My Brother’s Garage 3, 2018 They say appearances can be deceiving. I think about that a lot. How things look to the outside world vs how they really are. How you can sometime, if you look really closely, see the cracks, or the mold, or the chipping paint. But you have to be looking. You have to have a reason to look closer. At a passing glance, everything always looks fine. He always seemed so happy they said.
6000x4000 Leica Q (Type 116), 28mm f/2.8 — My brother’s suicide. The Tōhoku earthquake. Seemingly unrelated events which had a significant impact on my life. Abrupt devastation. Unanswerable questions. Unfinished projects.
(Part of my new NFT collection on @withfoundation)
Water Tank, Fukushima Daiichi, 2017 Like most nuclear power plants Fukushima Daiichi uses water to keep the radioactive rods cool. After the earthquake in March 2011 radioactive water began leaking into the Pacific Ocean. Over the following years a number of different plans were developed and implemented in attempt to stop this leakage, including storing the radioactive water in giant tanks on the property. Eventually there was no more space for water tanks, and as of 2021 the current plan is to slowly release the water into the Pacific Ocean over the next 30 years.
Standing in front of this tank, where I took this photo, the radiation level was 5887 cpm, for comparison the radiation level in a normal uncontaminated environment is closer to 30 cpm.
6000x4000 Leica Q (Type 116), 28mm f/5 — My brother’s suicide. The Tōhoku earthquake. Seemingly unrelated events which had a significant impact on my life.
My Brother’s Garage 2, 2018 My brother was a mechanic. He fixed stuff. He’d go looking for broken and discarded things, take them apart, and build something new from their parts. He found a way to find beauty in the wreckage. From a distance, I thought he did that with his own life as well. I thought he was building something new from the wreckage. What he left behind told a different story. He had firmly embraced the wreckage and abandoned hope of ever rebuilding.
6000x4000 Leica Q (Type 116), 28mm f/2.8 — My brother’s suicide. The Tōhoku earthquake. Seemingly unrelated events which had a significant impact on my life.
Abrupt devastation. Unanswerable questions. Unfinished projects. (Part of my new NFT collection on @withfoundation)
I was curious what some of my shots would look like in black and white, so I e been working on resisting them, which I’ll be posting over the next few days. I’ve been quite happy with how some of them turned out.
“They who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night. In their grey visions they obtain glimpses of eternity, and thrill, in awaking, to find that they have been upon the verge of the great secret. In snatches, they learn something of the wisdom which is of good, and more of the mere knowledge which is of evil.” - Edgar Allan Poe
Girl with a pointy hood and white schoolbag at the curb, N.Y.C., 1957 - Diane Arbus
“We felt the imprisonment of being a girl, the way it made your mind active and dreamy, and how you ended up knowing which colors went together. We knew that the girls were our twins, that we all existed in space like animals with identical skins, and that they knew everything about us though we couldn’t fathom them at all. We knew, finally, that the girls were really women in disguise, that they understood love and even death, and that our job was merely to create the noise that seemed to fascinate them.” - Jeffrey Eugenides