#janae writes

melancholy(adj.)

mel·​an·​choly | \ ˈme-lən-ˌkä-lē

: suggestive or expressive of sadness or depression of mind or spirit

days of rain without the sun

waking up in the middle of the night

alone beside you

tears running down my face

your hand on mine

but lightyears away

the sticky blackness choking me

and blocking my air

the panic attacks i battle to keep down

count my breaths

in

and

out

in

and

out

i can do this

i can’t do this

I CAN’T DO THIS

in

and

out

honesty hurts

and sometimes living a lifetime of lies

is better than the truth

i’m sorry

its a weight only i can carry

- j.