hi beautiful souls! i’m moving into my very own apartment that i’ve been waiting 6 months to be ready on Tuesday! i’m so grateful!!!

however, since it’s halfway through the month, i had to pay rent at my current place so i’m short on money. my dad was able to loan me most of it, but now i’m ~$50 short of moving.

i would ask my mom but she’s a narcissist and is abusive to me, so i really don’t want to talk to her, and i don’t think she’ll even help me. i have no one else to ask but you guys.

i’m so excited and so grateful that my new apartment is ready, i trust that everything will work out for me! if you’re able to help it work out and donate, my paypal, cashapp, and venmo username is amijo21 ..i just need $50!! please reblog if you can’t help by donating, thank you so much (✿^‿^)(◠‿・)—☆

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huffylemon:

i didn’t SAVOR THE MOMENT ☹️

For my madders:

How do you feel about having a career/job? I’m entering into a formal career setting and the thought makes me sick. Having to put real effort into a job and work seems completely impossible because of my madd. I’m conflicted and frustrated and having a bad time, tbh. I’d love to hear your thoughts/opinions and any advice you may have…

me when i find out who hurt my paras

the only two plots

me moments after i kill and torture a para for fun

that traumatized feeling of having your paras protecting your parame

My paras be like

infiniteorangethethird:

So reading this post about daydreaming in first/third person got me thinking: what kind of medium do others daydream in?

I, for example, used to daydream a lot in “written format”, where it’s like I’m reading a book and imagining the scenarios based off of the text, except the book is in my head. (not sure if that makes a lot of sense ) This format was good because it required less visualizing and therefore less energy, but it had the drawback of having to describe every visual instead of just, imagining it. Then after a while, I started reading less and watching cartoons/series more, and my daydreaming “style” followed suit. I still sometimes use the written format if I’m too lazy to visualize, and the overall “energy” of my daydreams usually reflect the medium I most recently explored, but it’s mostly an animation/live action layout.

What about you guys? I kinda wanna know what’s the most common “medium” for daydreams, and what others’ styles look like

Me looking at tiktok: Wow this really impressive! I can’t wait to make my paras recreate this and pretend like it was their idea!

spherearc:

I know I’m not probably in the position to introduce new terms but I will from now on refer to original paras as primparas (primum is latin for “originally”) and canon-sourced paras as fictparas (because well, they’re from fiction) because it’s shorter and cooler

just-a-simple-bear:

amateur-madder:

I saw a post talking about how losing MADD would suck because it’s sort of become apart of their identity and that even though it’s “maladaptive” it feels like it would genuinely suck to lose it and like I totally agree.

Like personally I wouldn’t be bored if I stopped daydreaming (mostly cause I’ve been using madd to avoid my responsibilities and hobbies) but I would feel like I’ve lost a part of me. Thinking about not daydreaming feels scary cause like I’d be opening a hole that madd was filling and by getting rid of my daydreams I’d never be able to close it

I’m like honestly frightened about losing my paras. At this point they are a permanent part of me and who I am and to lose them feels like losing me

Oh I think about this on the daily. Where does me start and where does MADD end? Literally who am I without it?. I’ve had this coping mechanism for the majority of my life and for it to disappear… genuinely don’t know how I would react.

what the fuck do normal people think about. Genuine question.

I saw a post talking about how losing MADD would suck because it’s sort of become apart of their identity and that even though it’s “maladaptive” it feels like it would genuinely suck to lose it and like I totally agree.

Like personally I wouldn’t be bored if I stopped daydreaming (mostly cause I’ve been using madd to avoid my responsibilities and hobbies) but I would feel like I’ve lost a part of me. Thinking about not daydreaming feels scary cause like I’d be opening a hole that madd was filling and by getting rid of my daydreams I’d never be able to close it

I’m like honestly frightened about losing my paras. At this point they are a permanent part of me and who I am and to lose them feels like losing me

skiaismadd:

one thing that’s so funny about madd is how you can have dry spells for so long and then randomly you just have the best plot driven daydreams.. like where were u when i needed u?

my paras watching me lie and say i did an assignment when i know full well i was with them all day:

if you’re on tiktok AND have madd….and you’ve seen all that stuff about reality shifting ? …. i KNOW we’re all thinking the same thing right now

how i look when im waiting for my mom to leave my room so i can get back to pacing:

you ever see someone irl who looks just like a para? like bitch?? howd you get out of the thought box? go back in !

me, relaxing enjoying my free time:

madd:

when someone says something that triggers a daydream:

creating intricate universes just because im bored:

choosing to daydream as my parame:

okay but i’m not the only one who has developed severe foot issues right? bc i swear pacing so much has absolutely ruined my feet i cant walk around for too long or go out without being in pain