#derealization

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I need help finding a word.

I live with someone who has just… stopped acknowleding my existence. She wont respond, not even to hello. But she will hold conversations with her pets in front of me. She will carry conversations with other people, ignore anything I say, and keep talking to the other person as if I weren’t there and said nothing. I dont know what to call this.

Its causing a weird dissociation thing where I begin to doubt I exist. Like I need to go do things to prove I’m alive/awake. I am pretty sure this is some kind of derealization, but I am not used to it.

I am grateful I have people in my life who I can say “I dont know how to make reality be reality” to and it makes sense to them.

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