Summary: Lily moved in with Richard and they managed to live a normal life, well, as normal as Richards life could be. Lily gets a role in the show. Richard is plagued with doubts about himself…how can Lily love an old man like him?
Pairing: Misha x Reader, Lily x Richard
Note for the character Lily: Lily is the readers best friend. Read the Prequel to find out more about how they met and how their friendship happened.
Word Count: 2586
Warnings: language (swearwords and stuff), mentioned abusive relationship, violence, fluff, SMUT!
Notes:
NORMAL text = Third Person View on Reader
BOLD text = Misha´s POV
ITALIC text = Richard´s POV
This one is just a little gift for my spn-bestie @mishacollinswife.
In this series, Richard and Misha are singles at the beginning.So none of them both is cheating or anything.
If you don’t like it, just don´t read it. If you DO like it, then I would appreciate if you leave feedback <3
“Don’t ‘dude’ me Rob! It’s not that I got hard on purpose!” I say, a bit louder than I wanted to. “So you get hard seeing me with her, but you can’t get hard for her? …Wow!” “But I want her. I want her BAD! But… I just can’t because.. because I´m scared… “
“Scared?” His raised eyebrow doesn’t make it better. “Yeah… scared.” “Scared of what? You know how it’s done! Your dick won’t fall off from having sex, you know?”
“I don’t know why I am talking to you! I … I am scared that I could hurt her. Like her ex did… I mean, I don´t know everything he did to her, she still doesn’t want to talk about it. But what if I do something that hurts her?… You know..I like-” “GOD, spare me the details!” He yells and lifts his hand in front of my face, the palm facing to me.
“Rich?” Raspberries! “Hey Lily, uhm.. You were awesome!” She looks at me with an odd expression on her face. “Thanks. Uh should we go? The others are waiting at the restaurant.” She says, reaching out to take my hand in hers. Is she still mad at me?
At the dinner table, we sit next to each other. Sitting at her other side is Alex and they are joking. Pushing my food around on my plate, I try to ignore their touches and hugs. Lily seems to be in a good mood. I sigh and put my fork away, reaching into my pocket, my hand wrapping around the small velvet box, only to let it go again and getting up. “Gotta head to the restrooms…” I mumble to no one specific.
“Don’t be stupid Rich.. She won´t say yes…” Looking into the mirror I see every wrinkle on my skin. My beard probably could use a shave too… Why would she want an old man like me… Lily seems to have fun with Alex. Running my fingers through my hair, I sigh again and leave the restrooms. I step into the dining room and see Lily´s head resting on Alex’ shoulder, his arms around her back.
Clenching my fists I head back to the table and sit down, looking over at Lily and Alex, only to see that Lily has fallen asleep and he seems kinda… uncomfortable? He gives me an apologetic glance and carefully lifts her from his shoulder to lean Lily against mine.
“Richie…love you,” she mumbles and a smile spreads over her face. Looking at Jensen, who is sitting opposite to us, I mouth that we leave. He nods and I pick her up, careful not to wake her. Rob follows us to bring our jackets to my car. Lily’s head still resting against my shoulder tilts up a bit and she looks at me.
“Rich? Uhm…what?” I kiss her forehead and smile. “We’re going home, you fell asleep.” She nods and falls asleep again. Rob helps me to get her into the car without accidentally hurting her. “Talk to her!” Rob says when I get into the car and start driving home.
Half an hour later we arrive at home, she woke up on the road, and I help Lily to get upstairs to our bedroom.
“I´ll take a shower, do you need me here sugar?” She shakes her head no and I get into the bathroom. After I got undressed, I stand there, looking at me in the small mirror over the sink.
In this light, my wrinkles are even more visible. I still can’t think of any reason why she would want me! I’m old… at least twenty years older than her. Suddenly, there are arms wrapped around me. I didn’t hear her enter. Hastily, I try to grab a towel to cover me, but she just hugs me from behind, her head resting against my back.
“Richie? Keep breathing…” She mumbles against my shoulder blades and I realize that I hold my breath. Slowly I start breathing again. “Uh… sugar? You..you re…realize that I…I´m naked?” I stutter and my heart pounds against my ribs. “Hmm.” Lily hums and I feel her smile on my shoulder. “So..uhm… I mean… “ Taking a deep breath, I let my arms hang down my side, closing and opening my fists to calm down. “But..But why are you.. I mean.. I´m just..” “Gorgeous.” She whispers completely relaxed. “What?” Looking up, I see my deep red face in the mirror, mouth agape and surprise written all over. She turns me around and I realize that she’s…she’s naked too.
“Su…sugar, I… uhm… why..are you..” “Naked?” Unable to form words, I nod. “To shower with you. I heard couples do that from time to time, you know?” She kisses my chest and a shiver runs through my body.
Slowly, I brush my fingers up her arms and take her face in my hands. My gaze wanders over her parted lips and locks with her eyes. Then her lips crash on mine resulting in a heated kiss.
