The way that I cope with no twilight fanfic is that I make Pinterest boards and a matching playlist for any character and scenario I have planned out in my head…
let me make you one… I’ll do anything to get bitches obsessed with twilight again
Thank you guys for 232 followers on here ! y’all are healing my child who always wanted a popular tumblr page ~ okay now how tf do I make money from this JK JK LMAO ….. not really
This Batman movie should have been an awakening for all you twilight bitches out there RISE FROM THE ASHES RISE I SAY! WRITE THE FAN FICTION, START THE EDITS, MAKE THE MERCH ! DO IT.
They always say pick a career doing something you love… so how does one make money by embarrassing themselves on the internet because when they were younger they tricked themselves into believing that the whole world of twilight was real… asking for a friend ?
The fact that I was so ready to just get up and leave my family to be with some damn wolves and some vampires… Smh I still would though, best believe I still would. I’ve been waiting since I was 8 years old and I’m 21 now
I’m gonna need y’all to go back into your twilight phase and start writing more fanfic >:| I’m tired of reading stuff that was updated 2 years ago and still having hope that a new update will come out soon… plz
This is super random, but for this series, I got inspired by a song and the beginning is actually inspired by a story of mine; how I met the first guy I’ve ever reaaaallllyyyy had a true, big crush on. Anyway, I hope you guys like it and I’m sorry it’s so short!
You took in a deep breath and sat down on the couch in front of Billy. You were so nervous, you started playing with your fingers and couldn’t stop looking at the floor.
“There’s no need for you to be nervous about this.”, Billy told you as he got a little bit closer to you.
You just slowly nodded. You felt like something was caught in your throat. You had a hard time swallowing your saliva or trying to talk.
“So tell me, why did you really come here?” Billy asked as he put both of his hands on his thighs.
“Well, I guess you already kind of know…”, you paused, “Look, I have imagined so many ways of how this would happen and what I would say, but- it’s nothing like what I originally thought .” you paused again. Billy was silent, just listening to you.
“The thing is, I think you might be my dad.”
Silence.
“The reason I think you might be my dad, is because my mom told me she met my dad in Forks, at a bar. She also said that he lived in the Quileute reservation and that his last name is Black.”
“Many people have Black as their last name’.’
As these words left his mouth, you felt a little pinch on your heart.
’‘Yeah, but you’re the only one in the reservation with this last name. I did my research.”
Billy slowly nodded and silence took over the place. For some reason, you wanted to cry.
'What if he wants me to leave and never come here again? Does he hate me? Will Jacob ever know that I’m his sister? What about the twins?’ you thought to yourself. You were happy that you got the chance to find your dad this fast, but you were starting to feel like this was probably a bad idea.
You sighed and stood up before heading towards the door.
“I looked for her.”
You stopped, waiting for Billy to continue.
“I still remember the way she was dressed, how her hair went down to the middle of her back. Sometimes, it’s like I can still smell her perfume.”, he paused, which made you turn around and walk back towards him. “I went back to that bar many times, hoping that’ll find her again.”
You waited before asking: “Did you love her?”
He sighed.
“Love is a strong word, but no I didn’t.”, he rolled his wheelchair towards his daughter. “See, it’s not because you get along with a person, or because you enjoy that person’s company and feel at peace, that that person is the love of your life. It also doesn’t mean that you’re in love with that person. Your mother and I were young, wanting to have a taste of what adult life was. I wasn’t going through a good time in my life back then…”, he looked at you in silence for a few seconds.
'Why the heck would he say that?’, you asked yourself. You thought about it harder, then you realized why he said that. He cheated on Jacob’s mom with mine.
“But it took me some time to realize that it was just platonic. I didn’t know Amelia was pregnant. If I would’ve known, I would have taken care of you. You’re my kid just as much as Jacob, Rachel and Rebecca are my kids.”, he said as he gave you a warm smile.
A few tears ran down your cheeks as you smiled at your dad, which he returned. He then approached you to hug you. The moment was cut short when Jacob came back in. He looked confused as he saw you hugging.
“Hey… Um, we are waiting for Y/N.”
“Don’t worry, your sister was just leaving.”
Jacob frowned in confusion.
“Sister? What are you talking about?”
“I’ll explain everything on our way to the beach.”
—–
At the beach, you greeted the guys and some new faces. You met Emily, Sam, Seth and Kim. They were actually nice, especially Seth, but your focus was on Embry. He was still acting like nothing happened and it made your blood boil. Thanks to a huge rush of adrenaline, you stood up and walked over to Embry who was throwing and catching a football ball with Seth.
“Ok, what’s wrong with you?”, you said as you tapped on his shoulder after he threw Seth the ball. His beautiful brown eyes settled on yours before he looked away at Seth again.
“I’m good, why?”
You scoffed at his answer.
“Because you’ve been ignoring me ever since what happened yesterday night-”, Embry interrupted you by taking your arm and walking away with you.
“Shhh!”, he looked over at the guys, then back at you “The guys could hear you.”
You frowned at him.
“No they can’t. They are far away.”
'Dumbass’, you cursed him in your head. Little did you know that you were the dumbass and they could, in fact, hear you.
You walked with him in silence far away from the others.
“Ok tell me. What’s going on?”, you crossed your arms around your chest, waiting for him to explain himself, but something was distracting you a little bit; small butterflies. Something you shouldn’t feel. Not now, not here. You were leaving in two days. On monday, everything was going to be different. You were going to leave. You kept telling yourself that the only reason why you should keep in touch with this res was because of your dad, your brother and the sisters you have but never met, but deep down, you knew that Embry was another reason.
“You didn’t catch feelings right?”
You raised your left eyebrow in confusion.
“Excuse me?”
“You do know that it was just a one night stand, right?”, he asked
You didn’t know what to say. After you had sex, you talked about so many stuff. You talked about stupid stuff, made jokes, then had a serious conversation. One where he mentioned his dad and how he thought him and Sam might have the same father, then went back to making jokes. You got the chance to get to know him a lot. You knew he liked art and he could play the guitar and the piano, he admitted to you that Mean Girls was one of his favorite movies when you mentioned it. He said it was a secret between you two. He also told you that him and the guys love to watch it every time they can, but you couldn’t tell anyone because then, the guys would kill him after he kills you.
All that got you confused because why would he tell you all of that and make you see a side of him that definitely made you want something more with him? It was hard for you to let it sink in. You thought he had at least, a small crush on you or that he liked you after the night you had.
‘Great way of making him think you’re not easy, dumbass!’, you told yourself while kissing him. Either way, you didn’t regret it.
You slowly pulled away from him. Your cheeks felt like they were burning and your stomach too. You felt something you never felt before. Not even your ex-boyfriend made you feel that way. Being thirsty for him were the right words to use.
Embry’s hands were still on your waist, while his eyes were looking at your lips. You slowly put your hand on his cheek, making him look at you. You stared at each other for a few seconds before smashing your lips together. The kiss got intense in just a few seconds. You took your hand off his cheek to put both of your hands underneath his shirt. Your hands were going up to his chest. His abs were hard; he was also so warm and you loved it.
Embry suppressed a moan before pulling away, he took your hand and started walking in a different direction from school.
“Wait, where are you taking me?”, you asked him.
“My house.”, he replied. You could tell by the way he looked at you that you had turned him on.
“No! I got a curfew and I do not want to get locked out!”
Embry sighed, then a few seconds later, smiled. It seemed like an idea came up to him.
