defending my favorite female characters that have a bitchy personality, but only to hide that deep down they are incredibly vulnerable and feel unlovable and half the fandom hates them for it online isn’t enough. i need a gun
I love a few people honestly. I mean I love all of you, but in my personal life it’s my mom, my boyfriend, my friends, etc.
33: My current relationship status
I tis be taken.
34: My relationship with my parents
With my mother? Great. We’re good friends and I can talk to her about anything. It’s better than what it was when I was a teenager. My biological father however? Meh. There’s a lot to unpack with that and we don’t talk often.
35: Favourite holiday
I don’t have one so much anymore. I figure if and when I ever have kids, my love for Halloween and Christmas will grow again
36: Tattoos and piercing i have
I’ve got my ear lobes and my left tragus pierced. And a right forearm script tattoo that reads “My pain may never disappear but neither will my strength” with “strength” being in my mother’s handwriting.
37: Tattoos and piercing i want
So many. I want my helix pierced, among many other piercings. As for tattoos, I have a few ideas. One is a memorial tattoo for my great grandpa ( my Papa Chicken). I want an outline of a chicken, filled in with tools and such on my calf. Sounds weird but yeah.
The other is a memorial tattoo for my Grandma who passed from ALS. I want her favourite flowers in some pretty colours on one of my shoulder blades.
I also want a few other ones but they have no “meaning” haha
38: The reason I joined Tumblr
I have no idea. To escape from reality I suppose?
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
Hm. I do hate him in a sense. He was a narcissist and it wasnt a healthy relationship at all.
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
Kind of? Sometimes. It depends on who is up first and what time it is.
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
My boyfriend? Yes. This morning. Lol
42: When did I last hold hands?
Last night.
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
I give myself 2 hours give or take. That way I can eat, do my makeup if I’m wearing any, remember to take my meds, etc.
44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?
No, it was like 4 days ago.
45: Where am I right now?
Sitting in my bed in my mom’s unfinished basement. Lol
46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
My boyfriend would. If not, my best friend’s i suppose.
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
Blast it. I want to drown out my thoughts.
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
I live with my mother and stepdad right now.
49: Am I excited for anything?
HM. Not really at the moment.
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
Sort of? My boyfriend and/or best friend. I can tell them everything but I choose not to lol
51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
More often than I care to admit but it’s decreasing. It’s not as often as before.
52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
About 4 hours ago when my grandpa left.
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
I’d be surprised and hurt. He wouldn’t do that, and I know that for sure. If he did though, I would go numb. I wouldn’t cry. I’ve been cheated on many times and I come to expect it now.
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
Not that I can think of honestly.
55: What is something I disliked about today?
It’s cold.
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Robbie Coltrane (Hagrid). He’s a great actor and Hagrid has always been a comfort character for me.
57: What do I think about most?
At the moment? Schooling, work, money. I have no idea how I’m going to afford school, or life on general.
58: What’s my strangest talent?
I don’t know if I have one. I can usually tell a song by the opening notes. I’m not sure?
59: Do I have any strange phobias?
Not really. I’m scared of falling. Like from any height.
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Neither? But I guess behind it most of the time.
61: What was the last lie I told?
I don’t remember honestly.
62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
Depends. Probably video chatting because then you can see my body language and I can see theirs.
I said I was probably just gonna answer all of these. In total there’s 155, so I’ll split it up into 5 posts, each with 31 questions
1: Full name
My full name is Aliesha Sara. Won’t post my last name yet. Lol
2: Age
I’m 22, turning 23 in December
3: 3 Fears
3 fears? My friend I have anxiety. Lmao I’m only joking.
- Being diagnosed with ALS or something similar. Watched my grandma go through that and I just… Could never.
-dying in my sleep without being able to say goodbye to anyone I love
- losing my mom too soon.
4: 3 things I love
- snow. It’s beautiful and everything is super tranquil at night and then the sound of crunch snow? It’s amazing.
- rain. Storms. All of it. I like it when there’s not as many people outside, it feels more calming.
- my boyfriend. Cliche, sure but he is my first healthy relationship after an abusive one and he is so understanding and loving and adorable.
5: 4 turns on
- putting effort into appearance. No, don’t dress to the nines but looking good is a good look
-smelling good. Smell is a huge thing for me. If I can’t stand the way someone smells, I can’t be around them.
- being good with kids. I’ve got 3 nephews and a niece all 9 or under. I love the kids in my life and if they aren’t comfortable with someone I’m around, it’s a huge red flag to me.
