Bucky woke with an ache in his chest and a purring Alpine there, too. He smiles softly at the cat, strokes its soft fur, and tries not to think about the night before. It had hurt when Joaquin had told him you were going on a date, but then seeing you had broken his heart. You were lit up the entire night in a way he’d never seen you. You had never looked at him that way. He thought after the way you two had kissed, maybe he still had a chance. Maybe he just needed to tell you how he really felt but now he knew that you really did only want to be friends.
He gets up and goes about his morning routine. Start the coffee, feed Alpine, make breakfast, and concentrate on the good things. If only his brain would let him.
Your desk was littered with papers as you tried to finish up for the day. It had been nuts since you arrived at work this morning and you wanted to get through the madness before the weekend. The sound of your phone vibrating has you scrambling through the stacks on your desk to find it. When you finally get your hands on the buzzing device you see it’s Foggy calling.
“Hello?” you say, smiling already.
“Hello Beautiful!” Foggy says enthusiastically.
“Hi Foggy. How are you?”
“I’m good. How about you?”
“It’s been a crazy busy day but I got a call from this really cute guy, so that’s made the day a little better.”
“I am hurt, beautiful. Who? Who’s the guy?” Foggy teases.
The mission had been completed without a hitch but it had taken two days with the travel involved. On the way back, Bucky acted like a mad man. It took all of Sam’s persuasion to keep him from hurting himself or Joaquin. When Bucky realized you wouldn’t answer any of his calls or texts, he tried Sam’s phone, then Joaquin’s, but all went unanswered. Sam had to wrestle his phone away from him before he crushed it. He managed to persuade one of the pilots to let him use his phone and you finally answered. His heart beat out of his chest hearing your voice.
“Hello?”
“Doll, please let me expl-” the line went dead. You hung up as soon as you heard his voice.
Bucky handed the phone back to the pilot feeling absolutely defeated, “She’s never gonna forgive me, is she?”
You wake with gritty eyes from the tears that had fallen during the night. Every moment from the night before had played in your mind over and over again. You had savored the memory of that kiss, questioned every decision you made, and ran through every possibility of what could have been different. The question of how your relationship with Bucky would be now had run through your mind until your head ached.
Was the friendship you thought you had with him real? What if Bucky wanted nothing to do with you now? If you weren’t going to slake his lust why should he keep you around? No, Bucky is your friend, you kept telling yourself. Your friendship with him, Sam, and Joaquin is real. Bucky had a lapse in judgment. He was just like most guys and let his dick take over his brain for a few minutes. He respected you. He respected you as a person and for the work you do. Just as Sam and Joaquin respected you. You just wished you respected yourself a little more.
“If only” had played in your head for most of the night, robbing you of sleep. If only Bucky did feel the same way about you. If only you weren’t so fat. After all, everyone always said you have such a pretty face, they just don’t realize you hear the unspoken end of that backhanded compliment. What they meant was ‘you have such a pretty face, too bad you’re such a fatass.’ If only you were worthy of someone like him, hot enough for him, good enough for him. If only you could lose the weight, maybe then his feelings would change. Maybe he’d fall for you as hard as you’ve fallen for him. Maybe then you could have him, all of him.
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Plus-size Reader, Foggy Nelson x Reader
Features: Mutual pining, idiots in love, angst, body insecurity, misunderstandings.
Summary: When Bucky finally makes his move, you can’t believe that someone like him would ever really want you. A misunderstanding creates a rift in your friendship and, when a new suitor show up, will Bucky be willing to compete for your affections?
Updates and taglist: Updates for series will be made on weekly. Please follow my sideblog @tuiccimfanfiction for update notifications. All series and new stories will be reblogged to it. You will only receive notifications when a new part or story is out! Nothing else will be blogged to the page. I can’t thank you enough for your support!
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Plus-size Reader, Foggy Nelson x Reader
Features: Mutual pining, idiots in love, angst, body insecurity, misunderstandings.
Summary: When Bucky finally makes his move, you can’t believe that someone like him would ever really want you. A misunderstanding creates a rift in your friendship and, when a new suitor show up, will Bucky be willing to compete for your affections?
Updates and taglist: Updates for series will be made on weekly. Please follow my sideblog @tuiccimfanfiction for update notifications. All series and new stories will be reblogged to it. You will only receive notifications when a new part or story is out! Nothing else will be blogged to the page. I can’t thank you enough for your support!
