➳a/n:this chapter just makes me squeal. WE ALSO FIND OUT THE TWINS NAMES. i gave them so much thought, and i felt like the two i chose were utterly sweet . enjoy! :) also domestic Bucky is my favorite Bucky.
➳summary: When you experience the most intense night of the summer alongside Bucky, who you nickname Steel Blue, you weren’t expecting to fall pregnant. When a positive pregnancy test meets your eyes a few days before school starts, you know it belongs to the man who you’d never see again. Until you walk into your Romanian Linguistics class and he’s your professor.
➳pairing: Professor!Bucky Barnes x Female!Reader
➳warnings:unprotected sex, unplanned pregnancy, slight age-gap, smut throughout book, angst
➳ dedicated to my beautiful best friend pitifulbaby
As the month continued to pass by, you were now settled into October.Midterms were up, you were slowly preparing for the babies’ arrival in February, Millie was helping you with nursery themes, and somehow Bucky and Nikki became best friends despite being polar opposites of each other.
➳a/n:this chapter just makes me squeal. WE ALSO FIND OUT THE TWINS NAMES. i gave them so much thought, and i felt like the two i chose were utterly sweet . enjoy! :) also domestic Bucky is my favorite Bucky.
➳summary: When you experience the most intense night of the summer alongside Bucky, who you nickname Steel Blue, you weren’t expecting to fall pregnant. When a positive pregnancy test meets your eyes a few days before school starts, you know it belongs to the man who you’d never see again. Until you walk into your Romanian Linguistics class and he’s your professor.
➳pairing: Professor!Bucky Barnes x Female!Reader
➳warnings:unprotected sex, unplanned pregnancy, slight age-gap, smut throughout book, angst
➳ dedicated to my beautiful best friend pitifulbaby
As the month continued to pass by, you were now settled into October.Midterms were up, you were slowly preparing for the babies’ arrival in February, Millie was helping you with nursery themes, and somehow Bucky and Nikki became best friends despite being polar opposites of each other.
➳a/n:this chapter just makes me squeal. WE ALSO FIND OUT THE TWINS NAMES. i gave them so much thought, and i felt like the two i chose were utterly sweet . enjoy! :) also domestic Bucky is my favorite Bucky.
➳summary: When you experience the most intense night of the summer alongside Bucky, who you nickname Steel Blue, you weren’t expecting to fall pregnant. When a positive pregnancy test meets your eyes a few days before school starts, you know it belongs to the man who you’d never see again. Until you walk into your Romanian Linguistics class and he’s your professor.
➳pairing: Professor!Bucky Barnes x Female!Reader
➳warnings:unprotected sex, unplanned pregnancy, slight age-gap, smut throughout book, angst
➳ dedicated to my beautiful best friend pitifulbaby
As the month continued to pass by, you were now settled into October.Midterms were up, you were slowly preparing for the babies’ arrival in February, Millie was helping you with nursery themes, and somehow Bucky and Nikki became best friends despite being polar opposites of each other.
Opting for baggier clothes to at least try and seclude your growing bump, it was getting harder. Students were beginning to stop and stare, Bucky consciously paying attention to the room’s shifting. He would give you gentle gazes and darling smiles to help push you through to the end of each lecture before he’d finally wrap his arms around you when the classroom had emptied.
“Alright, remember! Our midterm is on Wednesday.As long as you answer the questions in the study guide and practice, all of you will be fine. Don’t hesitate to ask any questions, either. I’m here to watch you succeed.”Bucky informed the students as everyone began to pack up their belongings.
Once the room had cleared except for Millie who was checking her phone, she turned her eyes over to you. “Nikki’s waiting for me out front. Have fun house-searching!” She exclaimed. She lowered her head to press a quick kiss to your belly before hitting Bucky on the arm and leaving.
He greeted you with a wide grin, those gorgeous steel-blue eyes casting into yours. “Come here, mama,” He said, walking forward to wrap his hands through yours. You erupted into a quiet giggle as Bucky pulled you close, your bump pressing to his well-defined abdomen. He sighed, reaching his hands forward to wrap around your stomach.
