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“Be gentle with yourself

You never know how valuable you are”

amatchinwater:

Work in Progress Wednesday

More of my rewrite that’s now pushing 40k, holy shit.

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Stiles’ heart threatens to beat right out of his ribcage watching the sight. He immediately goes to reach for Theo, only to have his arms pulled behind his back by Scott. “No,’ he grinds his teeth, yanking himself free from the former Alpha’s arms. By the time he gets close enough to his mate, Theo’s arms are ready to slip off the edge. Quickly, Stiles grabs his hand before he can fall, “I’ve got you,” he grunts, trying to pull the Alpha back up.

Tara has a firm hold of him.

“Stiles, let go,” Theo says, sweat glossing his forehead. “It’s okay, kitten, let me go.”

His tone is so soft it’s bringing tears to the chimera’s eyes. “No,” Stiles’ voice is thick with emotion; it’s practically a sob. Scott tries to grab his arm again and rage burns inside him.

“Stiles, this isn’t you,” the wolf says, trying to pull him.

The chimera snarls, rearing back with his free hand to claw at Scott’s face. He hits his mark beautifully, watching angry, red slashes break the skin and the now Beta stumbles back. The jerkiness of his action to get Scott away, loosened his grip too much on Theo. His mates’ fingers slip through his and Theo falls in. There isn’t even a shred of hesitation or thought.

Stiles dives in after him.

theoraeken:

Started reading Iznogoud to get more ideas for writing Plankton

At this point I care more about Grand Vizier than about the copepod

If you ask me, Silco and Vander is the same thing as Plankton and Krabs.

viterbofangirllovestheuntamed:

sandupommelfrog:

i know its v unlikely at this point but i would go insane if they made a Jiang Cheng spin off movie it could literally just be him doing paperwork for an hour and a half and i would watch the shit out of it

LOOK the TAXES ARE DUE, OKAY?! Fucking Sect Leader Ouyang has been bitching about tariffs for the last three– yes, quickly what is it?… whAT?! WHAT DO YOU MEAN JIANG HAO IS TEACHING A WATER GHOUL HOW TO DO SOMERSAULTS?!! FUCKIng… *leaves desk* *distant yelling* *lightning crackles* *more yelling* *stomps back to desk* – What was I saying? Oh, right. Where the fuck is my abacus… HAS ANYONE SEEN MY ABACUS?… A-Mei did WHAT with the beads?! HAIR DECORATIONS?! MOther of F– *stomps away from desk* *comes back with new abacus* –Buddha on a bike, doesn’t ANYONE care that if I turn these reports in late AGAIN fucking Jin Guangshan will make snide comments at the next conference even though he wouldn’t even read my reports if I had Nie Huaisang draw fucking porn all over them… WHAT NOW?… No. NO. Tell them I said no and if they do it anyway I will make them organize the lotus seed harvest by siZE and then substitute-teach meditation class for the six year olds for the next five weeks. Tell them to disobey me. Tell them I DARE them to disobey me. Uh huh. yEAH that’s what I thought… Where’s my fucking calligraphy brush… WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS INVOICE FROM CAIYI TOWN?!?!?? WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU MISBEGOTTEN GREMLINS DO??????

rowansparrow:

People who leave long detailed comments on fics and also quote their favorite lines: do u know how important u are? Do u know how deeply I cherish u? Do u know that there is nothing on this earth that I would not do for u?

tratior:

i hit rock bottom like every 5 hours

foxsoulcourt:

prismatic-bell:

some-stars:

hoseokchild:

toybeluga:

legsdemandias:

legsdemandias:

Commenting fanfiction is the easiest thing in the world once you start doing it. 

I leave a comment on every single fic I read. Sometimes when I read published books I go and leave a comment somewhere the author can find it. Granted, I literally majored in ‘leaving comments on fics’ (English Education), but once you start doing it it just becomes second nature. Now you’re gonna go to the Ozymandias school of leaving comments: 

Problem: I can’t leave kudos again.

