry that I cannot visit your grave
I wish you were the one that could’ve been saved
I’m sorry for not texting you back the day you went into the light
But now I suffer here alone haunted by the thoughts of that night
I’m 25 now and have lost my desire for poetry
Why did the world take you away from me?
I have never more wanted to be by your side
I am in so much pain from the world’s lies
I wish we didn’t have to say goodbye
So I could again look into your eyes
I’m 26 and this is the absolute worst year
I have been dating someone I thought was sincere
But he absolutely destroyed me and buried me into a grave
If you were here you’d be the only one with that I’d feel safe
You are my only reason I continue to write
You and I are soulmates even if you’re not in my sight
I’m 27 now and things just keep getting worse into a despair
My life has become a twisted nightmare
Do you remember when you said you’d take care of me forever?
I wish forever was here so we could already be together
I’m 28 now and I am counting down the years
Hopefully they go by quickly so I can finally disappear
There is nothing left for me here
This life is filled with things so insincere
I just want to be a firework that fades into the sky
So to you I’ll never have to say goodbye
I stay up late wondering when we will reunite
These thoughts happen every night
I try and fight them away
But they take me to that very day
When I didn’t reply, if only I knew
That it would be the last I would ever hear from you
I had thought one day I’d be someone’s wife
But that type of destiny was not designed for my life
I have been hurt by this world too many times
All it’s given me is the power to write rhymes
I am now too traumatized to even hold someone’s hand
You are the only one who could understand
It’s been 15 years that I have been continuing this poem
I hope I can see you soon, you are my true home.
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