“Not going to lie, I miss being able to hold you close,” He chuckled, making you smile.
“Well,your children are wreaking havoc in the womb right now. I swear one of them is bouncing on my bladder,” You sighed heavily. “And hey! We can still touch… I’m not that big yet.” You growled, earning Bucky to smile, and leaned forward to peck your lips.
“I know, I know… I’m just teasing. Are you ready to go look at these houses? The realtor just texted me.” He questioned.
Your heart flooded with warmth. “I can’t believe this… We’re actually getting our own house together.” You breathed out, gently biting at the skin on your lip. Bucky hugged you as close as he could.
“It’s surreal, I know… But I can’t wait to start this journey with you.” He whispered, kissing your ear. “And just think… Whatever house we do decide on? I’ll get to have sex with you in every single room, just to break it in and really make it ours.”
“Bucky!” You exclaimed, swatting his shoulder. “It only took one night in a hotel to make this happen… Be careful.” You reminded him, eyes narrowed.
Bucky beamed with another laugh before grabbing his keys off the desk and leading you out of the classroom. As you two walked down the halls and hopped on the elevator to take you to the bottom floor, you leaned your head on his shoulder. Life had become so much different since Sharon disappeared.
The last you saw of her, she was being handcuffed and thrown into the back of a cop car while Millie was essentially let off the hook for beating Sharon to a bloody pulp with a baseball bat. Your and Bucky’s relationship only seemed to strengthen and it gave you both ample time to focus on one another plus the idea that you would be parents sooner rather than later.
The car ride to the first house was filled with you and Bucky exchanging words back and forth about what you were both looking for in homes; family homes. When you arrived to the first listing, your eyes widened. It was beautiful.A two story brick home with a fenced in backyard. Flowers dotted the outside area with a well-manicured lawn, bringing you to gasp.
“Wow, this is stunning,”Bucky admitted with a smile, wrapping his hand through yours. The two of you exited the car and were greeted by the realtor, a friendly woman by the name of Denise. She grinned at the two of you, a folder in hand with some of the property’s biggest hits.
“Bucky, Y/N! What a pleasure to see you both,” Denise grinned as she shook both your hands before her eyes settled on your swollen belly. “Wow, I think you’ve grown since I saw you last week!” She exclaimed, bringing you to smile sheepishly.
As she led you inside, your eyes were captivated by the large front entryway. It was decked with cherrywood floors and the space was huge.
“This home is four bedrooms and two baths… It also has a fenced-in swimming pool in the back. Bucky, since you’re a professor, there is also an in-home office for you.” She explained. You could hardly listen, your excitement was bubbling when you walked into the spacious kitchen that looked out into the living room. The bar was set up with a huge chandelier hanging overhead, the countertops were a fine marble. The color scheme was simplistic, but with pops of color being introduced on the cabinet doors. There was a huge pantry with a sliding barndoor that you were obsessed with, Bucky quickly noticing how you gravitated.
Bucky fell in love with the in-home office. He could already see himself settling in and getting classwork done or maybe he visualized you seated on his lap for a round of fun while he sent his stressors away. He could envision house parties here with Steve, Sam, Millie, and Nikki. He saw the potential in the home and already, this was both of your favorites on the list.
The bedrooms were huge, with a grand master easily decided to be your and Bucky’s if you opted for this home. The bathroom seemed even bigger with a tub big enough to fix three. His and hers vanities were colored in a dark grey paint with marble countertops that had flicks of silver.
Another room was seen, this one quickly being envisioned to be the twins’ nursery. You could already see you and Bucky painting the walls different colors and theming it to whatever you had come up with. Tears welled in your eyes as you passed throughout the other areas until you were finally taken onto the balcony that was attached to the master bedroom. Large french doors opened up to a well-manicured backyard with a swimming pool in the very center that was fenced around with a slide attached.
