#mortality
“If one is generously contracted 80 years, that amounts to 29,220 days on Earth. Playing that out, how many more times then, really, do I get to look at a tree? 12,395? There has to be an exact number. Let’s just say it is 12,395. Absolutely, that is a lot, but it is not infinite, and anything less than infinite seems too measly a number and is not satisfactory. Also, I would like to stare at my kids a few million more times. I could stare at them a few million more times easy. Tell me: How many more times do I get to cut an apple? How many more times will I put on my shoes? Kiss my mother? Use an ATM? How many more times do I get to toss the salad and ask How much longer ’til the chicken’s ready? as Jason pokes at it on the grill? How many more times do I get to lift my head from the pillow to see what time it is? Run inside after getting drenched in the rain? Look for the Ping-Pong ball? Check my email? Text <3 to the kids? Catch a whiff of jasmine? Use a straw?”
–Amy Krouse Rosenthal
boo. scared?
this is for you …i guess?
I wish I could write down everything.
I mean literally EVERYTHING.
Every little overwhelming feeling and every memory and every thought. I wish I could find the perfect words to describe that one person who tears your heart apart but in a good way.
I wish I could sum up the blood-curdling feeling that the passage and transience of time brings me. I wish I could capture it all just like I see it through my so very tired eyes. I wish I could stop. I wish I could go on forever.
Can pants be so tight that they cause blood clots, or back pain? Katie Heaney asks the most pressing questions in Are Skinny Jeans Going to Kill Me?
(Illustration: Chelsea Beck)
The tooth fairy leaves a coin under your pillow.
Grievers leave two coins on your eyes when you die.
These events are not unrelated.
She leaves a coin and takes a bone because she is your first reminder of your mortality.
She takes the first bones your body will lose and in exchange she gives you your first coins.
Like a child you lose them, or spend them - but they will return to you….
…in time.
Your body changes… ages… and your teeth -the only bones to have seen the world-
- taste it -
are your first reminder.
Childhood ends.
No matter how long you are a child.
Head 1 (7th series) - Oil on canvas, 20x20cm, 2022.
Dead golfer (World War IV series) - Ink on paper, 148x95mm, 2022.
Throwing heads at dead police - (World War IV series) - Ink on paper, 148x95mm, 2022.
Conjoined triple-mouth fucko-beast fighting itself for a piece thrown ham - Ink on paper, 148x100mm, 2022.
Man rips off clothes, ejects innards and turns into random cyclops on being told there are no Egg McMuffins left - Ink on paper, 148x100mm, 2022.
Desert crucifixion - Ink on paper, 148x100mm, 2022.
Falling man on fire 3 - Watercolour on paper, 148x105mm, 2022.
Study for figure on a bed series - Watercolour on paper, 150x150mm, 2022.
Diplomat - Ink on paper, 148x100mm, 2022.
Study for figure on a bed series - Watercolour on paper, 150x150mm, 2022.
Mr Cool - Ink on paper, 148x100mm, 2022.
Study for figure on a bed series - Watercolour on paper, 150x150mm, 2022.
Figure running with burning head (World War IV series) - Ink on paper, 148x95mm, 2022.
Figure Study 5 - Watercolour on paper, 297x210mm, 2022.