Her fingers run through my hair, pulling my head down a bit. Grabbing her shoulders, I break the kiss. “Lily, what…” She looks into my eyes. “Richard. I love you, I want this.” She says, trailing my neckline, brushing over my collarbone with her fingers. “But.. Lily, I… “ “Stop talking already… “ She whispers and stops me from talking with another wild kiss. Her hands resting on my chest, she tries to push me back a few steps, but I don’t move. My hands slowly leave her shoulders, trailing down her chest and cupping her beautiful breasts. It’s like a switch turned off and I press my body against her, slowly pushing her back against the wall. “Rich…” She mumbles between the kisses and her hands wander down. “Stop it Lil… “ A deep growl escapes my chest and I grab both of her wrists, bringing them up above her head. “Rich… please…” She moans and I kiss down her neck, leaving small hickeys on my way down to her breasts. Playing around her temples with my tongue lets her shiver.
I take her wrists in one hand and bring the other down her body, brushing softly over her dripping wet core. She whimpers and moans my name. Leaving her breasts, I kiss her again.
“What do you want?” I ask her, my eyes and voice darkened of lust. “Want you…Rich…” She groans when I press my thumb against her clit.
“Don’t move.” I growl and go down on my knees, softly biting her thighs and slowly circling around her sweet spot. Her moaning drives me crazy, her whole body reacts to my touch. Working my fingers into her wet cunt to make her tremble. “So.. close…”
One hand fingering her tight pussy, I slowly kiss my way up, just to start sucking her clit. Looking up, I see her mouth forming a silent O and her head tilting backwards.
“Let’s see what you can take, sugar.” I growl against her pussy and push in more fingers, scissoring inside her, my tongue playing with her dripping folds as I suck heavier.
“Oh fuck Rich!… Soo… good…” Her breath comes jagged and her legs are trembling heavily, her back sliding down a bit against the wall.
“I ordered you to not move.” I growl and move my fingers even more, faster and deeper. Her whole body shakes and her first orgasm hits her hard. “Cumming…cummingcummincumm…” She can´t hold herself up on those trembling legs and slides down the tiles.
I crouch down and tilt her head back a bit by pulling her hair slightly. “Didn’t I tell you not to move?” She looks startled, but then the corners of her mouth tilt upwards to show me a cocky smile. “You…you did. But I didn-” “Next time you obey!” I growl and she nods shyly blushing. Seeing her like this makes me even harder. I bring my mouth next to her ear. “If any of this is something you don’t want, tell me and I stop, sugar.” I whisper and pull her against my chest. She nods again and then I feel her hand caressing my legs, up my thighs and then she wraps it around my thick cock.
“Richard…please…” She moans into my ear and I swallow hard. I help her to stand up, her back pressed against the wall and my hand between her legs. Sliding in my fingers again, I kiss her neck and she moans my name. Licking my lips, I pick up one of her legs, teasing her pussy with my thick cock and then sliding into her tight fuckhole.
“God Lily… Yo…. You’re tight!” I growl and keep rubbing her clit with my fingers to help her relax even more. “Feels… So… good!"
I wait a bit before I slowly start moving my hips, thrusting into her, my shaft filling her up entirely. Her fingernails dig into my back and she bites in my neck to muffle her loud moans.
Her walls clench around me, and I thrust deeper into her dripping pussy. I lift up her other leg and she wraps them around my waist, taking me in completely.
My face buried in her neck, I growl her name. "Rich.. Ahhh… so… deep! Gonna… cum..” She’s a shaking mess. The second orgasm hits her and her walls are squeezing my cock and I pull out to turn her around. One hand squeezing her tits and the other still rubbing her sensitive clit with my fingers, I push in again, going even deeper than before.
The sound of skin slapping against skin, mixed with our panting and moaning fills the room.
“Lily… ’m gonna cum…” I growl against her shoulders and my pace quickens and with every thrust into her tight pussy, my cock throbs even more.
“Cum…with me, sugar….” Softly biting her skin, I muffle my groans while Lily rears up, trembling and screaming my name.
Unloading all of my cum into her, we sink down to the floor, huffing and shaking. I wrap my arms around her and brush her hair aside to kiss her neck, but she flinches at the touch.
“I´m sorry, Lily, I didn’t wan-” “You didn’t, Rich…. it’s just…” My head rests against her shoulder and my fingers intertwine with hers in front of her chest. “It’s alright. We agreed that you don’t have to tell anything.”
Taking a deep breath she just starts telling. “A.. Andy did… He never was…soft and nice after we had… He… He always hit me…saying that I wasn’t good enough that night… Or… or that he should’ve just bought a.. A girl… They could make him feel better than I could.” Her voice is still a bit shaky but firm.
Her head turns around a bit and I can sense a smile on her face.
“I was surprised to be treated like a loved person after having sex and not… well…"
I pull her closer, causing her body to shift and she squeezes my dick with her pussy.
"Hm-hm, I love you Lily, that’s why I treat you as my most beloved treasure in the world. Let’s shower and then head to bed, sugar.” I whisper into her hair and she nods weakly. “Are you alright?” Furrowing my brows, I look at the back of her head.
“Babe, you just made me cum hard three times… I’m a bit exhausted…”
A soft moan elicits her when I get hard again, still inside her tight pussy and stretching her.
“God Lily… ’m sorry,” I mumble. As an answer to me, she starts rocking her hips slowly. Groaning, I free one of my hands to slide it down her stomach until my fingers find her soaking wet cunt. Playing around her sensitive nub I also start moving my hips.