-not wanting to fix me. I have a dark sense of humour, I make fun of my trauma a lot. Someone I’m around has to understand that, and if you joke about your trauma too? We’re good
6: 4 turns off
-being an ass to customer service workers. Listen, they work their asses off for minimal pay, they don’t need you to yell at them.
-poor personal hygiene. Now, don’t get me wrong, I understand when it comes to mental health conditions or disabilities, but be honest about it. It’s okay, and people can and will help.
-being too quiet. Not being willing to stand up for yourself. Again, I get it. Trust me I do. But, personally, I can’t stand it in my personal relationships when someone doesn’t have a backbone.
-not wanting to go out and do things. I can’t be cooped up all the time. So we gotta be able to go out and do something, even just a walk.
7: My best friend
I have two really. Carollynn has been my best friend for 21 years. We were born exactly two weeks apart. She’s like a sister to me.
The other one is Dorian. We became friends in grade 8, because I had a massive crush on him. Then we found out that we’re two peas in a pod and I knew i couldn’t like someone like that, so now he’s like a brother to me.
8: Sexual orientation
I tis be bisexual. I am typically more attracted to men, but yeah.
9: My best first date
Haha so this one is a fun one. I had never really been on a true “date” until last year. I had a FWB before my boyfriend came along and once my FWB found out I had never actually been taken out on a date, he took me minigolfing.
10: How tall am I
I am 5 feet 9 inches tall. I was always a tall kid.
11: What do I miss
Right now? The ability to breathe normally. In general? Being a kid and being financially stable. Lmao
12: What time were I born
I was born December 19, 1998 at 2:29 am. I was almost born in a car.
13: Favourite color
Red, purple, royal blue.
14: Do I have a crush
My boyfriend? Tom Hiddleston? Chris Evans? Elizabeth Olsen? Etc.
15: Favourite quote
I have too many to be honest with you. Let’s go with the one tattooed on my arm. “My pain may never disappear but neither will my strength.” It’s a lyric from a song that helped me to save my own life.
“Starting Over” - Robb Nash
16: Favourite place
I have a few. Many take place in fictional worlds. However, in real life, I love being at my grandpa’s house. It’s usually calm and it brings back good memories.
17: Favourite food
I don’t really have one typically? I go through spouts of favourite foods and then not being able to eat anything. Strawberries have always been a good one though.
18: Do I use sarcasm
No, not at all. Ever.
Haha yes, I do. All the time, too much some would say.
19: What am I listening to right now
Nothing at the current moment, however I do enjoy most music. Recently I’ve been really liking Beartooth and I Prevail though.
20: First thing I notice in new person
Typically the eyes. Even through social media. You can tell a lot by a person’s eyes. If not that, then it’s typically their voice. The dictation, accent, etc.
21: Shoe size
Typically a 10 or 11 in women’s, or a 9/10 in men’s.
22: Eye color
It changes between a nice blue to more a green/hazel colour.
23: Hair color
My original hair colour was a bright ass Strawberry Blonde. My mother used to get asked if she would accept money for a lock of my hair to take to their hair dressers. People are weird.
Now? It’s more on the dirty blonde side, but it’s winter so my hair gets darker and gets more red in it.
24: Favourite style of clothing
Don’t typically have one? Lots of black, and I guess I like the distressed look. Slashed up shirts and jeans, etc.
25: Ever done a prank call?
I have not actually. Ever. Lol
27: Meaning behind my URL (there’s no 26 lol)
I had started this in order to help those of us with ADHD find methods to help them study buuuuuut that strayed and I can’t keep up with the blog half the time and yeah. I still want to, but it’s hard when I have no time.
28: Favourite movie
Hellboy. The original one. Or the blade trilogy.
29: Favourite song
I don’t have one right now per say. Usually I answer with “Wash It All Away” - Fiver Finger Death Punch
30: Favourite band
Five Finger Death Punch. Lmao saw them live once and it was the best show I’ve ever been to.
31: How I feel right now
Sick. Stressed. A bit worried. Also content and happy.
I am doing this because there have been an influx of new followers. So, here we go: I am Elizabeth, I’m a chronically ill Mexican (born, raised and living in Mx) poet and writer. I have been writing all my life, but only recently I have been putting my work out there in public. I hope to publish my work when I am able. I speak both my mother tongue and, obviously, English.
I am currently writing several projects, both poetry and fiction. On sunday, I tend to do my sunday six stories.
My ask box is always open and there anonymous is on should you feel shy. If it takes me a bit to answer, it doesn’t mean I am ignoring you, I am simply dealing with chronic health issues and I am not here every day, but I will answer.