“I can already see myself having coffee out here every morning,” You whispered, hanging onto the railing of the balcony. Bucky smiled, leaning forward to kiss your cheek as he wrapped an arm around you. Denise had left the two of you alone to explore the home for yourselves after she listed the other pros such as the best school in the district wasn’t but two miles away. Recreational activities for the kids were on every corner, along with it being in close proximity to the college for Bucky.
“Doll, I’m already in love with it, and this was only the first house.” Bucky laughed, kissing your neck as he wrapped his arms around your waist. He rested his two large palms on your belly and gave it a subtle stroke, feeling light taps of feet kicking against his hands. “And I think the twins agree.” He added with a gentle, heartfelt smile.
Giggling quietly, you couldn’t believe this was happening.
“Let’s check out the pool then head to the next one?” You suggested, Bucky agreeing. When you made it down to the backyard and you saw how large it was upon stepping out of the two french doors leading toward it, you had to cover your mouth to withhold the threatening gasps. Denise already knew that sound meant you were hooked.
“Should I even show you two the other three homes?” She laughed, bringing you and Bucky to share a look.
“I think it’s a good idea, yeah,” Bucky answered. “Just so we know.Right, Doll?”
“LOOK AT THE SWING! THEY HAVE A BACKYARD SWING!” You exclaimed from somewhere out in the open. Bucky’s eyes lifted when he saw you seated on the wooden swing, kicking your legs back and forth as you giggled like a teenager. Bucky broke out into a wide grin.
When Denise showed you two the other three homes, immediately none of them compared to the one with the pool and in-home office. As the day drew to a close, Denise was already preparing an offer on the first home.
“Decision has been made? The two-story home on Carter Avenue?” She asked for clarification. You and Bucky held each other’s hand, both of you grinning from ear to ear.
“That’s the one,” You smiled, already seeing yourself in the future. You envisioned the pitter-patter of toddler feet racing down the halls while you and Bucky chased in behind them, until they would turn into elementary, then middle, even high school teenagers. It swelled your heart and made your world spin quickly, causing you to leane further into Bucky for support.
“Alright, let’s get an offer together and I’ll send it over to the owners.” She smiled in satisfaction.
As you both left with your hopes lifted that this very house would be yours soon, Bucky and you sat in the car for a few moments of sweet silence. You both looked up at the home, your smile erupting.
“I can’t believe this… We’re actually looking to buy a house together.” You expressed with a bright smile. Bucky laughed, reaching a hand over to wrap it around your thigh.
“I know… I can’t wait to do this with you,” He said, his eyes casting into yours. You slowly turned your head to face him, not helping but to lean over the best you could in order to give him a kiss.
You felt a few more kicks swell in your belly, making you gasp. They were much harder than before and you giggled, hurrying to grab Bucky’s hand. You rested it on your side and his eyes widened as he felt them for himself.
“You guys are excited too, aren’t you?” Bucky asked in a sweet voice.
Soon, the two of you were back at Bucky’s shared home with Steve and Sam. The two had gone out for the night while Millie opted to spend the night at Nikki’s, giving you and Bucky some privacy… And that meant the two of you were sprawled out in bed together, binge-watching a series while Bucky graded last-minute papers.
Once he wrapped up and joined you for cuddles, you licked your lips. “Bucky, what are we going to name them?” You asked.
“I thought they’re being named Razzle and Dazzle Barnes?” He laughed, referencing Millie. You slapped his shoulder playfully, rolling your eyes as you tossed back a chip.
“I’m being serious!” You smiled. “I’m due Febuary 25th, but honestly, twins normally don’t make it to 40 weeks… And even though it seems like we have time - we really don’t. I’d like to start calling them by their name… Even if they don’t understand it yet.” You laughed.
Bucky nodded his head in agreement. “What were you thinking? Twins usually have rhyming names or the same letter.”
You bit down on your lip. “But do we really want to go traditional?”You asked.
