I just spent an hour and a half talking out loud to my paras about the show Masterchef. I think my lack of social interaction is slowly driving me insane.
no fr i do this way too often one time i had a conversation with my paras about american history that was fairly long
I have almost a 100 main paras (depending on what you’re counting as a “main para”) (also not counting fictparas). Can’t remember my parent’s birthdays but I can remember the names of almost all of them so that’s cool✌️
@fallingmaddlyinlove I just saw your comment and I don’t know I was thinking of some names for my newest one only to realize I have like way too many. I have like ¾ different paracosms with more than 10 paras it’s out of control TvT
omg damnn that’s so cool tho ur lucky. i could never lol i have like 40 max
Bored so take my song analysis and then it’s link to Casper
Never in the Middle is one of my favourite Teflon Sega songs along with Paralyzed and Damage because it accurately describes the impossible balance between loving someone and protecting yourself.
The first lines that stick out on the side of loving someone is this:
Like a moth to the flame, I got money on my brain, if you ain’t with us, you against us get the fuck out of the way
These few lines can easily describe the deep sense of loyalty that comes from falling in love, you blindly follow them and even turn against your friends if they dont see eye to eye. But with “money on my brain”, I see this as more of an idea that there is something you want from this relationship whether its protection, intimacy or security. It’s subconsciously on your mind as you chase after the person and this creates a desired image of them that you fall in love with rather than the person itself.
Meter’s red on the dash, foot to the pedal on the gas, on this road in my zone
When you’ve fallen hard for someone and perhaps they’ve fallen for you as well, you enter a full on euphoric stage of a relationship where all good traits outweigh the bad traits, the car’s current speed outweighs the high risk of crashing because being ‘in the zone’ is so thrilling. Being in love is described as having the same effects a drug has with an example being less pain, you’d be willing to take the risks to chase those intense feelings of love and even crashing at this point would only add to the fun.
But these only describe the side of loving someone, what about the other side?
I pull the knife from my back, cause I know it ain’t going to be the last, all the snakes in the grass and poison in my glass
A dim view on life that serves to remind you of human behaviour in order to protect yourself from the nasty shock that comes from someone taking advantage when you’re emotionally vulnerable. You don’t take anyone at face value because of the face value being a trap waiting for you walk in. There’s no initial trust, your walls are up and you’re ready for the next letdown. It leaves you distant and either skeptical or maybe apathetic of what happens next.
Real so rare and everyone fake, rebuild bonds that I ain’t break, the less I care the more at stake
Becoming uncaring leads to your relationships being at stake, the idea that everyone’s fake remaining in your head can cause you to refuse to hold up some of the qualities that add towards maintaining a good relationship with trust, reciprocity and vulnerability with each other. However this could come from a place of having to constantly keep up relationships with those who didn’t care either, the behaviour is mirrored as a way of protection.
There is a depiction of both sides of the scale and ultimately leads to the conclusion of the chorus
My heart gives a lot or a little, but never in the middle baby never in the middle, and nights like this, emotions running triple, no good vibes only goodbyes and I can’t love you in the middle
Having something balanced between being vulnerable and keeping yourself away from being hurt is in my eyes, impossible and you know which para thinks this too?
CASPER VERLICE!
He’s observed human behaviour and has the negative view on everything to go with it. His true emotions are locked away and the key is in the fiery pits of hell however what happens when someone makes the trek, finds that fucking key and frees them?
You get one mindfucked guy.
He wants to be open, but he can’t stand the possibility of getting hurt being so up in the air. He wants that balance between the two desperately but deep down knows he has to make that decision of remaining protected on the outside or being in that fast car and taking the risk.
But no one’s found that damn key so instead of healthily dealing with his emotions, you get an asshole.
Casper’s a known chaser for the euphoric stage of relationships, because the foundation of the relationship being built on fun, thrilling times is something he can deal with but settling down and actually showing all sides of yourself to the other person freaks him out so he leaves and finds someone else to restart to cycle.
He can’t empathise with the feeling after breakups because he doesn’t get attached enough, he can fake his feelings to seem in love but he’s never truly felt it. When he leaves or someone else does, he just finds someone else, he can very much be the person stabbing you in the back, being the snake in the grass or poisoning your glass.
But that doesn’t mean he doesn’t get lonely, there are times he’s felt bad for what he does. There’s only so much he can repress his emotions before they start playing jailbreak in his prison, and when those emotions finally show themselves. He does wish there was someone he could be vulnerable with and he becomes very conflicted on his own behaviour. (Self awareness is a BITCH)
Overall the song can very heavily be linked to him, Casper is a very interesting para and looking more into him is like looking more into my own issues honestly.
Weiss went through several moments of learning how to trust others with the perception and acceptance of his body, particularly in how suffering and life/death experience marked it.
