#words can save lives

I rip my heart out and then place it in your palms

You use my blood to stain your cracked lips

And look away

Now I am taking my very last breath

You bend over my body and give me a forehead kiss

Feels inordinate

And just like that

My life is back

And I’m rising back from the dead

I will now live on as a hollow, a poignant void

If only to help your gelid eyes to feel a smile

But you still dress up in your frown

I don’t see my heart anywhere near you

As you twirl in your gown

Sparks left behind for footprints

I know I’m beguiled by your warmth

But the fire seems to be spreading

And now I have second degree burns on my love

And you still have the awe striking nerve

To tell me on my face that I’m not enough

I feel myself fading in my venture to gladden your life

The scent of oblivion chokes my empty chest somehow

I suffocate on the epiphany that this night escorts

And I think I might have to kill you now

notaguise:

Whenever I feel insecure about something I’ve created or just low on esteem regarding general life, I go online to see people creating fandoms over characters I relate to, people seriously discussing conspiracies that keep me up at night, people gushing over lyrics of a song similar to a poem that I wrote in my notes app, people falling in love with things that I thought made me ugly, and I immediately feel less shitty.

It may not fix all my mental health issues, but it’s a step towards self acceptance. It helps me feel confident in my own being. It helps me feel less alone in this beautiful world because there’s some kindred soul out there in some corner who feels exactly how I do. It helps me realize that I may not after all be an alien on earth.

Whenever I feel insecure about something I’ve created or just low on esteem regarding general life, I go online to see people creating fandoms over characters I relate to, people seriously discussing conspiracies that keep me up at night, people gushing over lyrics of a song similar to a poem that I wrote in my notes app, people falling in love with things that I thought made me ugly, and I immediately feel less shitty.