Melatonin sets in

Like doves returning to nest

God sets them in motion

Circadian migration to circular paths

Not a musical but a solar dance

Blue orange black pink blue orange black

The moon and the sun choreograph

But why must we give the dark so many hours of ours?

Once I properly encounter Him I’ll ask

Why the rhythm of rest isn’t given the chance

To rest on an open eyed note through the night, once or twice

Without submitting eyes to substantial sacrifice

n.a.

I think of you at every sunset-

Watching the oranges, yellows,

Purples and pinks.

But that’s the problem-

I’m thinking

Of you.

And I’m thinking

Of you-

Until it’s sunrise.

-b.m.

I know I shouldn’t do it.

I should leave you alone.

But damn it’s so hard

Not to pick up the phone-

Tap on your contact,

Hit “new message”..

And ask how you’re doing.

But I shouldn’t.

I know I shouldn’t do it.

-b.m.

I decided to add my collection of poems to Wattpad. Feel free to join me on there too!

Thank you for showing me love.

Thinking Outloud About You

i have a new addiction
to the vices i call ‘medicine’ -
but i promise it’s prescribed

chocolate, for the tears
coffee, for the head
oxytocin, for the heart

and when in need,
take all combined.

music we small ones do not hear only the echoes, the thin wailing  our ears too delicate  sometimes we swim in infinite waters,  reach out and hope for life above us

we, so small, the deep the blue the humpback  so large, a shadow our smallness

crushed under the fathoms-weight smaller and smaller we miss the music we never hear, never hold not alive anymore 

we would die  before we hear

One is all

Without holding on too tightly

That’s the way I’m hoping

You’ll be willing to come to me

While embodying the art

Of letting go but also

Of letting come

Because we are all one

And one is all

In this chaotic world

I love how you hold me

Tight enough

So I don’t give up on you

Light enough

So I don’t suffocate

You’re always there for me

And that sense of permanence

Gives so much peace of mind

In this chaotic world

-Mila Ocean

The role

There’s always the lover and the loved one

The lover resents the loved one

When the loved one gets tired

of being the object of affection

The lover does not realize that

Accepting love sometimes is harder

Than giving love

-Mila Ocean

The Oblivious Trophy

He needed you to inflate his low self-esteem

So he dragged you around

With the promise of love

All along you were a trophy girlfriend

Funny how you didn’t know!

-Mila Ocean

P I C K W I S E L Y

Words you said

Replaying in my head

How do I make

Myself understand

That not every word

Is meant?

-Mila Ocean

F I R S T

Before we started our relationship

I remember you said

People always left before you

I wonder how it feels

To be the first to leave this time

-Mila Ocean

T H E L I N E

There’s a fine line

ThatI’m scared to cross

To truly let go of you

The line where I recognize

What you did to me

And hate you for

The broken promises

The thing is

I don’t want to hate you

Yet if I don’t

I will always want

To come back to you

-Mila Ocean

S E L F - C A R E

I want to apologize to myself

For every time

I excused being mistreated

By someone I love

Just because I love them

Does not mean

They love me back

-Mila Ocean

W A V E S

Feelings come to me in waves

A wave of sadness

I feel fine, and then again

A wave of loss

I hope you don’t miss me

And all that remains for you

Is a peaceful sea

Because letting go

Seemed like the right thing to do

-Mila Ocean