I place some more hickeys on her neck until I can’t hold back and position myself leaning against the wall and turning her around to face me. She slides down my cock again and her back arches when a sudden orgasm hit her as I suck and bite on her nipple. Her walls are clenching around my shaft and I slower my movement, to last a bit longer.
“Ohh yes Rich!” She moans and a smirk appears on my lips. I really am the luckiest man right now. Lily bounces up and down on me while I devour her breasts. I can feel the next orgasm building up in her and add some fingers to my cock inside her.
“Yes daddy fill me up please!” Those words send me over the edge. I can’t hold back and thrust deep inside her again, releasing hot and creamy cum.
“Holy fuck… Lily. That…that was.. amazing… I love you!” Both of us are breathing heavily and Lily’s forehead is resting against my chest. Thank god we are sitting next to the bathtub, so I can let in the hot water. I feel her smiling against my skin and raise an eyebrow.
“What are you thinking sugar?” She looks up and I can’t but smile too. She’s just fucking adorable and beautiful…especially with this blush on her cheeks. “I think about the fact that I love you…unconditionally! And that it´s …well the first time we…see each other naked.” I chuckle. Not the best idea to do when you’re still inside her, Rich! She moans quietly and I shift a bit to slide out of her.
I lean my head back against the wall and she starts drawing on my chest with her fingers. “Lily? This here… I mean US… is this really what you want?” “Yes Richard. Or else I wouldn’t be here, with you! Do you want me here?” Glancing down at her face, our eyes meet. “Of course I want you to be here with me sugar! Why do you think that I wouldn’t want you?” “Well… You were kinda…defensive and withdrawn… I thought you wouldn't…” I cup her face with my hands, kissing her and then looking into her wonderful eyes. “I wanted you since I saw you Lily. I just… I am old, at least twenty years older than you… I just were insecure… “
“Rich…I don’t care if there is an age gap. I love you for who you are! I love you for your smile, for your humor, for your whole personality and I love you because you said you love me even tho you know what I´ve been through or how messed up I am.” She kisses my lips softly. “And I love you because you make me feel like a human being.”
I pull her close to my chest, not only because I just want to hold her, but to hide that my eyes are tearing up. My wonderful and brave little flower…I can’t imagine all the terrible things she’s been through, what he did to her, to make her not feel human…
“I love you so much.” Staying like this for a minute to calm down a bit, I look over to the bathtub and clear my throat. “You can take a bath now, sugar. Let me..” I steady her body while we get up. Wow…her legs are still shaky. Since when am I….nevermind.
I help her to get in the tub and then get in myself, settling down behind her, scrubbing and massaging her shoulders.
Summary: Some months later, Richard and Lily haven’t written lately and he tries to figure out what happened, just to learn that she went back to her ex. Can he get her back? How are Misha and the reader involved? What is it about the rings?
Pairing: Misha x Reader, Lily x Richard
Note for the character Lily: Lily is the readers best friend. Read the Prequel to find out more about how they met and how their friendship happened.
Word Count: 3616
Warnings: language (swearwords and stuff), mentioned abusive relationship, violence, fluff
Notes:
NORMAL text = Third Person View on Reader
BOLD text = Misha´s POV
ITALIC text = Richard´s POV
This one is just a little gift for my spn-bestie @mishacollinswife.
In this series, Richard and Misha are singles at the beginning.So none of them both is cheating or anything.
If you don’t like it, just don´t read it. If you DO like it, then I would appreciate if you leave feedback <3
She’s not picking up… I wonder if she’s busy. Looking down on my phone, I sigh. I’ve called her the twentieth time, something is not right. I think for a moment and then I type in another number. It rings two times.
“Richard? What’s wrong?” “Hey (Y/N).” I say, unsure what to say. “Uhm… Do you know if Lily is at work today or something?” Taking a deep breath and holding it, I wait.
“I haven’t talked to her in like… a week or so, sorry Rich. Did you try to call her?” “Hm-Hm, twenty times, only today… Could you do me a favor and check on her? Last time we talked she sounded… different,” I say and she agrees. “Thanks. Just call me or something, okay?”
After hanging up, I stare at the phone in my hand. Why are you not picking up your phone sugar?… What happened?…
Around an hour later, I get a text message.
‘It´s bad Richard.’
It takes less than an hour to pack some stuff and call Misha to organize a flight. She needs me.
‘Any details please?’
We have to wait around two hours to board the flight. The whole time, I´m just sitting there, tapping my foot on the floor and stare on my phone again.
“Rich, cal-” “Dont tell me to calm down Collins!” I growl when my phone vibrates.
‘Andy. Lily´s back together with him. She looks bad.’
“FUCK!” Growling I throw my phone into my bag. I run my hands through my face and hair and drop back to my chair. “Fuck…”
“Rich.. There has to be an explanation. We´ll figure out-” “Just shut up, please.” “Rich-” “No, Misha. She told me she loves me, she even agreed to move in with me!”
An announcement for our flight halls through the airport and we get into our plane.
Some hours later, I didn’t pay attention, we land. (Y/N)´s waiting for us at the airport.