Bucky shok his head. “No, these kids are different from others. So, they deserve two different names… How about we compromise. You name one baby, I’ll name the other?” He suggested.
You smiled excitedly. “You name the girl, I’ll name the boy?” You raised your eyebrows.
Bucky wrapped his arm around you. “I was hoping you’d let me name her… Because I already had a name in mind.”
Your eyes widened. “Really? Because I already have a boy’s name in mind…”
Bucky moved to sit up, taking this moment seriously. “You go first.” He ushered.
He helped you to sit up. You swallowed the lump that threatened to form. You had the name picked out since you were younger and you hoped Bucky would appreciate it. The first name was easy, and now that you knew Bucky, you wanted to honor him.
“Lucas Buchanan,” You answered. “And we can call him Luke for short.”
Bucky’s eyes widened. “You… You want to give him my middle name?” He asked, his eyes suddenly blurring. You nodded and that’s when you felt him pull you into his lap, his arms wrapping around you.
“Lucas Buchanan Barnes… I love that,” He laughed, kissing you passionately. You smiled widely, thankful and relieved that he approved.
“Alright! Tell me what you have for a girl,” You grinned excitedly.
Bucky smiled. “I’ve given it a lot of thought.. I have a feeling you’ll certainly be up for it, but I was just thinking of how one person in our lives has helped us so much. After all… I wouldn’t have found out you were pregnant without her telling me…”
Your eyes started to widen.
Bucky inhaled.
“I want to name our daughter after the best…Eliza Millie,”He announced
“Bucky,”You gasped, covering your mouth. It was your turn for tears to well up. He held you closer, his lips pressing against yours as you held his cheeks.
“Luke and Eliza,” You whispered. “I think they’re perfect.”
Bucky grinned. “Just like the woman carrying them,” He winked, making your cheeks heat up.
Before you realized it, the two of you found yourselves tucked away beneath the sheets, your hands roaming across one another freely. You were basking in the glow of Bucky,never having been more thankful for somebody in your life. Everything was beginning to make sense now.
A/N: I am combining the three requests below the cut into one fic so hopefully it covers everything ❤️
Summary: A lot can happen in a year, from one cookout to the next you see just how far you and Bucky have come. Warnings: 18+ only, fluff, anxiety WC: 1.8k
Sunlight streamed through Bucky’s window and you wondered how he ever slept when he never closed the curtains. Rolling over so your eyes weren’t directly assaulted by a ray of light, you felt the blanket catch on your hand and looked down to where it rested on Bucky’s stomach. Memories came back to you, Bucky’s promise that he was done running from his problems and ready to face the future with you, right before he slid your wedding ring back on your finger.
“You’re not getting cold feet are you?” Bucky asked, his voice deep with the remnants of sleep.
“Not a chance.” You promised as you tilted your head so you could reach his lips. “I’ve waited a year for this, but it feels like a lifetime.”
“I know.” He sighed. “I’ll never be able to make it up to you, what I put you through.”
“Shhh.” You soothed as you rolled onto your tummy and kissed the smooth skin of his chest. “It’s the past, I just need to know you are sure about this, our future.”
“Never been more certain about anything.”
You smiled at the sincerity before seeing the time on his alarm clock and swore as you jumped up from the bed. “Get dressed before we miss our future.”
Sam and Sarah looked like they hadn’t even been to sleep as they arrived moments after you and Bucky did, confusion painting their tired faces. They had probably stayed up partying with the rest of their guests after you and Bucky slipped away last night, and from the looks of it they were both nursing hangovers.
“When you said ‘come to the courthouse ASAP’ I kinda expected to be bailing you out.” Sam said with a yawn. “Did you get arrested again?”
“Not this time but I’m about to be served a life sentence.” Bucky said as he held your hand up. “We’re getting married, again, and want you two as our witnesses.”
“Oh shit, congratulations!” Sam bundled you both into a tight hug as Sarah echoed his surprise and happiness.
