#eren jeager angst
Honest opinion
I don’t think Eren Yeager would’ve destroyed humanity if he had revealed himself to the world via the internet
Can you imagine seeing Titan Eren saying “I’m here to destroy you all.” And everyone is just like either “yass queen go off purrr ” or “lemme see some of that Titan size booty ”
Like he would be thrown off because back on the island he would have gotten shot at or death threats not thirst tweets. Let Eren see some thirst tweets of him shirtless and his Titan form man’s will be calling off the plans for the destruction of humanity by lunch time.
I can’t tell you I love you
Eren Yeager x Reader
Synopsis: Falling in love when you live a life full of uncertainties isn’t always the best idea. But you’ve followed Eren this far and loved him for this long. He may be the worlds enemy, but does he really have to be yours too? Inspired by Adele’s song Love In the Dark Bc I love her and the angsty vibes suit Eren so well. Expect a Levi version.
Warning: 18+ content and mentions of blood. If you like angsty smut, this is for you:)
“Do you think he’s doing okay?”
Your question caught Armin off guard. He turns his head to see you as you remained looking up at the starry sky above. A light breeze blew the hair out of your face, revealing watery eyes and furrowed brows.
“You mean Eren?”
You nodded in reply, not daring to look away from the night sky.
“I think he is. He’s strong and determined. His letters haven’t given us any reason to believe he’s not okay, right?”
You scoffed at the thought of the letters Eren had been sending. They were filled with orders and information about Marley, not on his well-being. You missed him. You didn’t want to admit it out loud, but you needed him.
“Yeah. You’re right. He’s fine and we are going to see him soon.”
Armin nodded as he shifted closer, throwing an arm across your shoulders and pulling your head to rest against his.
“Yeah. We will.”
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The day would finally come when you’d see him again.
You stood atop a building adjacent from where the Warhammer Titan stood tall, its hardened material piercing Eren’s Attack Titan through the chest.
You watched from above as Eren pulled free from inside the Titans shell and directed his vision upwards, meeting your hardened gaze.
Your expression remained stoic and calm, as did his. Relief settled in your core as you sat eyes on him for the first time in months, your heart screamed at you to reach out to him. However, something deep within screamed at you to leave. To walk away.
But his eyes….
If only he’d look away so you could.
“Y/N, you have a clear view of the Warhammer?” Jean asked as he landed beside you on the roof.
You shook your arm, feeling the weight of the Thunder Spear that made your muscles burn. Your vision tore away from Eren, your focus now locking in on the Titan standing ahead. You squinted your eyes, lifting an arm to get the nape in your sights.
“I do. But, something isn’t right about this. Look.” You pointed to the ground below the Titan, bring attention to the vein like cords that connected to the foot of the Titan and stretched underground.
Jean nodded before he jumped to stand on the edge of the roof.
“I see. Take your aim anyway. Go.”
You nodded as he zipped away, leaving you to stand on the edge as he did. You readied your spear and jumped off the edge, realizing your ODM gear hooks and soaring towards the Titan.
Lifting your arm, you closed one eye as you looked down the spear, getting the nape directly in your sights before you released it, perfectly sinking it into the nape with great force. You pulled the pin, waiting for some kind of reaction and grit your teeth in annoyance when you realized your intuition was correct.
“Dammit, Jean. Now I’ve wasted a Thunder Spear.”
A burning sensation in your right arm brought your attention away from your frustration. You winced when you moved it and saw a deep, four inch gash oozing blood down your uniform and soaking the black material.
“Dammit.”
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You held your breath as you climbed into the airship after Jean, rolling on your side as you made it inside and releasing the air you held. Your eyes shut for a moment, relishing in the feeling of safety when footsteps stepped by your head. A foot gently nudged your unhurt arm, making you open your eyes in a squint.
“Oi, let me take you to get that looked at.”
You took Floch’s outstretched hand, allowing him to pull you up.
He cheered with the other soldiers as he made a path for you, bringing you to the metal door on the other end of the ship.
Once it was opened, your eyes met his. You froze in place, blood dripping from your fingers to the wooden panels beneath your feet.