“Do you want to stay at my place or-” “Where does he live?” “Rich, maybe you should wait until tomorrow?” Is she crazy? We know what he did to her and she asks me to WAIT? “(Y/N), I want to talk to her, nothing more.” She sighs and agrees to stop at his address.
Standing in front of the apartment door, I hesitate. What if she didn’t love me? What if…
“Why does this fucker keep calling you, huh? You’re MINE.” I hear his voice and a strange noise. I knock and his yelling stops. “Go, open the door and tell them to fuck off.”
Slowly, the door opens just a split, but it’s enough to see Lily’s face. This asshole… The little part of her face I can see is bruised, a little cut on her lip seems fresh.
“Lily…” “Richard, plea…please leave.” She whispers, her voice filled with fear and her eyes focused on mine. Those beautiful green eyes, teary and with dark circles underneath. “Lily, let m-” She shakes her head and closes the door, leaving me standing there, my fists clenched and my heart breaking. No I won’t leave her! Waving at Misha who stands next to the car, signing him to come closer, I hammer my fists against the door.
Lily opens again, this time Andy is standing behind her. “Fuck off, she doesn’t want you!” He growls but I ignore him, just looking at Lily. She shakes her head and freezes when he grabs her by her shoulder. “Lily, are you here because you want to? Do you love him?” I ask, looking into her pleading eyes. “I… Please…” She mumbles and his grip tightens, squeezing her shoulder. “Lea..Leave Richard.” Her whispering voice tears my heart apart. “No, Lily. I won´t leave, not until I made sure that this asshole can’t hurt you again.” I cup her cheek, very careful to not to hurt her. “Lily, I love you. I just want to know that you are safe.” Andy grabs her wrist and drags her away from the door, letting her wince. “She’s safe and now leave, or you´ll have to be carried away!”
“Rich, come on. Don’t let him provoke you!” Misha says and places his hand on my shoulder. “Come on.” I let him drag me away, but after just a few steps, I turn around and put my foot into the door to prevent it from being closed. “Rich!” Misha signs (Y/N) to call the police, just in case something happens, and then he follows me back to the door.
“Hey, Andy. Does anyone know that you hit your ‘girlfriend’?” I shout, trying to make him come out and assault me, while Misha tries to get Lily out there.
And Andy does come out and my heart falls to the bottom of my feet. He’s pointing a gun at me. It’s the first time I am actually praying. And then I hear a gunshot. “RICH!” It´s Lily´s voice. I prepare for the pain, but… there is none. A quiet whump in front of me lets me open my eyes again, expecting the worst, only to see Andy lying there, he’s dead. “Rich!” Lily calls my name again and I run over to her, wrapping my arms around her and holding her close.
“Lily.. I was fucking scared when… What happened..I mean-” She cuts me off by kissing me. “Richard? The cops want to talk to her.” Misha says but I refuse to let go of her. “Rich, it’s okay. I have to talk to them, but I´ll go with you wherever you want when I am finished, okay?” Lily whispers and looks in my eyes. I nod and she walks over to the cops to answer their questions.
“What now, Rich?” Misha asks, looking at Lily and then at (Y/N). “I don’t know, at first I need to know if she’s alright. And then we can…” I sigh, my eyes always fixed on Lily.
After a while, she turns around, hurries to come back to me and hugs me. Carefully I lift her head with my hand, looking at her beautiful face. It’s covered with bruises, the little cut in her lip is bleeding again. “How are you, Lily?” My voice actually is a bit shaky, but she smiles reassuringly. “Now I am fine. Thank you Richard.” She places a soft kiss on my lips and then leans her head against my chest.
(Y/N) takes us to her place. We left Lily’s stuff back there, she didn’t want anything but her purse and her guitar. Wearing some of (Y/N)´s clothes, she’s sitting on the sofa, holding a cup of tea and leaned against my shoulder. (Y/N) is sitting on Misha´s lap and ruffles his hair.
“So.. what’s the plan now Lily? You can’t go back into your flat, he sold it. I could let you stay here for a while, if you want to.” I shake my head. “I might have an Idea.” All three of them look at me. “What about you move in at my place Lily? Just like we planned before… well before him.” I mumble. Lily stays silent for some minutes, probably thinking about my offer.
“You could do the same, (Y/N). My house is way too big for just me living there, you know.” Wrapping his arms around (Y/N), Misha smiles and kisses her when she nods yes.
“Well, if you really want me to move in Rich… I would love to. But I need to find a jo-” “Already taken care of. Only if you agree to that of course, but we can discuss it later…You really want to move in?” I can feel my heart pounding in my chest like crazy. She nods and I kiss the top of her head again.
Another five months later, everything is settled and Lily officially moved in at my place, unofficially, she moved in the day we arrived here.
“Richie? Have you seen my phone?” She’s been looking for her phone for almost ten minutes now. “It’s here, sugar!” I say while drinking my coffee and scrolling through Twitter.
Ping! Huh, a message from Misha.
‘You think she likes this ring?’ There is a photo attached to it, showing a delicate silver ring with a dark blue sapphire on top.
‘She´ll love it. What about mine?’ And I send him a photo of the ring I got for Lily yesterday. It’s a simple golden ring, half a heart engraved on it and an ember in the middle. The one for me also is a simple golden ring, the other half of the heart engraved and an emerald in it.