“I got you. We’re going to school, but you just have to promise me one thing.”
“What?”, you asked as you got closer to him.
“Don’t scream.”
You smirked as you ran to school with him. Once you got inside the school, Embry took you to a classroom near a small hallway. You didn’t know how he knew it was open, but you didn’t question him. All you wanted was him.
You got into the classroom before him, then he closed the door without turning the lights on. It was an art class. You could tell because of a few costumes that were on a box. There was a small purple couch between the board and the teacher’s desk. There were also a few tables and a tall white lamp. Embry grabbed you by the waist and turned you around to face him. His lips quickly went on your neck and you immediately grabbed his hair. His left hand went down to the edge of your pants before he slid them underneath your panties. You let out a moan as he started to make small circles on your clitoris. You bite down on your lips before you pushed him away and took off your shirt. He smiled before taking off his top, revealing his perfectly sculptured chest and abs.
You turned around, and slowly took off you pants. As you were about to turn around, you felt Embry’s chest against your back; you didn’t know how fast he did it, but his boxers were already off him. His lips were on your shoulder, while his hands were slowly pulling down your panties.
After that, everything happened so quick. You woke up the next day, laying down on the small couch. You had your clothes on. You sighed when you noticed that Embry wasn’t next to you, but flashbacks of last night made you feel alive and happy. You smiled to yourself as your right hand touched your neck.
You got up, put your hair in a bun and walked out of the class. You quietly made your way to your “room”. Y/B/N wasn’t there. You shrugged before taking a few things to go shower. As you got out of the classroom, your best friend scared you to death by showing up out of nowhere.
“Damn Y/B/N! You scared me!”, you whispered to her.
“Well, I’m glad I did! Where the heck were you last night? I was worried and I had to cover for you! Coach would’ve killed me if he would’ve found out that you weren’t with m-”
“I slept with Embry”, you interrupted her.
Your best friend let out a huge gasp.
“Y/N, you sl-”, she half yelled.
“Shut up! I’ll tell you the details later. I need to shower.”
Your best friend chuckled.
“You dirty little shit.”, she said making you both laugh.
—-
It was ten in the morning, you were next to your best friend and the same man that was volunteering with you yesterday night, waiting for the first game of the day to start. A few teenagers were sitting on the bleachers to watch the game. Today, you got the chance to see your school team play. You took the sheet to see who was playing against your school team. You held in your breath when you saw familiar names written down.
'Jacob Black, Embry Call, Paul Lahote… Embry.’, you read. Now you were panicking a little bit. Not because you regretted what happened last night- that you did not regret! You just felt awkward because why did he leave without telling you anything? He could’ve said something to you! After you had sex with him, both of you put on your clothes, then sat down on the couch and started talking about random stuff. It was going so well! Nothing was forced and you had a great time together- well, it’s what you thought. You didn’t even know when or how you fell asleep, but he could’ve left a note or something.
'Whatever, we are not dating so technically, he doesn’t owe me any explanation’, you said to yourself.
Right after that, the boys you met yesterday came in and the teenagers on the bleachers started cheering. You made eye contact with Embry. You didn’t know if you had to wave, smile or not or just do nothing. You decided to give him a small smile. You expected him to smile you back, but he just looked away.
Ouch. You felt a small pinch on your heart. You were so confused, but decided to brush it off. You told yourself that you were going to wait after the game to go talk to him.
The game ended at 1-5. You felt bad for your team, but at least they were second on the ranking!
Y/B/N was about to ask you something, but you quickly walked over to Embry who was talking with Jacob. As soon as Embry saw you approaching, he walked away.
'What the fuck is wrong with him?’, you asked yourself even more confused than before.
Jacob noticed your confusion and smiled at you to try to make you feel a little bit better.
“Sorry for his behavior, it’s been a rough morning for him, that’s all. Don’t take it personal.”, he said.
'Yeah, or it’s because he regrets what happened last night!’, you told yourself.
“Anyway, it must be boring staying in these walls all day and during the night, so if you want to, you and Y/B/N can come to the beach at 5. The guys and I will be there.”
“Sure, we’ll be there, but I don’t know how to get to the beach.”
“Cool, I’ll come here before meeting with the guys. My friend Bella will also be there.”
Then an idea came up.
“Or, I could go over to your house? I mean, I want to walk and explore a little bit.”, in reality you just wanted to see if Billy was there. That was the main reason why you agreed to come here… also it would help you get your mind off things with Embry.
“You’re not scared to get lost or anything?”, he asked as he raised his left eyebrow.
“Not really. I mean, yes, but I won’t. I’m pretty good when it comes to orientation.”, you lied.
Jacob stayed silent for a few seconds before sighing. He gave you his address before walking away.
—-
It was almost 5 and you got lost with Y/B/N more than three times.
“Ugh Y/N if we get lost again, I promise you I’ll knock you out before-”, she started saying while getting angry.
“Found it! It’s here!”, you interrupted her as you admired the little house.
This was where your dad and brother lived.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” your best friend asked you as she remembered the conversation you had with her before coming to Jacob’s.
“Yes I am. It’s not the best idea, but at least I can get closer to him that way.”
“Alright then, let’s go knock.”, Y/B/N said.
Both of you walked over to the house and you had the honor of knock on the door. You got greeted by Jacob’s beautifully white smile.
“Hey girls, come in. My friend Bella is on her way. We’ll just wait for her to get here.”, he said as he let you in.
“Jacob, where’s your dad?” you abruptly asked him.
'Great! I could’ve triedto be more casual!’, you told yourself.
“He was out during the whole day, but he should be home by now. It’s weird he is still not here.”
'Damn it! Why did he have to be out for this long today?!?’, you mentally cussed.
“Why don’t you call him? Yeah, you should call him and ask where he is and when he is coming home”, you said as you gave Jacob your cell phone to call Billy.
Jacob frowned as he eyed you up and down.
“Thank you for your kindness, but I don’t need to parent my dad and anyway, I have a phone too…”
'I know that and I don’t care. I just want his phone number!…Woaw that sounded creepy’, you told yourself.
You were about to say something when you heard a man’s voice.
“Jake, I’m home.” Billy said before you heard the door close.
Your heart started to beat faster. What were you going to do or say?
“By the way, Bella’s outside waiting for you.”,Billy said again before entering the living room and seeing the three of you.
“Thanks dad, we’re leaving.” He gave Billy a pat on the shoulder and walked towards the door.
Y/B/N looked at you, giving you a reassuring smile.
“I’ll cover for you if Jacob asks anything. You got this, I believe in you.” she whispered to you before running towards the door to follow Jacob.
You and Billy just looked at each other. You opened your mouth to say something, but he beat you to it.
“I guess you’re here to talk.”
You nodded.
“Sit down then. I think it’s going to be a long talk.”
*I’m so sorry I took forever guys Hope you like it*
Billy composed himself on his wheelchair, while Charlie was standing next to him with a hand in his pocket. All eyes were now on you.
“You’re a ‘Black’ too?” Billy asked you frowning. You were about to answer him when he asked you another question. “You’re not from here, right?”
You shook your head no.
“No, I’m not. I live in a reservation that’s like an hour away from here.”
“Who’s your dad, kid?”, Billy asked again. Jacob sat back down, his eyes still on you.
'You.’,you said to yourself.
“I-I don’t know him. I mean, he wasn’t around. My mom met him in a bar in Forks, for her 21st birthday-” Charlie cut you off and it startled you.