“Y/N,” Eren’s words mumbled out through pale, emotionless lips. His eyes traveled from your face to the wound and down to the dripping blood on the floor.
He rose to his feet, face remaining stoic and unbothered.
“Let me help y-”
“No,” you adjusted your posture as you cut him off. “I don’t need your help. Don’t bother. Just sit back down, Eren.”
“But, you’re arm-”
“I don’t need your help. I. Don’t. Need. Your. Help.”
Your assertive tone had the entire rooms attention on you. Everyone stopped their movement and directed their eyes at you. The quiet drips of blood thumping against the wood being the only sound along with the hum of the ship.
You didn’t miss the glint of hurt in his eyes at your words. How could you? It was like looking at a kicked puppy. But, sometimes it’s easier to be cruel rather than show kindness.
“Connie?”
You hadn’t realized the boy had been standing behind you. You were so focused on Eren that you failed to feel the boy’s presence.
You watched as a tear fell down his cheek, fear clouding his eyes as he stared straight ahead.
“It’s Sasha. She’s dead.”
Heat took over your body, making you forget the dizziness in your head from the loss of blood. You heard someone mumbling behind you as Connie answered, but it was just background noise that couldn’t be heard over the ringing in your ears.
One of your best friends was…. dead?
You froze as laughter was heard from behind you. Slowly turning, your eyebrows furrowed as your eyes welled up with tears. Hot, angry tears that boiled over like an overflowing kettle.
“Eren…you’re a monster.”
His laughter died down at your words, eyes meeting yours, once again filled with hurt.
Like you thought, it’s easier to be cruel than to be kind.
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“We need to talk.”
Eren had grabbed you from behind, pulling you into an empty room outside the room filled with holding cells where his Jeagerist friends resided.
You stumbled into the desk as he tossed you inside. Wincing at the impact, you grit your teeth as you looked up at him.
“What do you want?”
He leaned against the door in front of you, leaving an infinite amount of space between you both. You felt so far away from him. You wanted to reach out to him. To hold him. Kiss him.
But, you wanted to hate him. Needed to hate him.
“Like I said. I want to talk.”
“Then talk,” you replied, folding your arms across your chest.
Eren leaned his head against the door behind him, looking down at you through hooded eyes.
You took in his appearance.
How dare he look so handsome.
His hair was pulled back into a messy bun, stray hairs perfectly framing his beautiful face. The frown he wore usually had pulled up into a soft smile on one end as he sized you up.
“I missed you.”
You swallowed at his words. The thick lump in your throat caught. You felt sick.
“You did.” It wasn’t a question. It was a statement. You didn’t believe him. How could you? He was so focused on bringing down the people on the other side of the ocean, so how could you believe he had time to miss you?
“I did. You know I love you. I meant every word I said those years ago.”
You remembered that day. Of course you did. You replayed that memory over and over for the first few months Eren left you behind. But, months turned into a year. You never heard from him. Never saw him. You tried to be strong and brave, but your heart wasn’t in it anymore.
He just left you in the dark. Never mentioned that day or those words again for years. Not until now.
You needed to move on.
“I…can’t…love you, Eren. Not anymore. I know what you plan to do-”
“It’s for the best, Y/N! I’m doing this for you. For Mikasa and Armin. For our future….don’t you want that? A future with all the love and happiness you deserve?”
The sickness settled in your stomach now. Maybe at one time you would have dropped everything and said yes. Deep down, you still wanted to. You didn’t want to live without him, but you needed to.
“Eren,”
“You called me a monster.”
His words cut you off in a hurt tone. He tried to mask them with a bitter smile, but his glossy eyes didn’t hide the disbelief that you would ever say something to him like that.
“I did. I’m sorry.”
“You’re probably right. I am a monster to some people. But I truly am doing all of this for you. I love you. I want you to live a long, happy life. One without-”
“One without you?” The bitterness in your tone cut him off this time. You glared up at him with burning eyes, causing his chest to burn.
“Yes.”
“I should. I should live my life far from you. You’re going to hurt me, and everyone else in your wake of you do what you’re about to do. Your friends, your family, your people…by staying around you, we will only know pain.”