“Rich, I can’t find it!” I hear her voice echoing through the house and can’t but smile. The first days after she moved in here were, well considering what she went through, real bad.
She didn’t want to be a burden to me, so she tried to help me doing chores and wanted to start a new job instantly. I really had to convince her that she needs some rest and that she never could be a burden for me. Every time someone made a quick move around her, she flinched and looked like a scared Bambi.
It was hell to see her like that. Slowly her bruises were healing and she became happier, day after day.
I love her deeply and I can’t imagine life without her, so I want to ask her tonight.
“Rich! I need my damn phone! Did you… what?” She stops in track and looks at me, her eyebrows raised. I was staring at her again. Clearing my throat, I point at her phone laying on our kitchen counter.
“You put it here when you woke up and made coffee. Sugar, you okay?” She gives me her usual, and utterly adorable, ‘you kiddin me?’ look and I chuckle. “I am about to act a kissing scene and tomorrow a makeout scene for the first time in my life Rich. Of course I am NOT okay!” Her voice a bit higher than usual, she sighs. “Don’t worry sugar, you’re going to be great!” I get up when she gets her phone and together we leave to get on set.
“ACTION!” Jensen’s Voice halls through the set and it begins.
It’s the scene where I cower on Sam’s bed in the bunker, my mouth stitched close and my arms around my knees.
Lily and Misha, playing a female hunter and Castiel, come into the room, wanting to help Gabriel, who I am playing.
“Sam…What happened to your friend?” Lily asks, slowly stepping closer to me, carrying medical supplies.
The last scene we’re shooting today is the scene where Lily’s character confronts Chuck and he tells her about his feelings for her. And they have to kiss.
“Cut!” Jensen grins after shooting the last scene for today. “That was awesome guys! Let’s round up and get something to eat.” Everyone agrees and I take Lily´s hand in mine.
At the dinner, we chat and everyone agrees that Lily did awesome today, just like (Y/N) did. “I kinda envy Alex now.” Misha says, frowning. “Why does (Y/N) play the love interest for Jack? Couldn´t we just cancel the Destiel plans and make her Castiels love interest?” “Better than seeing your girlfriend fake making out with your series-dad!” I joke and see Robs face turn dark red. Lily hits my shoulder and laughs. “Well, I need to see if Rob could do me good, don’t I?” Lily is joking, I know it, but somehow… “Lily, I …you know.. I mean..” I stutter and look at her. “Don´t worry, Richie. You´re my number one!” She smirks and winks at me.
This time it’s my face that heats up and I look down at the floor.
Later, we leave the restaurant and head home.
“Rich, everything alright? You were quiet at the dinner.” Lily asks and looks at me, her face full of worry. “Uh, no… Everything alright, sugar. Maybe a bit tired.”
While Lily is in the shower, I sit on our shared bed, reading a book, trying not to think about this afternoon and the ‘make out’ scene of Lily and Rob. It was nothing much, but even if those were fake kisses, they made me jealous, I wanted to show everyone that she’s mine, that only I can make her…”Richie? What are you thinking about?” Lily’s voice startles me and I put away my book, looking at her.
Oh…raspberries…. Try to focus on her face Rich, just don´t look at anything else… just her face… Not like the one night… please don´t do it again…. You can´t…
“Richie?” Clearing my throat, I sit up a bit more and lean my back against the headboard. “What?” “You were staring… Don’t you like my sleepwear?” She asks and looks down at herself.
I let my gaze wander, look at her newest sleepwear. It’s a thin negligee, reaching just until beneath her lace panties. I swallow hard and shuffle on the bed. “You look beautiful sugar! Uhm.. do you… would you…uhm…come to bed?” Stuttering and with shaking hands, I lift the blanket for her to slip under and cuddle against me. Her head´s resting on my shoulder, the blanket only covering our legs, I stare up to the ceiling, trying to avoid looking down at her chest.
Her hand rests on my thigh and she kisses my neck. Again I have to swallow hard, feeling her touch, feeling her hand wander up to rest on my bare chest. “Richard?” “Hm?” I place a kiss on top of her head, trying to ignore the fantasies that are bubbling up in my head.
I pull up the blankets to cover us, especially her almost exposed breasts, and hastily wrap my arms around her. “It’s cold, we should…uhm just cuddle and try to sleep, shouldn’t we?” My voice has darkened a bit and sounds quite raspy.
“What´s wrong Rich? Did I do something wrong?” I shake my head, still trying not to think about her breasts pressed against my skin, my hands slapping- “Nope, all good, sugar.” I clear my throat as she snuggles close against me, her leg laying on mine, brushing against my- “Uh, excuse me, I need.. uh I have to get… Uh…” Mumbling, I crawl out of the bed and leave to get a glass water.
Come on Rich! You love her. It’s not bad that you can't… I try to breathe, slowly breathing in and out. You can do it. Just go back to bed and show her… make her… uhm.. Just go to bed!
Entering the bedroom again, I close the door and walk over to the bed, my eyes locked on her. Lily´s still sitting there, leaning against the headboard, the blanket slipped down and exposed her beautiful body once again.