“Alright!”, he clasped his hands together before adding: “We are not going to get into a personal conversation in a public place.” he said as he put his two hands on Billy’s wheelchair handles. “You guys have a nice night. We are heading out.”
Jacob frowned at Charlie’s strange behavior and also because he had noticed that his dad got super quiet after Y/N told him how her parents met.
“But you didn’t even order anything.”, Jacob said to the two older men.
“Yeah, we don’t want that anymore. Right Billy?”, Charlie said as he looked at his friend.
“Right. Jake, I’ll see you home.”, Billy said before looking straight at you. “Have a nice evening and be careful.”, then Charlie pushed the wheelchair to the exit.
You stared at your hands for what felt like an hour. You had completely zoned out and you felt like you had thorns in your throat- something that you always felt whenever you were upset in a room full of people or when you were arguing while crying. You were lost in your thoughts. You couldn’t even hear the conversation that was going on around you, but one touch was enough to make you come back from your thoughts- Embry’s.
“Hey, are you okay?” he asked you. He seemed concerned about you and seemed genuine.
You couldn’t make out any words and you had a hard time breathing. You stared at his beautiful structured face without letting out a word. Your best friend, who noticed how quiet you had gotten, stood up from her seat. She knew you weren’t well.
“Um, Y/N, can you please come with me to the bathroom.”, she quickly said to you.
You simply nodded and followed her to the bathroom. You both stared at each other for a few seconds before Y/B/N saw that you were about to cry. She pulled you against her and wrapped her arms around you.
“It’s okay, let it out, let it all out.”, she said as she stroked your hair. Once you were done crying, you told her everything that was going on- your dad situation.
“Wait, so Billy might be your dad and Jacob might be your brother!?”, she asked, her eyes wide.
“Yes, but don’t say this too loud. I don’t know how I’m going to tell Billy.”, you paused before adding, “By the way, I don’t even know if I’m really going to tell him. For the past three years, all I’ve wanted was to see him and now that I have, I don’t even know what to do. All the scenarios I’ve made in my head of how I was going to see him for the first time and what I was going to say and how I was going to say it, it’s like it doesn’t even matter anymore. What if he doesn’t even care that I’m his daughter? What if he doesn’t believe me? What am I going to do? It will be so humiliating, Y/B/N, I will be so ashamed.”, you told her, letting all your emotions out at the most inappropriate place ever.
“Look, I really wish I had answers to your worries, but I don’t. All I can say, is to do whatever your heart and your instincts tell you to do. I can also advise you to do something that you won’t regret doing when you think about it months later.”, she paused before rubbing your shoulders, “I know I can get really annoying sometimes and very boy crazy, like you have witnessed tonight…”, she paused for a few seconds and chuckled.“and every time we go out, but just know that no matter what happens, I’ll always be there for you and you can tell me anything you want, whenever you want.”
You smiled at her feeling grateful before heading out.
After you all ate, you all walked outside to Jacob’s car.
“Hey, I’m actually going to walk.”, you said to them, earning a fake laugh from your best friend.
“Heck no you’re not-”
“Don’t worry, I’ll walk with her and make sure she gets back to school safe.”, Embry said to your best friend after he interrupted her.
Your best friend didn’t want to leave you alone, but you gave her an approving look.
After they left, you walked along side Embry in complete silence. After a while, he abruptly stopped you as he faced you. You looked up to meet his brown eyes.
“What?” You asked him.
“You don’t feel it?”, he asked.
You were confused. 'What the fuck is he talking about?’ You asked yourself.
“The connection we have.”, he simply said.
You snorted, then just stared at him for a few seconds when you realized he was being serious.
“What is it that you smoke? Crack? You smoke crack? I don’t know you, so there’s no connection between us. Now if you’ll excuse me.” You said as you waved your right hand to the right so he could move, but he didn’t. He just stood there, his jaw clenched and his eyes still on you. You couldn’t lie, it was hot and you did feel a connection. You just didn’t want him to think you were easy.
With a fast and smooth movement, he wrapped his right arm around your waist and pulled you over him. You were excited. He leaned in, his lips only inches apart from yours. You were now craving him. Your throat felt super dry at the moment.
“You’re going to tell me you still don’t feel it?”, he asked as his breath hit your lips.
“No, I don’t. ”
Embry chuckled and mumbled 'alright’ before he kissed you. You were surprised, but you still kissed back. This could be the first and last time you’d kiss him and you were going to make the most out of it.
So I feel like little me is back and I’m starting to ‘’obsess’’ over Jacob Black all over again. I hope y’all like this. *I was in the mood for something a bit sad?? oh and I don’t see Jacob in a bad way ok? Please don’t think I do (he’s actually my very first twilight character love-been team Jacob forever). I hope you guys like it*
Why do I keep doing this? Damn Talking to myself like “Now, what’s the play?” Kiki this is bullshit, damn You know you ain’t new to this Make the same mistakes
You were lying down on your bed, looking at the ceiling. The silence in your house was pretty comfortable considering that you were home alone. You were just thinking about something that seemed to come back in your mind every single day for the past two weeks. To make things clear, you had a ‘’thing’’ with Jacob. You weren’t in a relationship because he claimed he had ‘’feelings’’ for Bella, but he also seemed to be interested in you. But, you weren’t friends with benefits because the ‘’thing’’ you both had going on, was more than just friends. You both didn’t act like friends with each other and you weren’t the only ones who had noticed that there was definitely something between you two- Quil and Embry have noticed. The fact that you didn’t know exactly what was going on between you two is what got you messed up and you hated that. Especially because you knew about his little ‘’feelings’’ for Bella. Anyway, even if all of that kept bothering you, you always found yourself going back to him, just like he would always come back to you.
All we do is fuck then regret it Fuck and forget it I won’t let it get like that Every little thing that you say I put to rest, I ain’t going to get like that
Whenever he would come over your house or you would go over to his, you would tell yourself; ‘’Y/N, don’t let him get to you again. You can’t let your feelings for him get in the fucking way. He’s way too confused and doesn’t know what he wants. You can’t wait for him forever’’. But as soon as his warm and soft hands would touch you, you couldn’t resist him. After only three minutes into his house, your clothes and his would be all over the floor, along with his bed sheets.His lips would be working against yours in perfect synchronization. You loved the way the tip of his fingers gave you chills, you loved that rush of excitement you got on your stomach whenever his skin was against yours. There was no better music to your ears, then hearing him moan and growl because of how much pleasure he got from you. You loved straddling him while riding his dick and having his hands around your waist. There was no better feeling than hearing him scream your name at the top of his lungs. You had control over him- power over him during these moments and you enjoyed it. Whenever you didn’t see him for a week or just a few days and you both needed each other, you could spend almost a whole day having sex. Rounds after rounds and even if you were tired, you didn’t care. It was the only way to be as intimate with Jacob as you could.
But right after you were done and you would lay down next to him, realization would hit you; Bella might be in his mind right now.
Or, there were a few times where he had to leave right after to go see her. These thoughts always shattered you and because of them you kept telling yourself that you couldn’t let your feelings for him get in the way of this toxic ‘’thing’’ you had going on.