Bucky slipped out of the embrace after a few moments and laced his fingers with yours. “Come on, they only have a 15 minute slot for us.”
“So romantic, Buck.” Sam laughed and nudged you with his elbows. “Is this how he won you back?”
You glanced at Bucky’s sheepish look and gave his hand a squeeze. “He never lost me. And, considering how much we spent on the last one, I think this is just fine.”
“Well, let’s do this then.” Sam urged as he pushed everyone towards the steps. “Then we can get some breakfast to celebrate, I’m starving.”
One Year Later
For as long as Bucky could remember he had always questioned time, specifically his place in it. World War Two, The Winter Soldier, The Snap. So much time had been stolen from his life that he constantly wondered when it would run out. He never lived in the present, not even when he stopped fighting and settled down in the family home you purchased together not far from Sam in Delacroix. His mind was still thinking what comes next, until you had given him the answer in the form of a positive pregnancy test. It was as if his world shifted and the pieces of his soul that were scattered through time finally reconnected in the present. Bucky was going to be a father, a purpose he didn’t know he needed until he held the proof in his hands.
“You’re staring again.”
Bucky broke away from his trance to smile at you, the distraction only lasting a minute before he was back looking at his daughter asleep in his arms. She was so tiny that even after almost two months he still feared he would accidentally break her.
“Shh, she’s just gone back to sleep.” He whispered as he watched the rise and fall of her chest and caressed her smooth cheek with his thumb.
“Babe, she’s never going to get used to sleeping in her cot if you don’t put her in it.” You murmured quietly as you took a seat beside him on the couch, his free arm pulling you closer.
“She’s my princess and she needs daddy cuddles, I’m just giving her what she needs.” He reasoned as he caught her hand breaking free of his attempt at swaddling. “Can’t get this damn thing to stay tucked in.”
Taking the tail of the merino knit blanket you tucked it back in, securing her arms from her startle reflex. “There you go sweetie, no more escapes for you.”
A ghost of a memory flashed across Bucky’s eyes as he watched his daughter try to wriggle from the confines of the blanket and he rushed to free her before his chest could constrict any further.
“Bucky? Baby, what’s wrong?” You asked as he practically tore through the thin fibres of the blanket.
B’s eyes opened as she felt the cooler air rush in around her and her little legs kicked before she started to cry.
“I thought she might be getting too hot.” He stammered as he rose to his feet and began rocking her gently.
“Don’t lie to me, we have been through too much together for you to get away with that. Talk to me.”
“You’re overreacting.”
“No, I think that was what you did.” You countered as you stood up, turning him around to face you and pinning him with a look that warned him not to lie again.
His eyes turned down to his daughter, once again drifting off to sleep with his gentle movements. “I’m not comfortable restraining her.”
“Restraining? You mean swaddling?” You asked as you cupped his cheek. “Honey, swaddling is comforting for babies, it’s not controlling like what happened to you.”
He didn’t look convinced so you wrapped your arms around him tightly and just held him for a moment. “Am I making you uncomfortable?”
His forehead crumpled in confusion. “No.”
“But I am holding you tight.”
“You’re hugging me…oh.”
He dropped his head with a chuckle before feeling his phone vibrate with a text message from Sam. “Shit, we better get going. I don’t thinkSam cares if we go, he just wants to steal our baby.”
“Because ladies love a man with a baby.” You giggled, placing a kiss on his confused face. “I know I do. It’s the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen.”
His heart stopping smirk returned as his ego quickly inflated. “Sexy huh, maybe while she’s with Uncle Sam we can sneak off down to the jetty again.”
You bit your lip at the reminder and felt a needy throb at your core.
“This isn’t going to work.” You said as you looked at your casual jeans and shirt. “I’m going to slip into something a little easier to access.”
His eyes darkened in an instant and his tongue wet his eager lips as you went to the bedroom. “You be good for Uncle Sam, baby girl. Daddy needs some time alone with Mommy.”