Beginner: This is a second/third/fourth Kudos

Advanced: This is my second/third/fortieth time reading this, I still love it so much. Here are a few new things I noticed. I like the way you personally do x, y, z compared to other authors I’ve read (in this ship/genre/fandom).

Problem: I don’t know what to say :(

Beginner: Just list what you did to read this fic. “I stayed up late reading this”, “I read this on a crowded train”, “this kept me company while sick”. 

Advanced: X,Y,Z parts made me get butterflies, and I had a physical reaction to this part of the story, I squealed outloud when characters did x,y,z. I blushed at this part. I laughed out loud here. Whatever. 

Problem: I’m embarrassed to leave a comment (what if I annoy the author?)

Beginner: Short answer: you won’t EVER annoy the author (unless you’re needlessly mean) But to start, be generic, you don’t have to spill your soul in the comments section. “I liked this” “I enjoyed reading this” “nice fic”.

Advanced: This really meant a lot to me that you wrote this. This is something I feel like I’ve always wanted to read. This fic hit me in all the right places. Etc. 

Problem: I don’t know how to express myself/my experience 

Beginner: My beginners go to is to highlight a line, put that in your comment and say “i liked this” or to identify basic emotions you had while reading and comment those “this made me happy” “this part made me sad” “i almost cried” “you made me laugh” 
Advanced: “Highlighted line” This line made me smile because it has to do with character development/it’s really romantic/it’s so unique/it’s moving. Sometimes I don’t highlight a line at all, I just talk about the stuff I’ve noticed were unique to the fic. “I love the way you did this particular thing with this character”. 

This? This is an amazing post. This is the Captain Awkward of commenting posts—it addresses all your fears directly and gives you actionable scripts for each one.

doing this will make authors / writers love you forever.

Literally the ONLY ways you can upset a writer with your comment:

1. Demand or even ask for more WITHOUT first saying something nice about the fic. If the sum total of your comment is “give me more of this” then yes, that is deeply annoying. It’s okay to say “I’’d love to see a sequel!” AFTER you praise the fic, but it is not, in and of itself, a compliment. It’s a demand. (The praise doesn’t have to be involved, just nice. “I loved this!!” is fine.)

2. “I usually hate [character/pairing/kink] but I enjoyed this!” Please don’t preface your comment by telling the author that you hate something they clearly enjoy and care about (and probably already see plenty of negative comments about, given the types of characters/pairings/kinks that attract this kind of comment).

3. Criticism unless it is EXPLICITLY asked for. Even “constructive” criticism. Just don’t, okay? The tiny percentage of people who like that will say so in the notes; everyone else HATES it. (Pointing out typos that can be fixed instantly is a grey area—I want to know so I like it as long as you ALSO say something nice; many people hate it. I would say, only do it at the end of a long comment full of enthusiastic praise, and even then if the author is a stranger it’s a gamble.)

So if you don’t do those three things, there’s NO WAY you can possibly go wrong, I promise! Literally every other kind of comment will make an author very very happy.

2a. From @some-starscomment:

I don’t mind this IF one of the following is true:

—people tend to be OOC in this pairing or trope, and the comment is about how you did a great job staying true to the characters and/or making the pairing/trope believable without sacrificing characterization.

—somebody not in the fandom has followed me to the fandom and is commenting that they’re literally in it for my writing. I actually consider this praise of the highest caliber because it says they’re trusting me to keep them interested—and also says they’re in my work for ME, not for a pairing du jour.

—it’s a WIP and you’re saying you don’t normally read WIPs but you were too intrigued to wait.

Also, my experience with most fic authors is that we love comments like “HOW FUCKING DARE YOU MAKE ME HAVE FEELINGS.” We know that emotion, we’ve probably felt it before.

