Hello dearest readers!

I completely realize that I have vanished (almost) without a trace for a good few months now and I feel terrible about BUT there are a few not so tiny reasons for it:

1. I ended a 3+ year relationship with my fiancee about 5 months ago and moved out into a new place with my brother and his girlfriend. This has been quite the wild ride and definitely something I was sure would be the end of the world for me BUT what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger and I’ll write a whole post just on this later (if any of you are interested to find out how that all went down and how I dealt with the fallout without snapping or falling apart.)
   
   
2. I got promoted twice at work which meant - you guessed it - TWICE the work! So ramping up with that (and it’s a pseudo-management role) has definitely taken it’s mental toll on me and tossed my sleep schedules way off whack. Lack of sleep = lack of motivation and energy for extracurricular things (like blogging) so thus the dry spell (pardon my French!)
   
   
3. I came to the realization that I’m actually in what ‘they’ (whoever THEY are) call “partial-recovery” and this is something I seriously needed to come to terms with in order to continue helping you lovely folks and giving advice that I myself was 100% taking. This is one that I’m STILL working through and I’ll write an in-depth post on Partial Recovery and where I’m at with that, what it means and how I’m re-planning my approach to not only my own recovery but to supporting all you warriors that brave struggles of your own every day.

Hopefully, given that those are some pretty solid reasons for taking a brief (OK - not so brief) hiatus, you can forgive my lack of motivating posts and rest articles but I pledge to from this day forth (or the wrath of *insert worst super villain here* shall be bestowed upon me) that I will commit to not only answering your guys’ recovery questions once again but I’ll be following this posting schedule and coming out with new recovery articles weekly!

MY NEW POSTING SCHEDULE  

1 New Article / week: Posted to your delicious feeds (no pun intended) every Sunday at 9:30pm EST.

1 New Inspiring Quote / week: Tossed atcha every Wednesday evening at 9:30pm EST

1 Weekly photo-feed: Where I’ll share some fav snaps of my life / recovery practices etc every Saturday at 9:30 pm EST.

I’m setting ⏰ 27 reminders ⏰ as we speak and I won’t disappear on you guys again! Anyways, hopefully you’re all doing amazingly great and practiced self-love and mindfulness over the holidays because that’s SO important. I know ED doesn’t make the holiday season easy so I hope you guys were able to make the best of it and get that annoying little voice to shut up for at least a ew minutes every day as you celebrated whatever it is that your family celebrates around this time of year. :)

Cheers, happy weekend and hugs to all you guys!

XOX 

K

Reblog this with human things you find beautiful

• When people smile so wide, creases appear on their face. It’s like they’re so happy that they can’t keep it in

• Tanlines and age spots and freckles and scars and stretch marks and acne. Chapped lips, bleary eyes, broken nails, split ends. Anything that marks us as human and vulnerable and brave.

• h a n d s

• A stomach that has lots of rolls or none at all!!!!! It makes me so happy to think that that’s the place where your favourite foods are!!!!!!

It’s 2020, it’s time to stop putting so much importance and value on physical beauty. What is beauty, anyway? Everyone has a different definition of it. Stop judging others and stop judging yourself for their beauty not fitting into your version of it.

WE are beautiful and WE are radiant and no I don’t accept criticism

Mindfulness, Recovery, and Saying “Fuck It, Why Not?”

I started this blog in 2012, maybe 2013, and was very much in the depths of my eating disorder. I started it because I was angry: at my anorexia, everything it had stolen from me, and a little bit at my treatment program (they encouraged me to weigh myself weekly, log it, and do things like weigh butter and whatnot… it felt somewhat counterintuitive).

I was 15-17 when I was posting here most often (wow, a lifetime ago). I hope it was helpful - most of all I just wanted to help others feel less alone.

This blog has been very much neglected for years and years, because quite frankly I’d simply grown out of it. I’m now (almost) 26. Life is mostly actually really good, and I am so glad every day that I fought back against my ED and pushed through. It’s so, so worth it, I promise!

I have been thinking about ‘recovery’ a lot recently, and what it has meant to me. Something that I thought might be helpful to share is that (I have found that) it’s okay for eating-disordered thoughts to still be there even when you consider yourself ‘recovered’. What matters is how you deal with those thoughts. 

We cannot control thoughts: they simply come. Recovery, for me, has meant learning to let those thoughts pass, as if they were simply clouds in the sky, and not acting on them, fighting them, giving them any attention really. That would make them ‘real’. Out-thinking your brain is very difficult: this is something I have learned in my 3-year long battle with health anxiety! 

The above paragraph is very much a ‘mindfulness’ thing, and much more suited for those of us coasting along in the latter phases of recovery. If you are just starting on your eating disorder recovery journey, it’s a different process. You must, of course, fight back against the thoughts.

What I found helpful at that time was essentially just, at times of particular panic, telling my eating disorder to “fuck off”. Or, to put it more eloquently: “fuck it, what have I got to lose by trying this ‘recovery’ thing people are telling me about?” I had just read a book called ‘Fuck It: The Ultimate Spiritual Way’ by John Parkin and teenage me absolutely loved it. I won’t recommend it for all aspects of life (driving, financial matters!) but for the time, it was perfect. 

Harder than it sounds here, of course. But the principle was helpful.

(Anyway, hence the name for this blog all those years ago.)

If you are still on Tumblr and followed this blog years ago (or recently!), I hope you are doing well today. I hope the weather is nice where you are, and I hope you are thriving.

I will start posting recovery content again - not just specific to eating disorders, but aiming to create a generally positive mental health space. 

 Kate 

NEDAW – My eating disorder destroyed more than just my body!

This National Eating Disorder Awareness Week I’d like to focus on the damage my eating disorder has done to my entire life – rather than just the physical affects.  Although the damage I have done to my body I will have to live with forever, for me that wasn’t the worst thing about this illness. My eating disorder took control of more than just my eating – it controlled my entire life! Every…

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Here’s to 2016!!!

I’m a little late to the New Years resolution party (stupid work) but this year I’ve decided not to really make one.  Last year I decided that 2015 would be the year of recovery. I was no longer going to be a slave to my anorexia and so I made the changes necessary; I may not be completely recovered but I’m so much closer than I’ve ever been before. 2015 was definitely the year of my recovery! …

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lousydrawingsforgoodpeople:

heavyweightheart:

food that’s totally devoid of nutritional value doesn’t exist. all food has macronutrients which our bodies rely on to support life, and the vast majority of food has a significant amount of micronutrients. pop tarts, cheeseburgers, french fries, pizza, cookies, chips, white flour products and other demonized foods contain vital micronutrients such as iron, calcium, magnesium, potassium, b vitamins, vitamin c, and more. meat is a better source of some essential micronutrients than plant foods. 

vegetables and fruits are great, as are legumes, but they’re not the only nutrient-dense foods. they tend to be lower calorie & higher fiber foods, tho, which in conditions of scarcity (the reality for many ppl on earth, incl the ~developed world~) are far less efficient delivery systems for nutrients.

“empty calories” aren’t a thing - calories are units of energy - and you’d have to work pretty hard to find a food that contained no significant amount of any micronutrient. again, all foods have the macronutrients that keep us alive.

kindly get off my posts about the health benefits of eating foods you enjoy w this shaming nonsense about “foods that have no nutritional value”. i’m sorry your relationship w food is characterized by fear & a mistrust of pleasure, but we’re not here to keep you company in your misery