“Daddy would get more time with Mommy if he put you to sleep in your cot.” You said as you stepped out in a summer dress, enjoying how Bucky drank in the sight of you.
“I hate the idea of her being all alone.” He said before his eyes sparkled. “Maybe we could have another one, then they’ll always have each other.”
“Woah there, hold the phone.” You shook your head as you grabbed the diaper bag and keys. “My damn stitches have barely healed, you must be mad.”
“Madly in love, with you and our daughter and our family.”
You rolled your eyes and he laid the compliments on thick and teased your hip with his free hand. “Uh-uh, I love that you love being a father but this body needs a break before it makes another baby.”
He grinned even wider and pulled you closer to capture your lips. “But you want another one?”
“Yes, Bucky, I would like one that is actually planned.” You chuckled. “She was a wonderful surprise, but still a surprise.”
His eyes suddenly widened and he headed to the bedroom without a word, returning as he shoved a foil wrapper of a condom into the pocket of his jeans. “Almost forgot. Now we can go.”
“Glad you remembered to pack the essentials.” You teased as you checked there were plenty of supplies in the diaper bag, adding an extra diaper just in case.
“You know me, I’d take the chance.”
“Oh I know.” You laughed, pointing to the baby in his arm. “Proof is right there.”
“Hand her over.” Sam ordered as soon as you arrived. “I need some snuggles with my beautiful niece.”
“Good to see you Bucky, how’s it going?” Bucky mumbled to himself. “It’s going great Sam, thanks for asking.”
“Someone sounds like he needs a nap.” Sam babbled as he unbuckled your daughter from her pram and gave you a kiss on the cheek. “How you doing mama?”
“I’m good, lucky to have this guy at home.” You said as you stepped into Bucky’s side. “I don’t know what I would have done if he was still out on missions.”
“You’d be fine.” Sam said, punching Bucky gently on the shoulder. “He married a damn strong woman. No one else could put up with him, that’s for sure.”
Bucky rolled his eyes and draped his arm over your shoulder as he watched Sam retreat with his most prized possession.
“You want to follow him, don’t you.” You said softly as his back tensed beneath your hand. “Sam loves her, he won’t let anyone hurt her.”
“I know, it’s just,” he looked at his free hand hanging at his side, “I miss her when she’s not in my arms. I can’t protect her if I’m too far away.”
“That’s what makes you an amazing father but you have to trust the rest of us to keep her safe too.” You turned his face to you, breaking his stare from her and Sam. “How about we go for a walk to the jetty? Take your mind off this and when we get back you’ll find her safe and sound, I promise.”
He pulled away from your hands and saw nothing had changed in the moment he hadn’t been watching, there were no cries or drama. Nodding reluctantly, he let you lead the way along the path and through the trees to the jetty that hadn’t changed since you were last there a year ago to the day.
Pushing gently at his shoulder, Bucky took a seat and you sat down beside him, fingers intertwined. “I guess this is our second first anniversary, doll.”
You chuckled as you laid your head on his shoulders and enjoyed the tranquility surrounding you. “Happy anniversary, Bucky, it’s been our best year so far.”
synopsis: telling a nervous Bucky you’re pregnant and reassuring him he will be an incredible father and there’s no one else you’d rather go through parenthood with.
warnings: conversation about PTSD, my shitty writing :), but mainly fluff, Bucky being a nervous dad, Bucky deserving better-
Your eyes brimmed with tears.
It was happening. You were going to be a mother. You were so incredibly happy and shocked, and god overwhelmed.
Tears started pouring out of your eyes, you couldn’t help it. Out of instinct you pulled your knees up to your chest on the ground where you sat burying your head in your knees.
That’s when the door creaked open, “hey doll, I was just goi- y/n?” You heard your loves tone shift from informative and natural instantly to concern as he rushed up to you his eyes full of concern.
You looked up to see him there. Those electric blue eyes staring into your e/c ones as a small smile was revealed on your face.
“What happened, doll?” He asked in a small voice, now kneeled down in front of you.
