#seriesfinale

SPOILERS!!!!  I know this won’t be read much, but my heart is so heavy and empty at the same time, I need to write to let it out.  

After 15 seasons, the road has finally come to an end.  It’s safe to say that we all had our own idea of how the show would end and what would happen to Sam and Dean, but I think it’s safe to say that NONE of us expected how it went.

I love reading comments after an episode of any show as I like to see how other people interpret what we saw. Everyone reads everything differently. I know that there at many people who wished episode 19 was the series finale.  In my opinion, I thought it was a great season finale, as it was intended it to be.  Yes, the flashbacks to all the characters we’ve come to know and love made us feel that it was the series finale.  Sam and Dean defeated God.  Jack is the new God and Heaven is in good hands.  Sam and Dean are free and can finally live out their lives the way they want to.  They were happy.  But what we should all know is that “Supernatural” isn’t a show about happy endings.  Especially for the Winchesters.  Seeing them happy at the end of episode 19 made me worried for what was in store for the next episode. The last episode.  The writers gave the fans service with episode 19 and I believe they gave themselves and the actors service or episode 20.

Episode 20, “Carry On”, starts off what seems like the next day after God was humanized as I like to call it.  But we really do not know how much time lapsed since episode 19.  Sam and Dean had their morning routine down to a pat, so it seems it could have been a couple of weeks or more.  I found it comforting yet soothing how they couldn’t find any jobs. Everything seemed to be finally right.

Dean finally getting his pie was amazing.  Sam pushing the pie in Dean’s face was even more amazing.  However, we know there was one more job and we soon found out what it entailed.  Btw, those masks were SO creepy.

The final hunt.  The final fight scene.  SPOILER ALERT.  When Sam and Dean were fighting, I did notice that nail.  I thought Dean would push the vamp’s face into it.  You know, the Supernatural way with the blood spraying everywhere.  What I did not expect was Dean to be pushed INTO it.  I literally gasped at this.  This was not the way I imagined it would happen.  I don’t think anyone did.  

Dean (and Jensen) always said they wanted to go out arms swinging and guns blazing.  Everyone knew.  The fact that it did not happen is genius.  No one expected something as simple as a large nail would be a fatality to the unstoppable Dean Winchester.  Which brings me to my next point.  People were saying, including myself, that with everything Sam and Dean has face….they defeated GOD for crying out loud, how could something as a nail be the death of Dean Winchester.

Remember when they were horrible hunters in episode 10?  Chuck took their “luck” away.  So since Chuck isn’t God anymore and Jack is making things right as they should be, the way Dean should die should be something out of the normal for them.  They are human and when your time comes, your time comes. We all know Dean deserved better. He deserved to grow old with Sam and live a normal life.  But that is what we think and feel.  Dean does not.  And that is what people need to understand.  We see Dean on the outside perspective.  All Dean knew was to hunt.  If he wanted a normal life, I feel like he and Sam would have stopped hunting when God was defeated.  But they didn’t.  They continued what they do best.  Hunt.

I always knew Dean would die.  He was damaged goods.  But a working damaged goods.  Dean dying during a hunt is fitting.  Hunting and saving people is what he is known for.  The same can be said for Sam, but as we saw in the very first episode, Sam just wanted a normal life.  For Dean telling same to not save him this time, to not bring him back from the dead, Dean is accepting that after the battle with God, the angels and demons non-existent as they were before, he can finally accept death.  On his own terms.

With his death, he knows that Sam will be “free” in a way from the life.  It is Sam’s out.  Because Dean, and me personally, feels that if he still lives, the two will always be fighting.  Sam will never get the life of normalcy,  Oh boy, I’m crying again.  Also listening to Neoni’s rendition of “Carry on My Wayward Son” on repeat is not helping. Dean’s words to Sam were so touching. Asking permission to let go broke me. He wanted out.  Unfortunately, death was the only way.

Dean wanted peace. Same wanted peace.  The Fandom wanted peace.  Dean got his peace.  Unfortunately, it was in Heaven, but as we saw, it was the best thing for Dean.  He can finally rest (Deja vu with Tony Stark!) I personally wanted Dean to grow old with Sam and have a family.  But was just not in his DNA.  His happiness is Sam’s happiness.  From the beginning.

Seeing Sam trying live without Dean in the bunker was devastating.  I was very shocked that we saw Sam give Dean the hunter’s burial. It was just so hard to see because it was a character we loved.  They were a part of our family.  We all lost someone there.  But it was wonderful seeing Sam finally live the life he wanted from Season one. Having a son, another Dean.  Keeping the impala.  Sam’s son saying the same words to Sam as he said to Dean before he died. Dean driving until the bridge and knowing that he was reunited with Sam.  Like just episode one.  The symbolism is amazing.  So emotional.

I am hoping for the fans who were not happy with the last episode will take time to watch it again, take time to revel in what happened, and process it.  No one wants their favorite show to end.  A show that’s been on for 15 years, that is a hard job to wrap up in one hour.  I thought the writers did a fantastic job.  My heart is so heavy and empty, but I am satisfied.  I do not have any lingering questions.

I hope one day we will find out what the original plan for the finale will be.  I know a lot of people wished to see John and Mary, even Crowley.  But with COVID, the writers had to change a few things.  And to be honest, I like how it was just Sam and Dean.  Just like how it started.  We knew John was out there hunting but rarely saw him.  Bobby telling Dean his parents were a few miles away was comforting.  Would it have been nice to see them, yes.  But I think not seeing them and knowing they were there has more of an affect.

I just want to thank you to Jared, Jensen, Jim, Misha, Mark, Alex, and all of the amazing cast who ever appeared, the crew and writers throughout the years.  You created something so special that will go down in television history.  I miss you already.