I crawl under the blankets, pull them up again and lay my arm around her shoulder. When I look down, I see that one of her sleeves slipped down her arm along with a lot of the fabric, uncovering her breast. She cuddles against me, her chest pressed against my body, her hand again resting on my thigh.
I feel my body tense up, feel the heat running through my veins. My brain again conjures images of her body, kneeling in front of me, my hand on her back, a rosy mark on her butt, fitting the shape of my hand. No! I swallow hard, trying to suppress those pictures, those fantasies.
She sighs and somehow I hope that she’s given up to seduce me, but apparently… I was wrong. Her whole attire today, everything she did and now this outfit… It seems as if she WANT to get me to sleep with her…. I already want to pull her close and lay down to sleep, but she straddles my hips and I can’t move.
“Lily, I ..” I can only stutter when she places her hands on my chest and leans down to kiss me. Her hips are moving slowly while she kisses me.
A tie around her wrists, an eyefold and a gag… My hands slapping her breasts and her ass… Seeing her face looking up to me while she's… blinking my eyes fast, I look up into her face, pushing away my fantasies again. My hands fisting the bedsheets next to me, I feel her grinding on my dick but I just can't…
I stare at her breasts, one of them completely uncovered, when her hands are wandering around on my skin, caressing and stroking every inch of my body… Almost every inch.
“Lily, what… What are you doing?” I huff out. “Richard, I want you… I thought you would like… Don’t you want… Too?"
I spread my arms for her to lean in. "Sugar, I…” I mumble, looking down at her body and stay silent.
“Okay… Good… G'night then, Richie.” she whispers and lays down, her back facing towards me. I lay down too, pulling her close to cuddle. She pulls the blanket up and falls asleep very fast.
Sighing deeply, I curse myself for being like this, for… Ugh… I Lay awake a long time, eventually falling asleep after some hours.
Waking up the next morning, I wake up to an empty bed.
“Lily?” I mumble, reaching out to the nightstand to grab my phone, I find a note.
'I went to work early. See you then. Love you. L.'
Great… She’s mad at me… I get up and get ready for work, meeting the others on set.
Jensen and Jared look at me and furrow their brows. Alex just greets me with a very grumpy “Mornin’.” Walking to the make up compartment, I freeze when I hear voices.
“He didn’t want me. I wore a damn negligee! What did I-” Fuck. She saw me. Walking by me, she kissed me and gave me a slightly off smile. “Morning Richie.” She mumbled and left to practice her lines with (Y/N) and Misha.
“Damn, Rich! You messed up, you know that?” Rob says and pats my shoulder. “Hmmm, 'know,” mumbling, I look down at my feet.
“What happened? Didn’t you tell me she was the one you love, you want to marry and make a lot cute little babies with?” I nod. “Yes. And I do love her!” “And when she literally sat on your dick, you didn’t do her?"
Silence… I avoid looking at him, blushing. "You do realize that you need to have sex in order to make babies?” I nod. “And why did you reject her then last night? I mean, if she had done that for me, I would ha-” “I couldn’t get hard!” It’s said. He stares at me, his mouth dropped open.
“You… WHAT?” Looking down, I run my fingers through my hair.
“I couldn’t get hard… It’s.. I just..” Fuck!
Here I stand, trying to find words to tell my best friend that I can’t get hard for my girlfriend, the woman I want to marry, just because I… Because I… Hell, I can’t even admit it to myself!
“Just what Rich? You don’t love her? You don’t think she’s attractive?” I shake my head.
“Guys! We need you on set, NOW!"
The next hours are hell. She’s ignoring me and I can’t blame her. And then it’s time for the one particular scene to shoot. A makeout scene for Chuck and the character that Lily plays.
Jensen and I are directing together and after we yell “Action!” Rob and Lily are awesome.
Rob slowly pushes her against the wall behind her, and he seems like he’s whispering to her all the time, not loud enough to get caught by the microphones. His hands caress her whole body, leaving out the very private parts, then he lays a hand on her mouth, Lily’s eyes go wide as Robs body presses her against the wall. I already want to yell cut, but Jensen holds me back.
“Don’t be scared, my beloved.” Rob whispers and when his hand wanders down to her throat and they move in rhythm, I tense up.
I want to drag him away from her, want to be the one to press her against the wall. I want to be the one whose name she whispers while I have her trembling around me.
“Chuck… please I..” Lily whispers and Rob turns her around, kissing her, his hands under her butt, picking her up and Lily wrapping her legs around his waist.
My pants suddenly feel a bit tighter and I swallow hard. Rob fists her hair and pulls her head back while Lily moans his name… As fast but silent as I can, I get up from my chair and leave the scene. I have to calm down… I have to…
“Richard?” It´s Misha. Crap. “Shouldn’t you be directing this scene with Lily and Rob?” I try to cover my crotch with my jacket. “Uhm, yes, but I just wanted to.. Uhm…” Misha raises an eyebrow and looks down at my hands, clinging on to the fabric of my jacket. “Why are you-” “Rich!” Great… Rob. Misha shrugs and leaves when Rob approaches me. “What?!” I turn around and look at him, a wide grin plastered on his face. “Lily was awesome!” “‘Course she was.” I mumble, shifting uncomfortable when I again feel electricity run through my veins and I have the urge to punch him. “What´s wrong Rich?” He asks, looking down at my hands. “You don’t have a…, you know …a … bo..boner, right?” I swallow hard and he stares at my face. “Dude!”
