As the summer passed by, I lived lots of things during my favorite season of the year, I enjoyed my birthday as every year and I celebrated for almost 3 weeks. I lived different experiences and met different people. I suffered because of love, but I also moved on a little bit. I don’t want to explain each of the things I lived this summer but I will make a summary for me and for you:

- I rode a motorbike with a hot guy, he was very interesting and a proffesor from my university too.

- My ex-boyfriend left everything clear to me, it was a bit hard but I needed that kind of honesty, he wants to stay in Spain, he loves his life there and he is happy.

- I met a guy who gives me mixed signals, he fills all of my expectations but maybe we are just friends, I have the whole year to find out.

- University starts in 10 days, and this will be a hard semester.

Nothing changes after 5 years

After years and years of telling you my friend with benefits relationship is over and telling you it was fucked up, I have to tell you we are still on it.

Some part of me will always wonder what if? What if he could consider me as a girlfriend material? What if he finds another girl? What if I found a guy for me but I’m afraid to let him go?

I dont want to loose him, but after so many years (since 2013 to be exact) would the relationship last more? Are we going to keep this forever? When is it going to stop? But, what if I dont want it to end?