#fml fml fml

Being abused by the one you love is the most painful shit…

you’ll never be able to forget it

I’m fighting off a seizure off  and on for a few hours now and I’m worn out and  I’m kinda loosing. I’ve been seizure free for 8 months now, which means that I can learn how to drive and start going places and doing things without being afraid of having a seizure. I don’t want to have a seizure, I really really don’t. 

I think it goes without saying that I could really use some prayers right about now,(plus it says I do in the post’s title) so if my praying peeps would send some my way I’d greatly appreciate it.

Thank you for reading. Sorry about the awful grammar…and the language,

A front and weather changes are moving around where I live, so I’m cuddled up watching tv and playing on the computer. It’s like going back to old times, in the worst way possible.

I am not a fan of these weather changes, not a fan at all.

I’m having a panic attack, it’s been well over an hour, it’s awful. But I have Star Trek and tea, so take that!

Around the beginning of this month I was playing a video game and, out of nowhere, I felt a seizure coming on. Fortunately I got to my Lorazepam in time and did my multitasking tricks and managed to keep it away. I don’t know what could have triggered it; I wasn’t looking at anything with flashing lights, I wasn’t in any more pain than usual, I wasn’t too hot or too cold, it just came out of nowhere and scared me half to death.

It also happened right when I was doing something important and dangerous, so I had to ask my buddy to

keep my avatar alive because I would be very bummed out if I came back and she was dead.

I’m over a year seizure free now, working on learning how to drive, and I don’t want my brain throwing fits to rip that away from me. Not cool brain.

I miss the cold weather, Skate parks and the chill atmosphere in Oregon.

shantyman:

happy pride month me and my roommate both have covid and can’t work until it clears up

it also means i have to push back a surgery AND i still have to save up for a car so basically everything is on fire! i haven’t felt even remotely stable or human for weeks on end I’m Sort Of Hitting My Limit Folks

• k0-fi + v*nmo: shantyman
• c*shapp:shantymen
• DM for p*ypal

anything helps rn especially with us both out of work for at least a week, we’re both already really disabled and in constant pain so this is just a hit nobody needed rn