Author:somemaycallmesunshine Pairing: Matt Cohen x Reader Reader Gender:Female Word Count:2k Warnings: fluff (is that a warning?), swearing, reader has self-confidence issues, mentions of anxiety/depression
A/N: Hi, everyone! Sorry this took so long. I first want to thank everyone who liked or followed this story and for everyone who still is reading it despite my absence. It means so much to me. I hope you enjoy this next chapter! (Internal thoughts are in italics)
Summary: You had long dreamt of meeting your hero Matt Cohen and thanking him for changing your life. But now with SPNCon rolling around, you finally get your chance, and it’s more than you could have ever imagined.
You checked yourself in the mirror for the umpteenth time. You didn’t have anything to wear for a day out with your hero so you asked your friend Cecelia, who, just like friends do, let you borrow a cute sundress she brought. But not without the price of grilling you on the details.
“Come on! At least show me a picture of your mystery date!” She pouted.
“It’s not a date, Cece.” You insisted.
She snorted, “Yeah right. What kind of guy asks you on a whim to eat lunch with him alone and tells you how special you are? Not to mention he just met you. Face it, Y/N. He totally asked you out.” She sighed as she flopped onto the hotel bed. “God, why don’t these kinds of things happen to me?”
You hesitated for a moment, fiddling with your hands. “Cece, what if it’s not all it’s cracked up to be?” You asked, your voice low and hands shaking. “What if this is just a game? What if he’s just using me?”
Cecilia frowned, “You know he’s not.” But your unconvinced expression told her otherwise. “Y/N, you’ve gotta be a little more hopeful about this. This is someone new, this mysterious and probably hot and handsome stranger asking you out on a friggin’ date for god sakes! It’s like a dream!”
“And what if that’s all this’ll be? Just some stupid dream that ends up being a complete nightmare?”
“I don’t think that’ll happen.” She replied. “Not everyone is like Barron, you know.”
You sucked in a deep breath, knowing that what she said was true but the doubt still lingered in your mind. You weren’t one for fairy tales and happy endings. They just didn’t happen to you. And you weren’t going to start believing in them now just because some gorgeous guy supposedly asked you out.
You turned away from the mirror to face her, changing the subject. “How do I look?” Truthfully, whatever your friend said, you felt a little strange. You never dressed up for anything really and it was one the first times in your life you ever put that much effort into make up and hair. Your reflection almost made it seem like you were a completely different person.
Cece gave you a wink, “Rawr.” She made a sound similar to a purring cat. “Trust me. He won’t be able to resist.” You grabbed a nearby pillow and threw it into her face.
“Hey! What the hell?”
“You’re crazy.” You snorted.
She smirked and kicked at your heels, “Yeah but you love it. Now get going or you’re gonna be late for Prince Charming!”
Matt fiddled with his collared shirt and tried combing his unruly hair once more before turning back to his friends, Richard and Rob. “There. How do I look?”
“Like a friggin’ archangel.” Richard snickered and pinched Matt’s cheeks. Matt swatted his hand away and Richard’s snickers turned into full on guffaws.
Rob shook his head, “I still say it’s a little weird. You met her yesterday, right?” Matt nodded his head and he continued, “So what – do you like her or something? I mean, it’s not like you to wanna just pick girls up on a whim.”
“Um no. Girls wanna pick him up. I mean, have you seen the ass on this guy? He’s fucking blessed.” Rich snorted.
Matt rolled his eyes and ignored his friend. “It’s hard to explain. It was… It was a feeling, you know?” He paused for a moment, biting his lip to help collect his thoughts but they all traced back to your smiling face. “It was like God was opening this door of opportunity and I had to take it – seriously, you’re a fucking perv, Rich.” He scoffed as he watched his friend collapse in tears.
“Face it. You walked right into that one though, dude.” Rob smirked.
Sometimes Matt wondered why he was best friends with those psychos but he couldn’t help but love them. He sighed and glanced at his watch and his eyes widened, “Shit! I’m gonna be late!”
As he bolted out the door, he heard Richard holler, “Use protection, Matty!” And he flipped him off.
You couldn’t stop the thrumming in your heart as you waited in the lobby. You tapped your toes on the ground and checked your phone to try to calm yourself down but it still didn’t seem real. Matt had asked you to lunch and half of you thought it was a dream you were more than excited to experience and the other half thought it was too good to be true.
Maybe I was just dreaming it all up. You thought as your heart sank but just as it had, it lifted and raced as you spotted the all too familiar face enter the lobby.
Several heads turned as they saw him and some folks who had gone to the convention gasped and squealed upon seeing him but once he spotted you, yours was the only face he saw. He dashed to you, bypassing the spectators nearby and that was when you realized you hadn’t dreamt it at all. It was a reality and you were about to live it and you didn’t know whether you were bursting from excitement or trembling from that nagging fear that you would mess it up.
“Y/N, hey. Sorry for being late.” Matt remarked, giving you a quick hug. “Rich and Rob kept me but hopefully you didn’t wait too long.”
You shook your head, “No I didn’t.”