Eren visibly deflated at your words. He knew he was hurting you, but he was hurting too. He needed you much more than you needed him.
“Don’t. Don’t say anymore. No more fighting. Just please let me kiss you. I need to before…before….” His words drifted off. You know what he was going to say. You knew what he needed to say before he carried out his mission.
You reached your hands towards him, cradling his face between your hands.
“Okay.”
You did let him kiss you.
Your lips met his in a perfect kiss like two puzzle pieces. You molded together, holding each other close as if the other would be ripped away at any moment.
And it was true. Either one of you could be ripped away at any moment. Eren was destined for death, whether it be the end of his term, or dying in the hands of a determined soldier. You knew this would be the last time you did this.
His hands found their way to the back of your thighs as he lifted, allowing you to jump slightly as he plopped you on the empty desk behind you.
You spread your thighs, grabbing the collar of his jacket as you pulled him into you, slotting him between your legs as you brushed your nose against his, lips barely grazing each other.
“I can’t tell you I love you.”
Eren swallowed, leaning forward to rest his head against yours.
“I know. It’s okay.”
His words were cut short as you pulled him into another kiss, tears burning in your eyes, threatening to spill over as you moaned into his mouth.
His name left your lips as he lurched forward, grabbing onto your hips as his hips met yours. His hard on poked at your core, begging for more friction. A groan left his lips as he kissed you again, silencing his noises with your mouth.
Your legs twisted around his hips, bringing him impossibly closer as he kissed down your jaw to your exposed neck. Reaching the collar of your white button up, he reached a hand up to undo your buttons.
After undoing the top two, he paused, pulling back slightly to look at you, eyes shifting between each of yours.
“Is this okay?” His question fell on almost deaf ears as you nodded frantically, desperate to feel more of him. Your eyes remained on his puffy lips, silently begging for him to put them on you again.
“Eren, please. I need more.”
He chuckled as he leaned forward, planting a quick kiss to your lips.
His hands worked all your buttons, moving down to your pants as his lips made their way to your chest.
Your back arched as he kissed your breasts, your hands playing with the loose hairs at the nape of his neck.
Quick fingers pulled your pants down, his following soon after along with his shirt. He left your button up on and undone, eyes admiring the old bra you wore. He thought about how cute it was. How cute you were. How unbelievably beautiful the woman he loved had grown to be.
“I love you.”
Those words he whispered to you as he slowly pushed inside you made your heart do flips.
We’re you using him? Did the think you were using him? He loved you, and you refused to say it back.
You didn’t love him, right?
Right?
But every thrust he delivered, every kiss he placed so delicately to your burning skin made you want to cry.
His pace was relentless, sweet praises leaving his lips.
“You’re so beautiful. You feel so good, Y/N. God, I love you.”
“I—”
No.
No, no. You couldn’t say it. You didn’t want to admit it.
You bit your lip, tears pricked your eyes again. Both from the pain and the words Eren spoke. And the words your couldn’t…wouldn’t speak.
His pace quickened as he pushed deeper, causing your legs to tighten around his waist. He placed kisses all over your face, no plan or pattern to his actions. He just needed to kiss every inch of that beautiful face.
“I’m so close.”
He hummed at your words, keeping his pace and reaching a hand down to rub your clit with his thumb, his other four fingers pressing into your stomach to feel himself.
He leaned into you further, lips brushing yours as his other hand gripped your chin, bringing your eyes to his.
“Let go, my love.”
You did as he commanded. Your body melted at the feeling, his body collapsing on top of yours as he reached his high as well.
Once the relentless sounds of moans and slapping skin ceased, the only sounds that filled the room were from you both panting and the creaky floor beneath Eren’s feet.
Your thighs refused to let him go. At least, you blamed it on your thighs.
And whether it be post-high syndrome or the fact that you knew something big was coming, you couldn’t deny your heart and brain that were screaming at you along with your aching core.
“Eren.”
You cradled his face yet again, allowing a single tear to fall from your tired eyes.
“I love you too.”
A smirk tugged at his lips, bringing life back to those sparkling, green, puppy dog eyes.
“I know.”
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Thank you all so much for reading! I hope I executed this idea well and I hope you all enjoyed it.
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