*if* and *when* I hold your hand, I’ll rest my head on it. Feel your pulse, as I connect with you, and once we are, I’ll dance to your heartbeat till dawn until I’m tired and sleepy. Then gently lay my head in your lap, play with your hand and talk to you about you and only you while we stargaze in the middle of a spooky graveyard. Because of all that is on my mind, you prevail the strongest…

-to you

Everyone is pretentious

Everyone is a hypocrite

You are not the only one who is, or who isn’t —

-JS

You said you had DARK circles.

But when I looked, all I could see is a mark of profound knowledge and ideals. A trophy for all those late hours spent reading and the subtlety of underestimating your own achievements.

I was practically stunned dead at the moment !

-JS

Online school is just WOW ! (if you can think of it)

I can just wake up from sleep and attend a lecture within seconds. Turn off the camera, so no one can see my weary face. Mute the mic, and sing along the spotify playlist that’s playing in the background. Quote stuff on a muted mic during ongoing classes.

And the best of all, record a lecture to watch later when my brain is too lazyyy to study.

This is probably the best thing that happened this year…

“Lean in to loneliness like it is holding you”

~ Tanya Davis

Ps. By far, my favourite quote ever

“Everyone you love is gonna die…But, darlin’, so is everything, don’t cry…The stars will blink out one by one in time…And everyone you love is gonna die”

~ The End of Everything ( Noah Cyrus )

Meanwhile Me *hastily* : How do I salvage every second of this precious life ??

“Wish I could tell you by now that I felt more indifferent…Catch myself thinking about you more than I should”

~Gracie Abrams (Stay)

“If you ever foolishly forget : I am never not thinking of you”

~Virginia Woolf

Me *confused* : Should I be proud of something like this or just regret it ??

Does anyone associate songs with different life experiences ? For me, it’s like one song reminds me of a vacay trip from last year, another one blows off the dust from a childhood memory. Some just make me question why I’ve ever been sad, while others are just dozes of happiness. Some motivate me, while their rivals make me more sappy.

A few songs make me reminisce how good people have been to me, while others just make me want to delete the same people from existence.

Ok, photographs, Videos and Voice recordings are good memories, but songs – I tend to associate my life with them so much so that they are *MY SONGS***

I just want to get away from everything. Move to a chalet, somewhere in England. Away from all the drama of society. Reinvent myself. Take on a new identity. Read and write poetry. Go hiking or boating in the lakes of Windermere. And keep listening to *MY* favourite songs on repeat. No one should bother me.

I wish there were an edit option in life like there is in this Tumblr post

Sometimes I think of myself as an immature little ten year old kid.

I mean, I haven’t even lived a quarter of the average human lifespan, yet hither I come, trying to be a part time poet, philosopher, writer, and my own therapist..LOL !