#recovery warriors
Hello dearest readers!
I completely realize that I have vanished (almost) without a trace for a good few months now and I feel terrible about BUT there are a few not so tiny reasons for it:
- I ended a 3+ year relationship with my fiancee about 5 months ago and moved out into a new place with my brother and his girlfriend. This has been quite the wild ride and definitely something I was sure would be the end of the world for me BUT what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger and I’ll write a whole post just on this later (if any of you are interested to find out how that all went down and how I dealt with the fallout without snapping or falling apart.)
- I got promoted twice at work which meant - you guessed it - TWICE the work! So ramping up with that (and it’s a pseudo-management role) has definitely taken it’s mental toll on me and tossed my sleep schedules way off whack. Lack of sleep = lack of motivation and energy for extracurricular things (like blogging) so thus the dry spell (pardon my French!)
- I came to the realization that I’m actually in what ‘they’ (whoever THEY are) call “partial-recovery” and this is something I seriously needed to come to terms with in order to continue helping you lovely folks and giving advice that I myself was 100% taking. This is one that I’m STILL working through and I’ll write an in-depth post on Partial Recovery and where I’m at with that, what it means and how I’m re-planning my approach to not only my own recovery but to supporting all you warriors that brave struggles of your own every day.
Hopefully, given that those are some pretty solid reasons for taking a brief (OK - not so brief) hiatus, you can forgive my lack of motivating posts and rest articles but I pledge to from this day forth (or the wrath of *insert worst super villain here* shall be bestowed upon me) that I will commit to not only answering your guys’ recovery questions once again but I’ll be following this posting schedule and coming out with new recovery articles weekly!
MY NEW POSTING SCHEDULE
1 New Article / week: Posted to your delicious feeds (no pun intended) every Sunday at 9:30pm EST.
1 New Inspiring Quote / week: Tossed atcha every Wednesday evening at 9:30pm EST
1 Weekly photo-feed: Where I’ll share some fav snaps of my life / recovery practices etc every Saturday at 9:30 pm EST.
I’m setting ⏰ 27 reminders ⏰ as we speak and I won’t disappear on you guys again! Anyways, hopefully you’re all doing amazingly great and practiced self-love and mindfulness over the holidays because that’s SO important. I know ED doesn’t make the holiday season easy so I hope you guys were able to make the best of it and get that annoying little voice to shut up for at least a ew minutes every day as you celebrated whatever it is that your family celebrates around this time of year. :)
Cheers, happy weekend and hugs to all you guys!
XOX
K
Having chronic suicidal thoughts is hard. Really hard. And really scary. It’s one thing to get close to hurting yourself once, but some of us have to do it again and again. What if one time our will fails?
Despite it all, there IS a silver lining. I now know I can get through anything. I mean anything. I have survived my brain yelling at me to kill myself time and time again. I made it this far. There’s not a damn thing that can stop me.
I will endure pain, grief, panic, uncertainty as we all do. It’ll suck, as it always does. But I KNOW I’ll come out the other side. Because to me, nothing can be scarier than chronic intrusive suicidal thoughts. Life can’t throw anything at me that my brain hasn’t already tried to destroy me with.
I mean maybe I’m just like really well medicated for mood disorders rn but I am footloose and fancy free and ready to absolutely fuckin savor this life I fought so hard for.
