#about the dump
I’m having an insanely hard time writing a 1500 word complex essay for university. I can’t discuss the essay topic because that’s considered plagiarism. My meds are reduced and my personal life is messed up and I’m so incredibly unfocused it just sucks.
I’ve been scoring between 80-95% all year but if I don’t get 40% minimum on this last one then it’s for nothing, and honestly idk if I can now.
I have rejection sensitive dysphoria with my ADHD, and a crippling fear of abandonment from also having bpd.
My partner says I’m not enough and he wants to sleep with other people. He never expressed anything other than complete joy with only me the last year (he admits hiding what he wanted was wrong).
I know that works for some people and I’m totally fine with it for them. It doesn’t work for me. I don’t think it’ll work for him. I’ll lose him saying yes or if I deny it to him. Nothing is the same anymore and the deposit I’ve been struggling to save so we can live together no longer matters. If our sex is dull, I guess living with me would bore the shit out of him.
I’m not really okay at all. Everything feels like a lie and I’m disgusting.
Sorry for not really posting.
I’ve been waiting weeks for my work holidays to start, I’m about 2h in now and freaked out over how bored I am already
The last thing I posted has over 13k notes, rip my notifications inbox, if you want to actually get my attention you’ll need to send a private message so it comes in separately and I see it.
In today’s adventures of working in a primary school (Saturday club today) on very little medication…
-I was late to get the kids
- late to get them to have their snacks
-late to get them out to break
-classroom looked like a bomb had gone off in a pencil, paper, and cookie factory
-late to get them to go home
-got locked in clearing up the mess after and thankfully found there was still a cleaner on site with a key.
It’s only partially improved the side effects I’ve lowered it for so fml.
Has anyone else ever gone to work and spent the whole day in a backwards hoodie and not noticed until they got home asking for a friend
No but one time I went on a field trip as a kid and didn’t realize until I went to the bathroom after I got home that I was still wearing my pajama shorts under my actual shorts the entire time
Sounds like my childhood (and adulthood XD) I feel better knowing it wasn’t just me
I know people want memes but this is my place to dump ADHD stuff and I need to complain about my meds. I love my meds. They make my brain work. But they do not allow my body to work and that’s a problem -_-
I’ve gone back to taking some of my old 18mg concerta pills in the morning and not taking my early evening booster dose, (i should be taking 27mg morning + 10mg in the evening)
But when I take that prescribed dose I grind my teeth to dust and get palpitations (I have very mild heart issues already)
And now I’m really not functioning as I should, I’ve just remembered my lunch is probably burned in the oven as I wrote this. I do feel a little better physically. I hope they can find a dose between 18 and 37 for me that finds a balance.
I have content that I will post but I’ve had a funeral and stuff going on and I made this sideblog for myself tbh. You’re all extremely welcome but I’ll post whenever I’m feeling up to it
Wow, I started this a few days ago as somewhere to put ADHD stuff I want to share so as not to overwhelm my main and stuff is getting hundreds of notes each which I wasn’t ready for.
Some people have pointed out valid disagreements to me and that’s fine. Do be aware that I wasn’t expecting to be getting hundreds of notes a day, nor am I trying to inform about ADHD in an official manner, this is where I’m putting things on and around the topic that I find and want to share and keep somewhere. Anyone is welcome to follow and interact in a polite way, and I will try to look out for your responses among the notes, or you can message me. But as I said, I’m not here as an authority on the topic.
I honestly thought this was going to mostly act like a folder for me to put ADHD stuff in that maybe might get one or two notes. It’s lovely it’s gotten a response, just don’t read into the memes and stuff too much.
