#poetselixer
under pressure
the sky had never seemed more distant and more welcoming
I tore my elbows open on the cracked ground
I laid my head by the metal-link fence and felt the cold brand my cheek
through the diamonds I watched them say goodbye
pressed against the ground I wanted
I wanted some helicopter to fling me down a line
and pull me off this earth
I was tired, goddamm tired, of being scared and bloody
come on! lower down! bring me up!
but I could never say the words or feel them but as molten weights
instead I curled up on the crushed weeds and waited for the blood to dry
to scratch off the flakes and walk
I walked to the end of the chainlink fence and could I go any further?
up above there was only darkness
and that had to hide whatever scream I have
winter blues
freckles of snow
anchor craves my skin
caught in this world and below
(we grew up near the ocean)
goodbye mother, goodbye father
rust of kin
music we small ones do not hear only the echoes, the thin wailing our ears too delicate sometimes we swim in infinite waters, reach out and hope for life above us
we, so small, the deep the blue the humpback so large, a shadow our smallness
crushed under the fathoms-weight smaller and smaller we miss the music we never hear, never hold not alive anymore
we would die before we hear