Your hand drifted up to his cheek as your thumb grazed his cheek your eyes traveling over his face as you shook your head in disbelief.
“Bucky… we- were going to be p-parents.” You choked out, holding up the test.
Bucky’s eyes widened grabbing the test in shock. “Are you- are you serious?” His voice small as tears brimmed his eyes.
You let out a choked laugh and nodded with a smile, “yes baby. You’re going to be a dad.” Bucky looked taken aback at that, so much so that he sat back— no longer on his knees.
“Y/N…” he mumbled softly, tears pooling in his blue eyes. “I know,” you spoke as you began to move towards him. It had become a common occurnace over Buckys lifetime for the events that took place at HYDRA to haunt him. But they especially did in his relationship with you, as much as he wished it not to. He was hesitant to get into a relationship not wanting to burden you with his horrors and his difficulties, he was hesitant to this day in bed with you, scared to be too rough with you. He always wanted to ensure your safety.
He felt like you being with him put you at risk. But you didn’t care, it was worth it with him.
He had a beautiful heart, that was burned and broken far too many times. He was kind but had been used. He was strong but had many battle scars. He deserved love but didn’t want to accept it. It’s a good thing you’re stubborn.
You have loved Bucky because through all of the pain and suffering he’s been through, he still manages to smile, to laugh, to give love even though he’s been used so many times.
Bucky Barnes was incredible, even if he didn’t know it.
But that didn’t mean his demons didn’t still keep him up at night.
“I know…” you mumbled, you placed both your hands on his cheeks to have him face you. Your thumb grazed his cheek wiping a tear that escaped his eye.
“Tell me,” you had said.
It was simple but you knew what it meant to Bucky. To have someone listen, care— to treat him as though he did matter. Which to you, he did.
“I… I made a promise,” he started as his eyes drifted from the floor to yours again as he continued, “A long time ago. That I would never put someone through the pain of dealing with my problems. The burden of my trauma. I was so hesitant to express my feelings for you because I thought that if you learned to deal with me, to love me… it would put a damper on your light. Like I would permanently damage your brightness and positivity… taking my pain and placing it on you-“ he spoke each word exposing the residue of the pain and damage HYDRA had done to him but you cut him off.
“And have you?”
“What?”
“Put a damper on my light— infect me with this darkness you keep claiming you have within you? Because I don’t think you have. In fact, I didn’t know happiness like I know happiness now before being with you. Do you think I’ve changed?”
“No.” He choked out. “You’re perfect.”
“So why are you so scared, buck? If you changed me at all, it’s for better!”
“Because what if I’m a bad dad? What if my problems affect our kids childhood? What if I hurt our baby? How could I ever come back from that. I would never forgive myself if I let my trauma affect how I raise this kid… but y/n what if it does? I would lose my mind if I hurt you or our baby.”
“Bucky. I have been in love with you for three years and I’ve called you mine for one of them. Throughout those three years I’ve never once known pain caused by you or pain nonetheless.
Why? Because you have shielded me from it. Im not saying you can do the same for a whole other human. But I don’t know if I’ll be able to either. All of that shit that hydra did to you… you went through that hell alone and made it out and still became the man that I’m proud to say I’m so in love with.
If you can do that alone? You can do parenthood with me bucky. And whenever you feel like you can’t just remember you have the most stubborn headstrong girl on all of planet earth wrapped around your finger. You are a light I cannot begin to describe, Bucky. You are an incredible man who will be an incredible father whom I would love to raise a baby girl with. Okay?” You spoke reassuringly to him. Your hands still on his cheeks making sure he took in every word.
His eyes followed your features a small smile breaking out on his face as he pulled you in for a passionate kiss.
You smiled into the kiss as he mumbled into it, “I love you so much y/n y/l/n.”
You knew Bucky still was pained and had his doubt but right now was about celebrating.
You smiled as he stood up pulling you up with him as he pulled you into a kiss your arms wrapped around his neck as he placed his hand on your leg.