Beginner: Highlight a line, “I like this”

Advanced: Highlighted line or some commentary on element of story

Foxsoulcourt’s style: v1: Highlights whole paragraphs, sometimes several, often multiple times within the same comment. Rough translation of this style: “How dare you!!! This made me FeeL sooooooooo many tHiNgZ. Please do it some more because I’m addicted to how you’re telling this story and I need MORE like I need food + water.” ~ ~ ~ v2: no comments because I loved the work, but don’t have the spoons to write something witty or quote bits back. ~ ~ ~ every once in a while v3: keysmashes or “I loved it” or “what this person above said.”

pañdas <3<3<3<3

goodthingsarewaiting:

You can always start again. Clean out your social media. Create a new account for your new taste in music. Study or work in a new city. Start socialising with new people. Choose a new signature scent and style and purge the outdated parts of yourself. If you don’t like where you’re at, but you don’t know what to do about it - try starting again.

mytrashpile:

Okay hear me out! Heartstopper is the gay Trojan horse for Oseman’s ace representation, and I’m living for it!!!

wintersongstress:

wilf (wip i’d like to finish)

This brain contained its own traitor!

BOY, DOES IT!!!

cinnnabunnn:

Nathan fucking Prescott. Listen to me, you guys. Shit on Nathan Prescott all you want. What he did was inexcusable. It was horrid. It was hard to unravel it all, even though I knew what was going to happen. But, while you’re talking about how shitty he is, and what he’s done, please keep these things in mind:

• Nathan Prescott is a victim of abuse. He never even got the chance to be called a “survivor,” because he didn’t survive. He died while being abused, as a direct result of his abuse.
  