I can’t let this love get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way I can’t let this love get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way Every time that we exchange in conversation I won’t listen to a thing that you’ve got to say Always telling me you want me, that you need me
One day, you had enough. You confronted him about it. You wanted to know what his true intentions were. You wanted to know if he was willing to try and let go of his stupid feelings for Bella and give you a chance. But he told you what he always said: ‘’Y/N, you know this is not easy for me. I’m not trying to hurt you or anything. You knew that I had feelings for Bella before we started this.’’, he would say.
He wasn’t wrong. In a way, you were toxic too. You kept trying over and over again without letting it go, but he was still confused and whatever it is that you were trying to do to win him over, wasn’t enough.
‘‘You know we do have something special, but I can’t deny my feelings for her.’‘, he would say right after. And what would your dumb ass reply?
‘‘Yeah, I know. Anyway, I gotta go.’‘, then you would leave.
Saying you ain’t running games, you ain’t tryna play Anyway I’m on a different wave I got people to see, you know I got places to go I ain’t even really tripping I’m just letting you know We gotta stop running in circles, start letting it go, yo
But then, a few days later, you would get mad, go to his house and tell him that enough is enough, that you can’t spend the rest of your life waiting for his answer. Then, you would both start arguing and you would hear things like: ‘’I get why you’re jealous, it’s understandable, but you have to stop blaming me for the whole situation. I do admit that I’m not handling all that situation like I should, but I am definitely not the only one to blame here! Let me remind you that youwanted this in the first place. I did agree, because I wanted it too, I reallydid, but it was your idea.’’ and you would reply with: ‘’Well can you blame me for wanting to have your attention? I know I’m not doing this the right way too, but what else can I do when all you seem to care about is her? I know I am super selfish right now and I shouldn’t be, but I can’t help it.’’
A silence would fill the room for a few minutes, until you would both start undressing each otheragain,making the same mistakeagain, for what felt like the hundredth time.
All we do is fuck then regret it Fuck and forget it I won’t let it get like that Every single thing that you say I put to rest, I ain’t going to get like that
And as soon as you’re done, you would regret it. Not because you didn’t enjoy it- you certainly did! You just wanted more than this and you couldn’t have it. In a way, it made you feel miserable- going after someone who didn’t even know if he wanted to be with you- someone who wasn’t even a 110% sure of his feelings for you.
I can’t let this love get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way I can’t let this love get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way
There were days where you had plans with your friends and you would ditch them just to see him. Why? Simply because you wanted to see him, you missed being close to him and sometimes, you could spend almost a week without seeing him.
Whenever you would tell your friends that you were going to see Jacob, they would always give you disapproving looks. Not because they didn’t like Jake- he was a good guy, but because they knew in what situation you were in. They would tell you: ‘’Y/N, this is not healthy for you or him.This is way too toxic and you both need to let it go.’’
Deep down, you knew they were right, but you didn’t care. You loved the attention he gave you. You always dismissed their opinions and drove as fast as you could to go see him and have sex.
Nah, now we doin’ this again like I knew we would Got me fucking up my plans, knowing that I shouldn’t Take a minute, take a second just to think it through And I know I could do better
You knew this was messing you up badly, but it was like you were addicted to him. Like he was your drug. You couldn’t get enough of his kisses, his touch and hearing his voice. Sometimes, while you were in the middle of having sex, thoughts like ‘’You have to stop this’’, came through, but you quickly pushed it away. You didn’t want to deal with that, because you ‘had’ Jacob.
But trust me it’s not my fault, I can’t leave it alone Trying my hardest but it ain’t easy at all Everyday we say exchange in conversation Then I know that this is it, we won’t ever change
One time, right after ditching your friends for him, you were sitting on his bed, watching a movie and eating junk food. You had completely zoned out as you started to think. It was like your subconscious was talking to you.Telling you to let it go because even if you tried hard enough, nothing between you two would change. As hard as it was for you, you had to let it go.
And out of the blue, you said his name, making him look at you and you said:
‘’ ‘Cause all we do is fuck then regret it Fuck and forget it I won’t let it get like that Every single thing that you say I put to rest, I ain’t going to get like that I can’t let this love get in way, Nah’’
You both stayed in silence, looking straight into each other’s eyes.
‘‘I guess this is it, then?’‘, Jacob asked in almost a whisper. You nodded while looking down at your feet.
‘‘Yeah, it’s too toxic. We can’t keep doing this to ourselves.’‘, you said back to him.
You stood up and before you left, Jacob engulfed you in a big, tight hug saying:
The game was about to end and the tension was getting higher. The crowd was cheering for their school’s team. You were so into it, that your heart started beating faster and faster by the second. There was only 45 seconds left to the game. You found out earlier in the game that number 24- Embry, was part of this school’s team. They were actually winning and whenever he made a goal you had a little rush of excitement in your stomach.
The crowd errupted into screams and cheers when number 8; Jacob, who might be your brother, scored the last goal.
After the game, their team stayed a little bit in the gymnasium. You took it as a opportunity to walk over to them and ask for the soccer ball.
“Y/N wait!”, your best friend half yelled at you before you got to the boys. She smiled at the boys who seemed to have heard and then looked at you as she whispered:
“Please, let me go get the ball.”
“No! No! I already let you put their stupid bracelet.”, you said shaking your head from side to side.
“Girl please! I need to talk to my future baby daddy.”, she desperately said. You cringed at her words and eyed her from up and down.
“Ew, don’t say that. By the way, you sound desperate.” your best friend gasped before you walked away from her, towards the boys. They stopped talking and all looked towards you. You walked closer to them, being only a few feet away.
“Can I please have the ball?”, you asked them, Jacob gave it to you with a small smile. You took it and smiled back as you mouthed a small ‘thank you’. You started to walk away, but stopped to turn back around. You wanted, no, needed to say something to Jacob. You needed to know if you were related or not.
“Hey, nice goal by the way!”, you said to him. He flashed a beautiful smile.
“Thank you. I’m Jacob. Jacob Black”,
'Yeah, I know, but score! He might lead me to my dad and I need all the help I can get because I’m only here for three days.’, you said to yourself.
“I’m Y/N. It’s nice to meet you.”, he walked a bit closer to you.
“Likewise.”
Before he could say anything else, one of the other team members jogged towards you and grabbed Jacob by the neck. You remembered him as the first one to get his bracelet.
“Hey Jake, why don’t you ask your new friend if she wants to come with us at the diner?”, he asked with a smirk.
Jacob chuckled and shook his head.
“This is Quil Ateara. Ateara, this is Y/N.”
You flashed Quil a smile and you could feel your best friend’s stare on you along with the other boys.
“Wanna come?”, Jacob asked you.
'Ohmygosh Y/N, this is it! This is your train ticket to your final destination! You can’t miss the train.’, you said to yourself.
“Of course!”, you said with no hesitation and then added, “But my best friend has to come too.”
Your best friend jogged over to you and smiled at the two boys in front of you and introduced herself. Jacob and Quil introduced themselves before you all walked towards the other three boys.
“Guys, this is Y/N and her best friend, Y/B/N. Girls, this is Jared, Paul and Embry.”, Jacob said.
The seven of you walked outside towards two cars. Jacob, Quil and Embry got into what seemed like Jacob’s car and Jared and Paul got into another one.
“We’ll be a little late. Jared wants us to go get Kim and I want Rachel to come.”, Paul said as he opened his car door.
“Rachel? No, you’re not bringing Rachel with us. I still have a hard time accepting that you’re dating my sister.”, Jacob said from inside his car. It amazed you how well they could hear. If it had been you, you’d be shouting and you knew Y/B/N would still not hear a thing.
