#hard night
CW: dead pet/cat death/pet euthanasia
Y’all I am not having a good night. I lost my 15 year old cat from childhood two days ago and everytime I close my eyes to try and go to sleep I just keep seeing the whole process of him being put down over and over in my mind. It’s like my mind is on a constant loop of seeing the life go out in his eyes and then seeing his limp body just laying there. I’m so glad I was able to be there for him in his last moments but this fucking sucks and I miss him so much.
Someone once asked me what the most powerful thing in the world was. I could have said money or power or even love, but instead I said words.
Almost:
He almost loved her.
She almost stopped caring.
Theyalmost made it.
Sometimes:
SometimesI want to die.
Its okay sometimes to be sad.
Sometimes I still miss him.
Always:
Iwill always love her.
He is always on my mind.
Anymore:
I don’t love you anymore.
Words. They change the world around us. They change us. They changed me. I changed others with them. And that is what makes them so powerful.
Some nights are harder than others.
Tonight is one of those nights.