• Nathan Prescott’s abusers were both father figures; his literal father and then a mentor he saw as his father. These people were adults that were supposed to be there for him–they were supposed to take care of him.
• Nathan Prescott’s abusers were both incredibly high-profile people. What do I mean by that? What significance does this have? Because they are such important figures, people are going to go light on them or disregard the things that they’ve done. “He wouldn’t do that, he’s your father.” “But that’s Mr.Prescott! He’s too prestigious to do that,” “Mark Jefferson is a famous photographer, not a–” This. THIS factor right here is what keeps so many victims silent for so long. Such as the Duggar family situation and Bill Cosby.
• It is evident that the Prescotts probably come from a long line of abuse. In the barn, when Max is looking around, she finds a note from 1903 and says, “I guess the Prescotts were just born bastards.” Abuse can stay within a family. It trickles down. My great grandparents abused my grandparents, my grandparents abused my parents. My parents didn’t sexually abuse me, but they abuse me. This means that this is normal to him. I’m not saying it doesn’t hurt, I’m saying that he probably wouldn’t know how to react or what to do with himself if his parents started treating him better.
• I’d also really like for you guys to see this post.
• I know that it isn’t 100% confirmed that Nathan was sexually abused. But he was still very obviously emotionally abused by both abusers at hand. His father often manipulated him (and almost definitely gaslighted him), and would do things like hurt him and then coddle him. Sean Prescott (with no doubt in my mind) PAID for the Dark Room. He gave Nathan a “#1 Son” certificate. Do you know what he’s doing? It’s hush money (this phenomenon is particularly found in victims of sexual abuse; spoiling your child with materialistic items, which is what made me feel like there was sexual abuse with his father). Sean Prescott will coddle him and has conditioned Nathan to think “My dad’s such an asshole–I love my dad, he’ll protect me.” He may be interpreting his dad “owning the police force” as “my dad loves me” rather than “My dad cares about his reputation,” (think to when you stop Warren from beating Nathan, and he limps away saying “My dad is coming! You’re all fucked!” it makes me feel like a little kid running to their parent because they’re afraid of something for protection–he says it almost affectionately) as a lot of people really want their parents to love them. Which brings me to my next point:
• Nathan probably just wants for people to love him/care about him. The Vortex club/Mr.Jefferson are great examples of that. In one night, Nathan bought around $250,000 worth of several types of drugs for a Vortex Club party. (Again, no doubt, Sean really paid for this: “I know you’ve got hella cash” “That’s my parents–not me.”) The parties, the drugs, the food, the entertainment, etc. It really comes off as “Look what I can provide for you–please be my friend.” Nathan is lonely. If you go into the boys’ locker room with Chloe when you break into the school, his locker is very far away from everyone elses (another sign I took as sexual abuse: wanting to be as far away from someone as possible when in such close quarters, especially if you have to be more nude than usual). He feels detached from these people. It comes off like he fears and craves intimacy.
• And back to Mr.Jefferson. Mr.Jefferson, being both an adult and an already abuser, chose Nathan for several reasons. One: he could just tell that Nathan would be an easy target. First of all, body language. Nathan always kind of is hunched over, and he’s always fidgeting. He’s always scared, and he’s always in a “fight-or-flight” state of response. (2) This is common in abuse survivors of all kinds. Mr.Jefferson could see this, and he could see, as an adult that Nathan doesn’t really have any real friends. Maybe Victoria, but not nearly as much as Nathan would want. All it would take (IF this much) is a couple of class periods to tell that he had issues with his father in particularly (honestly, Mr.Jefferson probably assumed it was his father too, as abuse occurs within the family more so than ever, and he KNOWS how the “trickle effect” works). So, what does he do? He praises Nathan–genuine praise: “You’ve got a good eye,” “You’re work is amazing,” “You’ve got a gift.” He knew that this (3) rich kid would be easy to manipulate because it’s already happened before. All he had to do was ease into this; “Hi, I’m Mark.” “I know, adults are terrible. I don’t blame you.” “You have such amazing work! x5634″ “I would like to work with you.” “Isn’t this fun? I accept you and I would like to mentor you.” “Let’s keep doing more and more fucked up works.” “Hey… I have an idea. Maybe you could be one of my subjects? We’ll need…. Ah, yes, the barn! perfect” “Good work, Nathan. But, you know what… Maybe… We could do this together. I have an idea…” Mr.Jefferson exploited and abused Nathan for his money, his lack of security/emotional strength, and his need for acceptance–particularly for a father figure in life–to get what he wanted. Mr.Jefferson never cared about Nathan.
• I don’t know why Mr.Jefferson killed Nathan. It could have just been a cover-up the writers used because they got lazy as hell in Polarized. However, I could also imagine it’s because he didn’t see him as useful anymore. Remember the note in The Darkroom? “Stop this, or you’re on your own.” Let’s talk about this for a second: you’re on your own. This implies that Mr.Jefferson convinced Nathan that this is something HE wanted to do, and that Mr.Jefferson was just doing it with him. Keeping Nathan in check like this would be crucial: “This was your idea, Nathan.” This is more implication for me that there was sexual abuse with Mr.Jefferson: he convinced Nathan this was his idea, and the whole “Please stop ignoring me–I just want to do projects with you again” note. Nathan seemed a bit more attached to Mr.Jefferson than it seems one would be with a father figure. And even if there wasn’t sexual abuse with Mr.Jefferson, this is also a sign of sexual abuse from his father: he doesn’t really know what’s normal in a relationship with others, particularly fatherly figures. (This is also why a lot of victims of sexual abuse will act out sexually, or try to do things with other family members that are wildly inappropriate [at younger ages[). Anyway, Mr.Jefferson may have also killed Nathan because he didn’t react well to getting Victoria, his seemingly only real friend. He may have killed him off because he sensed that Nathan was becoming too unstable. Perhaps he made one too many mistakes. Or, maybe, Mr.Jefferson had planned to kill Nathan from the very beginning.
• (Side note: Hayden seemed to care about him beyond the parties: “He’s everybody’s voodoo doll! Kill the rich kid! He’s actually not that bad a guy. Fuck the haters.” And then we have Victoria “They’re like brother and sister…. Or….. Something…” Literally everyone at the party was like “Idk, idc, ask Victoria. She’s the only one who actually cares about Nathan.”)

Nathan Prescott is a wonderfully written character. It’s fucked up as hell and kind of a cop-out that he got killed, but whatever. If you know the full story, and you play through again, his actions are, not excused, but almost “understandable, if that is how he was to interpret it.” As in, abuse changes all kinds of people in all kinds of ways.

If you have anything to add on/questions/etc, please feel free to do so/contact me.