How do neurotypicals not have a set spot at their table? How can they sit in different spots every time??? How??? It feels so wrong and uncomfortable!!
When people train you to express your needs nonliterally- saying “I’m fine” instead of “leave me alone”- and then pretend they think you mean those expressions literally- “I know you’re fine, you’re great! Anyway, as I was saying, come talk to me!”
When you have a persona that you really like and is working really well, but then you get to a situation where you don’t know what “you” would do, and you suddenly switch personalities or freeze up completely
Realizing you have as little idea how to interact with autistic people while being “neurotypical” as you have on how to interact with neurotypical people as an autistic
When someone you know shows so many signs of possibly being autistic but you’re too afraid to ask because of how autistic is usually only seen as an insult nowadays
When you need momentum to walk, so you either have to run or move in fits and starts, and once you start running it’s hard to stop until you get to a marker or obstacle, making it take longer to get places
When you need momentum to communicate, and you can get that momentum from being prompted, not filtering, or rehearsing and performing, but people aren’t going to prompt you to say everything you want to, not filtering has it’s downsides, and rehearsing and performing makes you look manic or insincere
When being around people who are “more autistic than you” makes you feel like you have no problems, and being around people who are “less autistic than you” makes you feel like you could be them if you just tried harder
