What Sebastian Stan wore at the 2022 edition of the Met Gala is not exactly what I expected for a Gilded Age themed event. Let’s say I had in mind something closer to the artworks above but that’s just me (I’m happy he had fun in his pink outfit that night, though )
synopsis: telling a nervous Bucky you’re pregnant and reassuring him he will be an incredible father and there’s no one else you’d rather go through parenthood with.
warnings: conversation about PTSD, my shitty writing :), but mainly fluff, Bucky being a nervous dad, Bucky deserving better-
Your eyes brimmed with tears.
It was happening. You were going to be a mother. You were so incredibly happy and shocked, and god overwhelmed.
Tears started pouring out of your eyes, you couldn’t help it. Out of instinct you pulled your knees up to your chest on the ground where you sat burying your head in your knees.
That’s when the door creaked open, “hey doll, I was just goi- y/n?” You heard your loves tone shift from informative and natural instantly to concern as he rushed up to you his eyes full of concern.
You looked up to see him there. Those electric blue eyes staring into your e/c ones as a small smile was revealed on your face.
“What happened, doll?” He asked in a small voice, now kneeled down in front of you.
Your hand drifted up to his cheek as your thumb grazed his cheek your eyes traveling over his face as you shook your head in disbelief.
“Bucky… we- were going to be p-parents.” You choked out, holding up the test.
Bucky’s eyes widened grabbing the test in shock. “Are you- are you serious?” His voice small as tears brimmed his eyes.
You let out a choked laugh and nodded with a smile, “yes baby. You’re going to be a dad.” Bucky looked taken aback at that, so much so that he sat back— no longer on his knees.
“Y/N…” he mumbled softly, tears pooling in his blue eyes. “I know,” you spoke as you began to move towards him. It had become a common occurnace over Buckys lifetime for the events that took place at HYDRA to haunt him. But they especially did in his relationship with you, as much as he wished it not to. He was hesitant to get into a relationship not wanting to burden you with his horrors and his difficulties, he was hesitant to this day in bed with you, scared to be too rough with you. He always wanted to ensure your safety.
He felt like you being with him put you at risk. But you didn’t care, it was worth it with him.
He had a beautiful heart, that was burned and broken far too many times. He was kind but had been used. He was strong but had many battle scars. He deserved love but didn’t want to accept it. It’s a good thing you’re stubborn.
You have loved Bucky because through all of the pain and suffering he’s been through, he still manages to smile, to laugh, to give love even though he’s been used so many times.
Bucky Barnes was incredible, even if he didn’t know it.
But that didn’t mean his demons didn’t still keep him up at night.
“I know…” you mumbled, you placed both your hands on his cheeks to have him face you. Your thumb grazed his cheek wiping a tear that escaped his eye.
“Tell me,” you had said.
It was simple but you knew what it meant to Bucky. To have someone listen, care— to treat him as though he did matter. Which to you, he did.
“I… I made a promise,” he started as his eyes drifted from the floor to yours again as he continued, “A long time ago. That I would never put someone through the pain of dealing with my problems. The burden of my trauma. I was so hesitant to express my feelings for you because I thought that if you learned to deal with me, to love me… it would put a damper on your light. Like I would permanently damage your brightness and positivity… taking my pain and placing it on you-“ he spoke each word exposing the residue of the pain and damage HYDRA had done to him but you cut him off.
“And have you?”
“What?”
“Put a damper on my light— infect me with this darkness you keep claiming you have within you? Because I don’t think you have. In fact, I didn’t know happiness like I know happiness now before being with you. Do you think I’ve changed?”
“No.” He choked out. “You’re perfect.”
“So why are you so scared, buck? If you changed me at all, it’s for better!”
“Because what if I’m a bad dad? What if my problems affect our kids childhood? What if I hurt our baby? How could I ever come back from that. I would never forgive myself if I let my trauma affect how I raise this kid… but y/n what if it does? I would lose my mind if I hurt you or our baby.”
“Bucky. I have been in love with you for three years and I’ve called you mine for one of them. Throughout those three years I’ve never once known pain caused by you or pain nonetheless.
Why? Because you have shielded me from it. Im not saying you can do the same for a whole other human. But I don’t know if I’ll be able to either. All of that shit that hydra did to you… you went through that hell alone and made it out and still became the man that I’m proud to say I’m so in love with.
If you can do that alone? You can do parenthood with me bucky. And whenever you feel like you can’t just remember you have the most stubborn headstrong girl on all of planet earth wrapped around your finger. You are a light I cannot begin to describe, Bucky. You are an incredible man who will be an incredible father whom I would love to raise a baby girl with. Okay?” You spoke reassuringly to him. Your hands still on his cheeks making sure he took in every word.
His eyes followed your features a small smile breaking out on his face as he pulled you in for a passionate kiss.
You smiled into the kiss as he mumbled into it, “I love you so much y/n y/l/n.”
You knew Bucky still was pained and had his doubt but right now was about celebrating.
You smiled as he stood up pulling you up with him as he pulled you into a kiss your arms wrapped around his neck as he placed his hand on your leg.
You jumped up wrapping your legs around his waist as he placed his metal arm under your thigh for support as he carried you over to your bed placing you down gently on it as he climbed on top of you pushing the hair out of your face.
“Careful!” You shouted giggling, “don’t hurt the baby.”
Bucky just smiled in response, “I’m so lucky.”
“As am I.” Smiling up at him. I’ll love you for infinity, James Buchanan Barnes.” You spoke leaning up to plant a soft kiss on his lips to which he pulled back from a determined look on his face.
“How do you feel about naming our daughter infinity?” He asked causing you to laugh.
“I love you for many other reasons but coming up with names is not one of them. Now kiss me you idiot.” You spoke causing him to laugh as he leaned down to kiss you again.
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Bonus:
You and Bucky had planned to keep your pregnancy a secret from the avengers seeing as things could go worth and you just wanted to make sure (and avoid Tony’s teasing for as long as you could)
So as you attended a brunch with all of them, you had intended to keep it a secret.
That was until Bucky began to pour you champagne— momentarily forgetting at the table you were keeping it a secret and you couldn’t drink.
“Bucky!” You mumbled to him angrily.
“The baby.” You whispered which ended up not coming out as a whisper at all considering most of them had enhanced senses…
Peter had choked on his water.
Wanda gasped.
Bruce gaped, “did you say baby?”
You glanced up at Bucky, oops.
“Um, yeah. We intended to keep it a secret but, yes, I’m pregnant!” You confirmed not being able to hide a smile which Bucky already had on his face.
Thor laughed, “congrats there, soldier,”
Natasha’s eyes had just went wide as she smiled widely in delight.
Steve just started smiling cheekily, “seriously man, that’s great!” He spoke patting Buckys’ shoulder.
“Ey, great job on that one winter soldier. Not so great at pulling out, huh?” Tony teased.
The rest just either gaped or smiled at the pair.
“Nice going.” You mumbled, maybe this wasn’t going to be so easy.
If anyone wants to help get the news to Sebastian of how much he’s helped me in the last year in multiple ways (mainly my mental health but obviously now my YouTube channel), it would be much appreciated. After 8 years of having stagnant growth on YouTube, my SebCon vlog gave me the jumpstart I needed to start growing. Thank you to those who have already seen the video, thank you to Sebastian and Fandemic for creating such a wonderful event last Thursday, and thank you to the YeeHaw Energy™️.