Matt’s nervous expression turned to one of relief as he sighed with a grin, “That’s good. I would’ve hated it if I worried you.”
“Truthfully I’m surprised you remembered.” You admitted.
His eyes grew wide before he frowned, “And forget about you and our special day together? Keep dreaming, Y/N.” He paused for a moment before continuing. “Speaking of that, I made us a reservation in an hour so shall we go, m'lady?” He drawled in a fake British accent, holding his arm out.
You hooked your arm in his and nodded. He squeezed your arm against his as you both headed for the parking lot.
You were dreaming. You had to be. There was just no other explanation as to why Matt not only asked you to have lunch with him but followed through with his plans and took you to the quaintest restaurant you’d ever seen. It was like a little slice of Italy with pictures of olive groves and Tuscan villas decorating the walls and the sweet smell of garlic and tomatoes wafting through the air. They had the sweetest staff and you both wound up in a corner booth a ways away from the other customers.
“Any friend of Rob’s is a friend of ours.” The owner, a tiny Italian woman who looked like a grandma grinned at you as she took your orders.
“I’ll have the special.” Matt remarked before turning to you, “What would you like, sweetheart?”
You blushed at the nickname but Matt didn’t seem to notice the effect he had on you. Nevertheless, the waitress was awaiting the response and you didn’t want to keep her waiting. You glanced at the menu, hiding behind its pages before ordering the same thing and the woman left you both alone.
“I don’t think I said this yet but you look beautiful.” Matt grinned.
You almost thought it was his goal that day to make you blush constantly. You fiddled with your sleeves as heat rose into your cheeks, “You’re just saying that –”
“Trust me. I’m not. You really do look great today, Y/N.”
You ducked your head, feeling even warmer, “Thanks. You – you look great today too –not that you don’t look great everyday! Im sure you look amazing everyday – oh God, I’m digging myself in a hole aren’t I?”
Matt chuckled, amused. “I’m glad you think so, sweetheart.” He winked.
You were pretty sure your face was now officially on fire so you hid your face behind your hands. “I just need to shut up. I’m such an idiot.”
“Hey, no, Y/N.” Matt frowned, “Look at me.”
You shook you head and he sighed. “Y/N, please.” His voice grew serious and you peeked behind your hands for the briefest moment before relenting and letting them drop. Then you lifted your gaze and met his green orbs as he replied, “Thank you.”
You nodded, feeling your throat run dry as he continued. “You’re not an idiot, okay? I know we don’t know each other much but trust me when I say you aren’t. And for the record, I didn’t mind the rambling. I thought it was adorable.”
You flinched, reliving the words that made you feel humiliated. “Sorry about that…”
“You don’t have to apologize, you know, for anything. You didn’t do anything wrong.”
“But –”
He put his hand out and placed it over yours which easily shut you up. “Y/N, it’s okay. You have nothing to apologize for. Alright?”
Your throat seemed to swell and your eyes sting from the unshed tears that always seemed to appear at the drop of a hat. But Matt didn’t seem to mind. He tilted your chin up, allowing you to gaze once more at his handsome face. His eyes searched yours, awaiting a response so you nodded your head.
He beamed and his whole face lit up. “Well alright.”
Before you could say anything, the waitress returned, bringing over your plates of food. Upon seeing you both, she rushed with placing the plates in front of you before disappearing with a knowing wink. And just like that, you were blushing all over again.
“Man, Rob wasn’t kidding when he said this place was good.” Matt sighed, patting his belly as the both of you walked out of the restaurant.
You nodded, “I don’t think I can even eat dinner.”
“Tell me about it. I’m not even sure I could eat breakfast tomorrow, but do you know what sounds pretty good right now?” He asked and you shook your head. “A nice, cold pint. I could go for a pale ale or something to cool down after all that chow.”
You gestured in front of you. “I saw a bar a few blocks down if you wanna check it out.”
Matt’s eyes sparkled as he turned to you, “Only if you check it out with me.”
You wrinkled your nose in displeasure, “Okay, but… I’m not much of a beer person.”
“You’re kidding.” He deadpanned.
“It tastes like piss.”
He snorted, “Only if you haven’t tried the good stuff.” You didn’t look convinced and he smirked, “That’s fine. I’m up for the challenge. I’ll school you on good beer and in return, I’d like you to do something for me.”
“What’s that?”
“I want you to stop speaking so negatively about yourself.” He replied and though you opened your mouth to object, he continued. “I know it’s hard and I know you don’t want to do it, but it would make me really happy if you stopped criticizing yourself when you’re a strong and beautiful woman. Okay? So can you do it? Please? For me?” He batted his lashes at you and you turned to mush.
You bit your lip, wishing you could not only refuse him but stop yourself from turning scarlet again but it was as though your mouth betrayed your mind. “So you really think I’m strong?”
He nodded, “And beautiful.”
“… Fine.”
Matt grinned and his eyes twinkled with glee. “Perfect! And for every negative comment you say about yourself, you gotta find five things you like about yourself.”
Your eyes widened, “Hey! Wait a minute! I didn’t sign up for that!” You hollered but he was already bounding ahead of you, skipping like a child.
“You’re not gonna regret this! I promise.” He called out as you chased him into the bar.
