#love teachers

Hello everybody! As you probably guessed and noticed, I was gone for a long while. I was on an unexpected hiatus because I thought my feelings for K were gone. Hahahahahagahahahahahaahahah no they are still there lol well I’m back and I’ll try to answer everyone’s questions and messages! ❤️

Hello everybody!! Ever since I found the teacher crush community, I felt at home <3 Before, nobody would talk to me about my feelings for my teacher(s) because they all thought I was weird or had a fetish. Or they just didn’t really care about how I felt. I felt so alone and scared, but then I found you guys <3 For the past few days, all I’ve thought about is K. Tomorrow is our last day together (the semester is ending tomorrow for us and I don’t have him next semester). I am scared about how the day is going to go honestly. I feel like I’m going to cry, but I feel like I won’t at the same time. But anyways, to the point of this post:

I found that the teacher crush community is a beautiful community full of helpful and kind people (for the most part). We all understand what each other is going through and it really helps to have those people to talk to. I’ve been trying to think of ways to give back to the teacher crush community and I think I have an idea!

I want to make a Teacher Crush Community YouTube collab channel, with preferably 3-5 other people who are a part of the community. We can share our stories, experiences, and give advice. Of course, you may be scared about people finding out about your crushes and you getting in trouble! That is totally understandable!! I’m thinking that in our videos, we can use either 

a) our TC’s first name initial (like mine is K) or if that’s too obvious

b) give our TC a fake name, like Bob or something lol

We’d each upload a video for one day of the week, which would be our specific day. For example, I chose to do Sundays, so I upload a video every Sunday. OR we can just upload a video whenever we feel like it. But I think it’d be more organized and fun if we each had a day that we made videos on, so people can look forward to the next person uploading the next day or something. Also, we can have weekly themes that each person of the collab channel does a video on. Like, the weekly theme is “What’s your TC like?” and you share. That might be a bit hard, so perhaps we could just each do individual videos without the weekly theme. Maybe a weekly theme could be “How to know if your TC has a crush on you” and we each share 2-4 different tips and at the end of our video, we reference the next video to happen, so people will be geared to see the next video for the next group of tips?? If that makes sense?

I found a Teacher Crush Community YouTube channel on YouTube, but it hasn’t been active for a while and was only run by one person. I think it’d be cool to have multiple people on a channel for multiple experiences and different advice! We could do Q and A’s and stuff like that! It’d be fun! <3 

If you’re interested, please message me!! I’d love to get together some friends from this community to work on this project together. We could exchange skips and stuff, for easier communication.

Tomorrow I have a field trip with K. We’re going to an art museum and although the trip is pretty short (2 hours), I’m pretty excited <3 but I’m worried. How do I say that he means the world to me and that I love him without actually saying that? Should I even say anything?? The field trip is optional and so a lot of my classmates aren’t going. I wouldn’t be surprised if it turned out to be just me and K. But that’s the way it’s supposed to be. Just us.

But what do I say? What do I do? I feel like doing something corny like telling him out of all the art I’ve seen, he’s my favorite masterpiece! I feel like showing him how much I care!

But I shouldn’t. I couldn’t. I wouldn’t. I can’t…

What should I do?!

I don’t think you will fully understand what you mean to me. You once said rules were meant to be broken and honestly, every time I was around you, I was afraid of saying something or doing something that would cross a line or break a rule. I was so afraid that you found me crying outside the classroom and you sat outside with me for what seemed like a few blissful minutes, but I knew it was longer than a couple minutes. It was more like 10-15 minutes and it astounds me that you’d rather take that time to help me feel better than teach your class, who was taking an important test that day. It astounds me. You astound me. You confuse me and complete me and make me happy. You know why I skip around class all cheerfully? You know why I smile and laugh and actually let myself to show my classmates the true me? Because you’re there. You’re there and although you’re not always by my side during class, your presence is enough to make me undoubtably happy. You make me happy. You helped me that one tearful day with those gentle words. “You’re one of my favorite students…” and “You’re always so happy during class…” and “You intrigued me right from the start. I kept an eye on you…”. That’s what you said to me. That’s what you said to me that one day where we sat outside the classroom, just the two of us. Just the way it should be.
Just us.