“Wait, hold up!” your best friend said, over pronouncing the 'o’ and looking straight at Paul. “You got a girlfriend?!”, Y/B/N half yelled. You rolled your eyes and chuckled.
'This bitch cannot be anymore obvious.’, you said to yourself.
Paul looked amused and you could tell he was holding in a laugh, while your best friend was a little pressed.
“Yeah, I do.”, Paul said with small smile.
Your best friend bit down her lower lip as she nodded and walked over to Jacob’s car. You were going to sit on the passenger seat when your best friend slightly pushed you. You gave her a confused look.
“What are you doing?”, you whispered to her.
“I’m sitting next to Jacob. He’s the second hottest.”, she calmly said. Your eyes widened in fear that Jacob had heard what she said.
“Stop it! You can’t see him as a second option. You wouldn’t like it if it were you.”, you said, defending him. She looked at you for five seconds, her stare was blank.
“Well, you’ll sit with him when we come back.”, she got in the car and closed the door. You sighed and opened a door. Quil got out and let you get in between him and Embry.
Jacob started the car while Y/B/N started throwing him questions to 'get to know him better’ like she always says. You could tell how much she wanted his attention because well, Paul was out of reach. You hated whenever she did stuff like that, especially when the guys were friends. Meanwhile, you felt Embry’s stare on you. You slowly turned your head towards him and looked straight into his eyes. He subtily got closer to you and well, you did the same. His large hand brushed your leg and you could feel the warmth of his skin against your jeans. It made you feel all giddy.
“Sorry.”, he said with a little smirk, but you could tell he didn’t mean it. Not like you cared anyway, you liked it. A few seconds later, he did it again, but he didn’t say sorry. He just looked straight up ahead of him and smirked. You bit down your lips and decided to play along. You 'brushed’ your hand on his thigh. He looked at you right after it, then you said:
“Sorry.”, with a small smirk.
A few moments later, Jacob parked in front of the diner. Embry got out of the car and held the door open for you. You got out and thanked him. You felt a little nervous- he was way too beautiful and his smile was stunning! During the walk to the diner and to your table, Embry walked beside you making casual talks, like where you were from, how old you were, ect. Once you got to your table, you sat down between Embry and Jacob. Your best friend wasn’t too thrilled to sit next to Quil because he kept talking to her nonstop and she couldn’t say a word to Jacob like you knew she had planned, but you didn’t care.
“Jacob, you have a sister, right?”, you randomly asked. You only wanted to talk to Embry, but you came here for a specific reason and you only had three days. Plus, you couldn’t let yourself get attached to Embry because of the same reason- you were here for three days.
“Yeah, two actually. They’re twins. One of them, who’s name is Rachel, is dating Paul, but I think you’ve heard that earlier.”
You were about to ask something else, when Jacob got up from his seat and greeted a man in a wheelchair and another man who was standing. You were trying to get a better look at the man in the wheelchair, but Embry got your attention. You turned your head towards him, making eye contact. He got closer to your ear, making you look ahead of you. You could see how annoyed your best friend was with Quil’s jokes as she stared at him blankly. Then, Embry whispered as low as he could:
“I know this is very random to say and it’s probably not the right place to say it, but I just wanted to let you know that you’re beautiful.” His breath was hitting your neck and his lips were only inches apart from your ear. Your heart started to beat faster and the place suddenly got hot to you. You slowly turned your head towards him, while he moved back his head a tiny bit. Your faces were only inches apart and in that moment, you knew there was a thing going on between you two. You were about to say something when Jacob’s voice interrupted your moment. You were a bit pissed, but there was nothing you could do about it.
“Girls, meet my dad, Billy and his best friend, Charlie.”, Jacob happily said.
You tensed up and froze. You knew Embry and your best friend had noticed because they both gave you weird looks. You just stared at Billy with your mouth wide open. You wanted to say something but you didn’t know what or how. You’ve been waiting for this moment for so long, but this wasn’t how you planned it. You had planned to find where he lived and show up at his house. Not meet him in a restaurant where you were flirting with guy. What would he think about you?
'Say something! You look like a fish outside of the water.’, you said to yourself. You composed yourself and blinked a few times before clearing your throat.
“Sorry, I-I am Y/N.”, in that moment you hesitated. You didn’t know if it was appropriated for you to say your last name or not. After a few seconds of thinking it through, you decided to say it. You reminded yourself that you only had three days here and you had to make the most of it because you didn’t know if your mom was going to let you come here again. Heck, she didn’t even know that you wanted to come here to look for your dad. Also, she had a hard time letting you come here.
“Y/N Black.”, The three teenagers and the two men frowned at you.
“You’re a Black?”, Jacob asked you as he looked back and forth from his dad and you.
-Bleh, I don’t really like this part even though I rewrote it more than twice. Hope you liked it though! Please feedbacks are very appreciated!-
You read the message more than five times and didn’t realize you were holding in your breath.
You started crying. Your mom had another night shift, so you cried as loud as you wanted to without worrying that anyone could hear you. You called your best friend and as soon as she heard you cry, she made her way to your house.
“Y/B/N I really don’t know why the heck I’m crying. It’s not like we were in a relationship.” You were sobbing incredibly hard and if it wasn’t because Y/B/N had known you your entire life, she wouldn’t have understood anything.
“It hurts Y/B/N. It freaking hurts and I don’t know why.”
Y/B/N wipped away your tears and made you look at her.
“Babe, even if you don’t want to admit it or maybe it’s because you don’t realize it; it’s hurting you this much because you love him. Y/N, you’re in love with Paul.”
You wanted to argue with her, but you couldn’t. There was absolutely nothing you could say because it was true. You never said it out loud and you never admitted it to yourself because you were scared. A part of you knew that you’ve always liked him and that you fell in love with him a few weeks ago. The other part of you didn’t want to admit it or say it out loud because you were scared that it wasn’t reciprocal. You didn’t want to be the dumb girl who fell in love with the guy she hooks up with.
“I want this pain to go away.” you said as you laid down on your bed, making your best friend mimic your position.
“Oh honey, unfortunately, that’s not how it works.” she paused, “but, we can watch your favorite comedy movies to cheer you up?!” she then took something from her bag that was next to your bed. “I brought you your favorite sweets.”
——
The next two days that followed, made you angry.
‘I don’t get it! Everything was going well. There was no sign of awkwardness or him being uncomfortable. Since when is Paul uncomfortable with me? I never did anything he didn’t want me to do and I never will. I didn’t see this coming and I don’t know the reason to why he doesn’t 'feel it anymore’. How can he switch up this fast? There is something wrong and I am going to find out.’ you told yourself.
A part of you was scared that he wanted to stop because he found someone else, someone that can potentially have his heart. You didn’t want that, but you weren’t going to say it out loud.
Being your stubborn self, you walked over to his house and knocked on the door three times.
No one answered. You let out a heavy sigh and made your way to the beach. On your way there, you saw him with Jared. They were walking, talking about something and laughing about it.
'Right, he’s probably laughing with Jared about how he just left me there like a garbage bag’ you said to yourself.
Without thinking about it twice, you made your way to them.
“Hey!” you yelled, “Paul!” you yelled again.
You got in front of the two boys making them stop. Jared looked at you, then awkwardly looked at the beach. Paul was just staring at you.
