#twilight
The first sentence she pushed into Jacob’s mind was the whole truth.
“I want to stay with you.”
She would follow it up with the usual Leah-isms, of course. She ran circles around Jacob, both literally and figuratively, trying to convince him that she both needed him, and didn't—Would be there, and wouldn’t.
“You’ll only have to put up with me when we’re both wolves.”
As if Jake ever intended to be human again, as if she didn’t know that, as if she didn’t look at his face lashed together with pain and rejection like it was a mirror.
“I’ll get a job somewhere. Get into meditation. Work on my anger.”
How many times had she promised Sam she could be different for him? Different—Anything he wanted, anything to not be alone. A losing strategy—A loser’s strategy. So she was waiting for the rejection Jacob gave her, though it was softer than she’d imagined it would be.
“Let me think about it.”
A pack of two was wrong—Not a pack, but a pair. Jake put a word to the feeling.
Intimate.
Leah cringed as she forced herself to take down a large black-tailed deer—a buck, before it could even think of getting away. Her father had told her there were things in the forest she did not understand, things even the deer had never seen. He’d never expected her to become one of those things.
Eat, Leah.
Jacob was all wolf now, all instinct. He’d opened his mind, offered Leah a hand. Tentatively, she took it.
Please eat.
It became easier then. She tore through the animal, separating a thick slab of flesh from its shoulder. Numb. Calm. The lack of pain she’d been searching for—made manifest.
“Thank you.”
She cleaned her muzzle and paws on the wet grass. She tried to ignore Jacob’s eyes on her. She thought about the path home through the river, about her shaggy fur going weightless around her, about being clean again.
“Your way isn’t so bad.”
some random woman’s thoughts: oh hey, he’s kind of hot.
Edward Cullen: Dear Diary. Today another WHORE vies for my affection. Existence is agony.
The most ambitious crossover:
Expectations
Reality
Residential hub at midnight
She was reborn as something stronger☀️ *my Instagram above*
In a world where Renee Swan left her daughter Bella with Charlie when she left, Bella got to visit the nursing home every day with her dad, and in the evenings he made steak and potatoes until Harry Clearwater begged him to feed his child a vegetable. In a world where Bella was raised by Charlie, she maybe cooked or cleaned a bit more than the average kid, because her dad was so busy, but she wasn’t worried about paying the bills or reminding her dad when she had to go to the doctor. Bella got to be a kid, and she got to have a relationship with her grandparents before they died when she was in kindergarten. On those summers where she visited Renee, she saw how hectic her mother’s life was, although fun, and was relieved for the stability and boring nature of Forks.
In this world, she grew up playing with Leah, Seth, and Jacob and his sisters. She went fishing and spent weekends at the beach and got to scrape her knees hiking on a monthly basis. She went to school with all the kids from Forks and the Newton kid got over his crush on her in like a week, cause she wasn’t all that interesting since she played pirates with him in second grade. Bella’s best friend was Angela but Jessica was a close second, although the two of them had a more on again off again type of relationship. She and Eric game together, because once he and Mike had a fight and he had nobody to hang out with him for a month. Lauren is a frenemy that Bella loves to hate.
She is a klutz, but Charlie watches her like a hawk and usually catches her before too bad of a fall. Her grades are killer and when she’s thirteen Charlie takes Bella and the girls to Seattle for a painful day of shopping. (Bella didn’t want to either, but she wanted the right of passage and wanted to make her friends smile). Bella and Jacob become the best of friends after a particularly bitey spring and their dads are always off fishing together. (Leah, Rachel, and Rebecca are too cool for a while and Seth is too much of a puppy dog). Maybe they think about dating and maybe they don’t, maybe they’re best friends and don’t care. Well adjusted, happy, perhaps a bit prone to melancholy, depression, and insecurity, Bella is in a much healthier place when the Cullens arrive in early high school.
She doesn’t even get a chance to meet them.
Edward reported to Carlisle with some urgency after their first day in Forks that Chief Swan’s daughter may be his singer. There is no suggestion that he just kill her or test his resolve. Bella Swan is too beloved, too known, too surrounded and ensconced in the community. If she died or went missing, there would be no forgetting this girl. She had been here since birth. It didn’t matter that she has a quiet mind, Edward realized shortly after that Charlie’s mind is murky and hard to read as well, shrugs his shoulders because there’s something off with the Swans. But his possible singer? A slip up would destroy the town and likely expose his family.
The Cullens leave in the night. The locals blandly gossip that a better hospital in Alaska offered double for Doctor Cullen’s services. Life goes on, and Bella believes that the supernatural is just a myth or legend, like she hears about at the bonfires with Jacob and her dad. She decides she’s going to make Charlie eat more greens.
of the entire Cullen family I find Alice to be the creepiest in concept. She is small, childlike in size, with paper white skin, pitch black hair, and huge gold eyes. She never wears the same outfit twice. She can see your every decision in the future, and uses that ability to push Bella, her only human friend, into making choices that she wants her to make. She stares off into the distance and has vision after vision and changes their course of plan appropriately. In school people find her to be odd. She is perpetually cheery and loves to host parties but she is friends with nobody and does not speak to humans if given the option. She dresses Bella like a doll and gives her the wedding she wants her to have, rather than what Bella wants. She is easily frustrated by everyone whose future she can’t plan out or control, and actively hates Jacob and the Pack because she can’t see their moves and decisions. She plays the stock market and earns millions she does not need and is comfortable letting her near-feral husband near humans to keep testing him to prove he is ~good.~ Alice is actually very creepy when I break her down and think about her.
I bet it was a rough couple of years for Eddy boy when Vampire Weekend was at the height of popularity, his most dreaded word was popping up in people’s thoughts constantly… he had to take a couple years off of “exposure alert” duty after Resume was born cause everyone was just singing A-Punk in their heads
And the angel was sobbing tearless, broken sobs.
The angel shouldn’t weep, it was wrong. I tried to find him, to tell him everything was fine, but the water was so deep, it was pressing on me, and I couldn’t breathe.
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Happy Earth day!
Marking the passage of day into night in this gorgeous view of ocean and clouds over our planet Earth, the shadow line or terminator is diffuse and shows the gradual transition to darkness we refer to as twilight. With the Sun illuminating the scene from the right, the cloud tops reflect gently reddened sunlight filtered through the dusty troposphere, the lowest layer of Earth’s atmosphere. A clear high altitude layer, visible along the dayside’s upper edge, scatters blue sunlight and fades into the blackness of space. This picture was taken in June of 2001 from the International Space Station.
Image Credit: ISS Expedition 2 Crew, Gateway to Astronaut Photography of Earth, NASA
Hanging out with straight ppl who just do not get gay humour is so exhausting…
I’m like “Bella swan was a lesbian cause she drove a truck” and this str8 girl says “no she married edward and they had sex lol” …
