#i want to live

I find myself almost in tears, crying scared and sad

I feel so suicidal and I’ll start arguments and debates just so people will talk to me. I’m secluded and alone and I have no friends and I think about killing myself but I’m so afraid of dying.

Someone please help me I know I’m so fucking pathetic I’m begging for help at this point I want to give up sometimes and I can’t handle being who I am anymore. I just wish I one person would see value in me. Just one person would take the time to talk to me and understand.

When I look in the mirror I’m afraid, not unsatisfied, but scared. This isn’t who I am, this isn’t what I want to be, I’m a mutilated ghost.

I need help, people are terrifying and no one wants to share my company. I’m scared and I don’t know who I am or what I’m doing and I need to vent this I’m sorry. I just don’t want to be sorry and I don’t want to cry and I don’t want just pity I just want a friend or just someone to talk to. I can’t take this alone anymore.