#yeschef

Been in a crap mood on and off today. I feel off and it’s a day where I’m really tired of being in the house but nervous about going for a run.

Sometimes I dread social media for the reminders of people who are no longer here with us. I feel an indescribable weight that rests on me whenever I log on, particularly Facebook. I can honestly say this is the first time in a long time that I’m happy to see “pretty little pictures” and videos on a screen. I can elect to be one of those people who don’t read captions when it’s too much. But because I’m not that person, it’s hard. My brain reads everything and feel shit that I don’t want to feel.

It’s hard when your form of metaphorical oxygen can literally kill you. I fucking miss running without worrying if I’m going to catch something or be the reason why someone’s not here if I am a carrier. Practicing patience. Practicing calm. Practicing grieving. Practicing loss.

Drowning all of my feelings into creating bright dishes and pushing my bike painfully hard these days. If cooking was yoga, I’d be zen AF.

Anyways, here’s dinner: Asian Ground Beef Rice Bowl (or Bibimbap minus the egg and kimchee)

#runningfatchef #fatrunner #food #foodie #foodporn #foodslut #beef #groundbeef #eatarainbow #fiveaday #cheftalk #yeschef #ricebowl #bibimbap #quarantinemeals (at Quarantine 2020)
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I’ve been asked if I’m transforming my Instagram into a food account and this makes me chuckle.

For those who are unaware, I run a blog called Running Fat Chef – a self ran food and fitness blog about being a fit + fat athlete.

In short, the answer is no. I’m not turning my IG into a food account. This is literally me sharing layers of myself. If you’ve been following me long enough, this is nothing new; COVID-19 gifted and cursed us all with a bit more home time. I hate most takeout and I’m a light control freak when it comes to flavors.

Besides, most athletes love eating a dope ass meal after pushing their bodies to the limit. Some of us like more than salt, pepper and water.

If you’re looking for a space where I talk about food like I love it and want to skip the diet commentary b/s, check me out. It is a space where I can combine my previous career as a sous chef in restaurants, life as a food photographer, food stylist, catering and corporate dining to my semi new career in fitness.

And anyone who don’t like it better shut up and eat these mashed potatoes honey.

Yesterday’s Dinner: Seared Pork Chops | Mushroom + Garlic Pan Sauce | Roasted Corn on the Cob | Herb Sour Cream Mashed Potatoes

#runningfatchef #fatrunner #blackchefs #food #foodie #foodslut #foodporn #porkchops #potatoes #cheftalk #yeschef #fuckthescale #quarantinemeals #fuckthatsdelicious #foodblogger (at Quarantine 2020)
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