“What do you mean 'you’re not feeling it anymore’? Since when?” you asked him slightly raising your tone, crossing your arms. He was still looking at you, not saying anything.
“So you can’t give me the real reason as to why you’re 'not feeling it anymore’, but you also can’t freaking talk to me?”
Jared abruptly turned his head to look at his friend. He took in a deep breath before putting an arm around Paul’s shoulders.
“Y/N, Paul is not feeling well-” Jared started saying, but you interrupted him. You didn’t care about what Jared was going to say. You wanted to talk with Paul. You didn’t know how Jared didn’t get the hint. He usually knew when to take a hint. He was slow today, you thought.
“You know what, fuck you then. Ok it’s over. This special friend thing and our friendship. I don’t need you anyways. You ain’t shit. You’re always using girls for your advantage. I’ve known you for so long and I can’t believe I didn’t see this coming.” you shook your head from side to side. “You’re a fucking jerk.” you turned around and walked away.
Paul thought he could take it, but you took it way too far.
“Excuse me? Don’t blame me for all of this. This is your fault!” he said getting angry.
You scoffed while turning around, looking at him in disbelieve.
“Myfault? How is this my fault?” you asked him, but didn’t let him answer you. “You’re the one who has been acting weird, plus you tell me you wanted to see me today, you ghost me, don’t reply to me and I see you here hanging out with Jared like nothing happened!”
Jared interrupted.
“Look, I don’t mind going away, but you probably don’t want to have this conversation here at the beach. Everyone’s listening! Go to the tree line or something.” Jared said before fist bumping Paul’s fist and walking away. It was then your turn to walk away with Paul to the tree line.
Now that nobody could listen to you, you continued your conversation.
“As I was saying, you’rethe one who just left me there.” you said tapping your index on his chest.
Paul took a deep breath, then let out a heavy sigh.
“You’re the one who said 'I love you’, then acted like it was nothing, Y/N!”
You gasped.
“Excuse you! You said 'I love you’ too! I’m not the only one.” you paused “And anyways, you said it because we were making love. Not because you actually love me.”
“Say it again Y/N. What were we doing?” he asked getting slightly closer, his tone still cold.
“I don’t need to say it if you already know what we are talking about.” you said after letting out another scoff.
“Answer me, Y/N. What were we doing?” he repeated.
You rolled your eyes as you let out a sigh.
“Love. We were making love.”
“Exactly. So how can someone in their right mind, say 'I love you’ while making love and not mean it?”
You were about to say something, but immediately shut your mouth. He was right, but were you going to say it? No.
“You see, you’re not saying anything because I’m right.” his voice was softer than before and he didn’t seem that tense or angry anymore.
You shook your head 'no’.
“No. You only said 'I love you’ because you were lost in the moment, because you liked the pleasure you were getting but not because you meant it. Stop lying.”
Paul let out a frustrated sigh and ran his hands through his hair before clasping his hands together.
“Y/N/, that doesn’t make any sense.” he paused “Damn it, I’m legit telling you that I love you and you’re telling me to stop lying?!”
You froze. It’s not that you weren’t happy because you were! You finally knew that your feelings were reciprocal, but everything was going so fast. You were arguing and you were mad at him just a few seconds ago and now he was telling you that he loved you. You needed time to process it all. You were slightly insecure. You knew that Paul had told three girls that he loved them in the past without meaning it. You knew that he was sincere right now because well, you knew him like the palm of your hand. But you couldn’t help to be insecure about it.
“You’ve told girls in the past that you loved them when you didn’t. How do I know that you’re not playing me?” you were getting mad again and tears started to run down your cheeks. “Look, I’m not someone you can manipulate into your liking, Paul. I don’t-” your voice was rising and Paul quickly interrupted you.
“Y/N!” he yelled your name. You stopped talking to stare at him.
“I’ve done things with you that I have never done with anyone before. I stopped flirting and hooking up with other girls because of a promise that we made. I have canceled many plans with Jared and with some other friends just to be with you. You’re the first girl I made love with and that I actually said 'I love you’ while genuinely meaning it. I love your stubborn, annoying and kind ass and I wouldn’t change it for anything. I’ve been in love with you for a month now. I just never told you because I thought you only saw me as your special friend and nothing more and I guess I was right.”
Andagain, this was a lot to process. You wanted to tell him that you felt the same way, that you loved him, that there was nothing you wanted more than to be with him… but nothing came out of your mouth. You were just standing there, like a fish out of the water, with tears running down your face.
Paul sighed and nodded.
“Oh no! He thinks it’s not reciprocal! Bitch say something!” you told yourself, but you just watched him walk away.
A/N: I’m sorry this part is soooo short! I promise that the next part will be much longer!
-Tuesday-
It has been three days since you have seen Paul and three days since you’ve made love with him. You wanted to see him sunday, but he couldn’t. He promised his mom he was going to help her with something. When monday came, you asked him if you could see each other, but he said he got super sick. You wanted to bring him something to make him feel better, but he said no. A part of you got slightly upset, but you tried to brush it off.
-Saturday-
Paul wasn’t sick anymore, which made you want to see him, but he had plans with Jared. Deep down you wanted him to cancel his plans with Jared, but it wasn’t something you could ask. You reminded yourself that you weren’t his girlfriend and that he had already canceled a lot of plans with Jared just to be with you. You decided to spend the day with your best friend at the beach. You were walking by the beach and chatting with her when you saw him a few feet away from you. You gasped at his sight. He got taller and got so beef.
“Damn bitch! Why is it that every time you see him, you look like a fish out of the water?” Y/B/N said to you. You slightly hit her shoulder with a smirk on your face.
“Shut up!” you told her before looking at Paul. Seconds after you looked at him, he looked at you. He stopped walking and just stared at you. Jared who was next to him, was walking and stopped once he noticed that his friend wasn’t next to him anymore. He looked back at Paul, then looked in your direction and smiled. You walked over to them, Y/B/N following you close behind.
“Hey guys” you said smiling, but still looking at Paul. He stayed silent. Jared put his arm around him, tapping his shoulder.
“Hey girls. How are you? Because we are doing great!”
“You sure you’re great?” you asked Paul. It’s not that you didn’t care about Jared, it’s just that, well he wasn’t Paul.
“Y-Yeah.” Paul finally said.
“Can I talk to you for a second?” you asked him.
Y/B/N made faces of disagreement. She didn’t want to be alone with Jared. Paul nodded before you took his hand and walked away from Jared and Y/B/N.
“You feel better?” you asked, then mentally slapped yourself. “Of course you do, you’re out, at the beach.” you nervously laughed.
“Yeah, I’m sorry we couldn’t see each other during the week.” Paul said, staring at your eyes.
“No, don’t worry about it, it’s alright.” you paused “I just… When can we see each other again?” you asked. It was weird, it felt like you couldn’t talk to him without getting nervous. That never happened to you before- you have never been nervous to talk to Paul.
“Tomorrow if you want-” he stopped “For what?”
“Well, I don’t know, the usual?”
Paul let out a heavy sigh and looked at his feet, then at you.
“Why do you always want to see me just for sex?” His tone was cold.
You were taken aback by his question.
“What do you mean? We’ve been doing this for months now.” you said with attitude in your voice.
“Yeah, but it’s not the only thing we can do.” you could tell he was getting mad.
“Iknow and we have seen each other without having sex.” you paused “But I don’t get it. Since when does it bother you? It’s not like we are in a relationship!” you said while crossing your arms over your chest.
Paul opened his mouth to say something, but shut it. He sighed before walking away.
“See you.”
It was now your turn to sigh. You dropped your arms to your side and walked back to Y/B/N who was alone.
“Thank you so much for leaving me alone with Jared! I really appreciate it!” she sarcastically told you.
“I’m sorry, but I had to talk with Paul.”
“Yeah well do it when I don’t have to be alone with Jared. It’s still hard for me to deal with the fact that he is in a relationship.”
You had forgotten for a minute that she had a thing for Jared, you hugged her, then kept walking while apologizing more than twice.
-Sunday-
The next day, Paul was cold with you and he didn’t even want to see you. The text messages you exchanged with him were dry. At the end of the day, you brought it up to his attention on a text message because he didn’t want to answer his damn phone, but still replied to your texts and was active on social media!
‘I don’t know what’s going on with you, but you’ve been acting weird all day. You’ve been dry texting me and I can tell you’re being cold with me for some unknown reason.’-me
'Tell me what’s up’-me
It took him fifteen minutes to reply even if he saw your message right after you sent it.
'I’m not feeling it anymore. The special friend thing we have, it’s over’-Paul
A/N: Also, I’m sorry it’s not that long and I hope you guys like it! <3
The rest of the week went by quickly and well… you had sex with Paul the whole week, except on wednesday. By that, it means, you both got some oral. Other than that, you did it everywhere you could. In his house on the kitchen counter. You had to clean after it because well, the smell was strong and both of you didn’t want Paul’s mom to come home to the smell! You did it in your living room, while your mom had a night shift, then in the shower. You did it in a public restroom. You got slightly disgusted after doing it because obviously it’s dirty, but you laughed it off later.
After a month, Paul told Jared about his secret and ever since, Jared wondered a lot if his friend was in love with you and so did your best friend.
Jared noticed that his best friend was getting softer with you. He also stopped flirting with other girls and even paying them attention to get his way.
On the other hand, Y/B/N wondered if you had feelings for Paul because you started to get jealous whenever girls talked to him, which was so unlike you before. Y/B/N brought it up to you once, but you told her it wasn’t the case and that she was ‘delusional’.
One day though, after you had sex with Paul, you mentionned him how much girls wanted his attention and that they were always up in his business. It amused Paul which resulted in him asking you if you were jealous. You told him that it wasn’t the case and made up a stupid excuse which was: “It’s just not fair because you get to flirt with other girls and also have sex with them, while I just have you”. Right after it, Paul pulled you closer and told you that ever since you became 'special friends’, he only had sex with you. You didn’t show it, but you were happy about it. He suggested to pinky promise that both of you could only have sex with each other.
You got it going during four months. It was now june and school was finally over. It’s been going on quite awhile, but you loved it. Your 'friendship’ with Paul became stronger as time passed by. There were little things that he did for you and that you did for him that made both of your best friends wonder if you guys were secretly dating or in a relationship. For example, you would both cancel a best friends’s night out just to watch movies together and cuddle with no sex included… Cuddling was something you guys never really did before. Another example, Paul stopping at the grocery store on his way to the beach with Jared because he wants to buy you your favorite sweets, just because 'he feels like it’. And you buying him a shirt while you were out shopping with Y/B/N because 'it’s for his birthday’. Y/B/N looked you up and down and reminded you that it wasn’t even close to his birthday, making you say 'it’s an early birthday gift’. It was because of little situations like these that Y/B/N and Jared wondered what was truly going on between you two.
-Saturday night-
Tonight, you were sucking Paul’s dick in his pick up truck. After he came, you swallowed and laid down on his chest, as you watched the stars together. Paul broke the silence.
“Did you ever made love?”, he asked you still looking up at the stars. You raised your head and turned around on your stomach to look at him. You place your hands on his chest and rested your chin on the back of your hand. You thought about your ex boyfriend.
“Not really. Have you?” you asked him back.
“No, I haven’t” he replied, as he looked at you for a second, then back at the stars.
“We could be each other’s first time if you want.” you told him. You didn’t know why you said that and why you wanted it, but you just did.
Paul intensly looked at you as he stayed silent for a bit. You were getting nervous and for the first time during your four years of friendship with Paul, you were starting to regret what you just said.
He noticed by your facial expression and also by how stiff you had gotten that you were getting nervous. Paul then caressed your back before giving you an answer.
“Yes, I want to.”
You gave him a soft smile, earning a soft smile in return.
He gently put his hand on your cheek before leaning in and giving you a gentle and passionate kiss.
You didn’t know why, but this kiss was much more different from the others. Not just because of the rythm of the kiss, but because you felt something different. Something in your stomach that you had never felt before. It was weird and new to you, which made you scared, but you liked it.
That night, on june 29th, you made love with Paul, on his pick up truck, under the stars. It wasn’t the most beautiful or ideal place to make love for the first time, but to you it was. It felt right and you did it with the right person.
Every touch was gentle, soft and warm. It made you feel at home. It felt so right and so good that before you both came, you both said 'I love you’ to each other. You didn’t even freeze and he didn’t stop thrusting. For some reason, that also felt right and deep down, you knew that you meant it even if you didn’t want to say it out loud or admit it to yourself. It was genuine, but you didn’t want to think about it for now. You just wanted to keep enjoying this moment and the pleasure you had.
A ray of sunshine woke you up the next morning. You stretched your arms and legs before you had flashbacks of last night. A smile appeared on your face as you closed your eyes. It was definitely a night to remember. No words were able to describe how good it was, how good it made you feel. You knew that now, it was going to be hard to keep your hands off him whenever you would see him.
You wanted to text him, but what were you going to say? This was new to you and you weren’t in a relationship with Paul, so you really had no idea of what was ‘acceptable’ to do and what wasn’t. You turned around, laying on your stomach and grabbed your phone that was on your night stand. You unlocked your phone and pressed Paul’s name on your contact list.
'Should I call him or text him? Or should I just do nothing at all?’ you asked yourself. You let out a sigh and locked your phone screen. A second later, you received a notification. You took your phone again and smiled once you saw who it was from.
Last night was amazing. Hope you slept well… I sure did hahah-Paul
You chuckled to yourself and sat down, indian style. You tried to think about something to reply, when you got another message from him.
Oh and good morning beautiful-Paul
After reading it, you dropped your phone on your bed, between your legs and hit the 'woah’ while sticking your tongue out.
The feeling is reciprocal and I did sleep well too hahah-me
Oh and good morning to you too -me
You happily got out of bed, took a shower, ate your breakfast and went over to your best friend’s house.
Once you arrived over her house and knocked on the wooden door, Y/B/N abruptly opened the door.
“Why would you wake me up at 12? The reason better be good Y/N! You know you can’t mess with my sleep.”, she said while crossing her arms.
You laughed and got in the house. Y/B/N closed the door behind you and walked to her bedroom with you next to her.
“Okay, I closed and even locked the door. We are sitting down on my comfy bed and I might be a little grumpy because I need some sleep, but I’m all ears. What’s up?”, she asked you.
You were biting your index nail wondering if it was a good idea to tell her. There was no reason to not tell her, it’s just that, this was just between you and Paul. It was your little something special between you too. A part of you didn’t want to share it with no one, but the other part, wanted to scream it so you could get excited with your best friend.
'Well, Paul is probably going to tell Jared so…’ you told yourself.
Y/B/N snapped her fingers in front of your face so you could pay attention to her and not your thoughts.
“Um hello here?” she said with sassiness in her voice, “You woke me up just to get lost in your thoughts?”
You laughed again. That’s why you loved her.
“Ok, okaaay sorry.” you cleared your throat and looked at her straight in the eyes “Something happened last night with Paul.”
Her eyes widened and she immediately grabbed your hands.
“No freaking way! Please tell me you and Paul started dating!?!” she excitedly asked you. Y/B/N has always wanted for you and Paul to end up together. She thought you guys complemented each other perfectly… In a weird way.
You shook your head no, making her excitement fade away.
“Then what happened?”
“Pinky promise me you won’t tell anybody, though.” you said taking out your pinky.
Y/B/N dropped your hands and rolled her eyes.
“Bish, I don’t talk with everybody on the res. I mean, yeah I got some friends, but I ain’t got them like I got you.” she then pinky promised you.
“I know, it’s just…” you paused “Whatever. Um…We had sex”
Her eyes widened so much, you thought her eyes were going to fall off. She let out a huge gasp and jumped on her bed.
“Stop! You’re kidding?!” When she saw you say no, she got off her bed and started screaming. “I can’t believe this! Ohmygosh yes! This could be start of something.”
You let out a dry laugh and stood up from her bed.
“Ehhh, let’s not go this far okay? Okay!”
“Well, what are you then?”
You opened your mouth to say something, but nothing came out.
“I don’t know. I didn’t ask him and he didn’t ask me…” you paused, “We haven’t really talked about this.” you told her now wondering what you guys were.
“Well ask him, duuh!” she said in return. You stayed in silence for a few seconds before she smiled again.
“Ok, but how was it? Is he as good as the girls at school make him out to be? Are you gonna do it again?”
“Without giving you too many details; It was more than wonderful okay!? I do get why girls act like that with him.” you said as you got flashbacks from last night, remembering every single detail and how good he made you feel.
Your best friend looked at you with a smile on her face, nodding her head to let you know you could continue.
You got out of your thoughts and stared at her.
“What?” you asked her.
“Are you gonna do it again? You didn’t answer that question.”
“That is my business.” you said walking out of her door after unlocking and opening it.
“Well, if I ever see you walking with a huge smile on your face, I’ll know it’s because you got some dick .” she said as you were about to open the door, making both of you laugh.
Monday
Like every morning, you were supposed to walk to school with your best friend, but today, Paul asked you if you wanted a lift. You told Y/B/N about it and she told you to go for it.
You got into his car and greeted him with a kiss on the corner of his lips. Paul raised his left eyebrow, with a smirk on his face.
“That’s all I get?”
It was now your turn to smirk.
“For now yes.”
Paul smiled and started to drive to school. The ride was silent, but the sexual tension was high. He kept tightening his grip on the steering wheel. You gently placed your hand on his thigh and slowly caressed it.
“You’re good?”, you asked him. You were acting all innocent and it was getting him hot. He just sighed and looked at you for a few seconds before he had to focus again on the road.
Once you arrived at school and got out of his car. Girls kept looking at you and Paul, obviously. They were giving you nasty stares, like always and looking at him with hearts in their eyes. You first got to his locker and said hi to Kim and Jared.
“I’ll see you later?” you told him, he just nodded at you.
You went to your locker and realized you only had a minute left. You accepted that you were going to be late. The bell rung, making you the only one left. Well, that’s what you thought. When you closed your locker, Paul was standing right next to you.
“What are you doing?”, you asked him.
“You.”
For a split second you didn’t understand what he meant, but as soon as you did, you bite down on your lips. You got closer to him so you could whisper in his ear.
“Lead the way.”
He grabbed your hand and walked to the… auditorium.
“Here?” you asked.
He eagerly nodded
“Yes. Come with me.” you walked behind the stage and walked past a door frame.
“Are you sure we are alone here?” you said following him. He was going up the stairs to a door that you had never seen before.
“The ones having theater this morning are freshmen, but they don’t use it. They stay in a classroom.”
He opened the door for you to come in first. As soon as you did, he closed the door behind him, took your books from your hands and threw them away with his on the floor. He then pushed you against a wall and started a heated make out session.
You didn’t know how, but in less than five minutes, both of your clothes were off. You were in your underwear and him in his boxers.
He was leaving kisses all over you chest and neck, when he abruptly stopped. You opened your eyes and looked at him with confusion written all over you face.
He smirked and kneeled down, as he slowly slid down your panties.
'Ohhhh it’s going down!’ you said to yourself.
He looked up at you, the smirk still on his face.
“I didn’t eat breakfast this morning, so I guess I’m getting it now.”
You mouth dropped at his comment. You slightly nodded before he went in, making your mouth drop even lower; You didn’t know that was possible. Your hands were running through his hair as Paul was getting 'fed’.
Moans came out of your mouth so many times and were getting louder by the second. You were about to come, when Paul stopped and put himself inside you.
After that, the only thing you could see were stars and fireworks.
—-
You put your clothes back on and walked over to Paul who was sitting down on a bean chair. He tapped on his leg to let you know you could sit on his lap. Once you did, you laid your head on his shoulder. You just sat there, enjoying each other’s company. He was playing with your hair with one hand, and the other one was caressing your thigh.
After a moment, you sat up- still on his lap, but facing him. You put a hand on the back of his neck, slowly caressing him.
“Paul, what are we?” you asked him.
You didn’t realize it first, but then you noticed that it sounded like you wanted a relationship, which wasn’t the case.
“By that, I don’t mean as in a 'are we in a relationship thing’…” you paused, “Unless if that’s what you want but… what is this thing… between us?” you asked looking at his eyes.
His hands went up from your thighs to your waist.
“What about special friends?” he asked “Unless you want to be in a relationship?!” he paused and spoke again. “We are special friends. We are friends, just like we’ve always been, but also do some other stuff together.”
“Isn’t that friends with benefits?” you asked.
“Meh, not really because you know our friendship is like no other.” he said tightening his grip around your waist. You smiled and leaned in for a kiss.
Unlike the other kisses, this one was slow and gentle and no lust was attached to it.
After you pulled away, you showed him your pinky promise finger.
He laughed at you.
“Really Y/N?” he asked.
“Yes! You know how I am with these!”
He chuckled and whispered 'You’re adorable’ under his breath. He thought you wouldn’t listen, but you did. It kind of made your heart melt, even if you didn’t want to admit it. You were getting lost in his eyes before you brought yourself back to reality.
“You have to pinky promise me that this special friend thing, is going to stay between us.” you said after clearing your throat.
You intertwined your pinky together, ready to make the promise.
“I pinky promise you that I won’t-” he stopped before leaning in closer to you, “Wait, so you’re telling me you didn’t tell Y/B/N?”
'Oops! Okay except her!’ you told yourself. You were going to lie, but you knew he’d find out the truth just by looking at your eyes.
“Okay, I might have told her.” you said semi- whispering.
“AH-HA!”
“Okay, well just because I said it to her, you can tell Jared- but onlyJared!”
Paul chuckled.
“Thank you, I’ll keep it in mind if I ever decide to tell him. But for now, I won’t. This will be a secret between us… and Y/B/N.” he paused as you both stared into each other’s eyes, “I pinky promise.”
You chuckled at him, then he pecked your lips. It resulted in another slow and gentle kiss.
A/N: I hope you guys enjoyed it! Part 3 will be up soon!