You jumped up wrapping your legs around his waist as he placed his metal arm under your thigh for support as he carried you over to your bed placing you down gently on it as he climbed on top of you pushing the hair out of your face.
“Careful!” You shouted giggling, “don’t hurt the baby.”
Bucky just smiled in response, “I’m so lucky.”
“As am I.” Smiling up at him. I’ll love you for infinity, James Buchanan Barnes.” You spoke leaning up to plant a soft kiss on his lips to which he pulled back from a determined look on his face.
“How do you feel about naming our daughter infinity?” He asked causing you to laugh.
“I love you for many other reasons but coming up with names is not one of them. Now kiss me you idiot.” You spoke causing him to laugh as he leaned down to kiss you again.
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Bonus:
You and Bucky had planned to keep your pregnancy a secret from the avengers seeing as things could go worth and you just wanted to make sure (and avoid Tony’s teasing for as long as you could)
So as you attended a brunch with all of them, you had intended to keep it a secret.
That was until Bucky began to pour you champagne— momentarily forgetting at the table you were keeping it a secret and you couldn’t drink.
“Bucky!” You mumbled to him angrily.
“The baby.” You whispered which ended up not coming out as a whisper at all considering most of them had enhanced senses…
Peter had choked on his water.
Wanda gasped.
Bruce gaped, “did you say baby?”
You glanced up at Bucky, oops.
“Um, yeah. We intended to keep it a secret but, yes, I’m pregnant!” You confirmed not being able to hide a smile which Bucky already had on his face.
Thor laughed, “congrats there, soldier,”
Natasha’s eyes had just went wide as she smiled widely in delight.
Steve just started smiling cheekily, “seriously man, that’s great!” He spoke patting Buckys’ shoulder.
“Ey, great job on that one winter soldier. Not so great at pulling out, huh?” Tony teased.
The rest just either gaped or smiled at the pair.
“Nice going.” You mumbled, maybe this wasn’t going to be so easy.
tagging list (the person that inspired me to write again): @bovaria
You were rushing as you took your six year old son, Isaac, to school. You and Isaac had woken up a bit late, and were rushing to make sure that he got to school on time since this week you were most likely going to have to walk him to school, since your car was in repair. You quickly fixed him up a breakfast to take with him, just to make sure that he will make it and although the school wasn’t far, you weren’t taking any chances on him being late again. Isaac was your pride and joy, sharing many physical similarities with you, such as your hair color, skin color, and many more, the only thing that he had in common with his biological father was his hazel eye color.
You were fine providing for the two of you, already used to the idea of being a single mother since the moment you told his father that you were pregnant. But you would be lying to yourself if you said that it wasn’t difficult at times, but it was well worth it if Isaac was happy. There wasn’t more that you could ask, since at least his father agreed for child support, but still it wasn’t easy, especially with time. You looked down at your son, seeing him munch on his peanut butter sandwich, as he bounced and kicked every leaf he could, being on the more energetic side of the spectrum. You really did question your parenting skills at times, but maybe you weren’t as bad as you thought. Isaac looked up, his hazel eyes meeting yours, as he smiled at you and offered you a bite of his sandwich, which you laughed and told him that you were fine.
You were holding onto Isaac’s hand, relieved that you weren’t as late as you thought, since parents were still dropping off their kids as you approached the school. For once Isaac was going to make it on time to school to spare. Just as you crossed the street Isaac quickly pulled away from you to run on ahead.
“Isaac, don’t run,” worried that he would end up falling, since although he was very wild he wasn’t the most careful of children.
You hurried your own pace trying to catch up to your six year old son, only to see him quickly embrace (more like tackle) a small brunette girl, almost sending her off balance. Isaac was so outgoing, never shy of doing anything once he sets his mind to it. It honestly makes you wonder where he got it from, because even if you weren’t too shy, you never had the valor to be outgoing like him. The little girl had a startled face as Isaac embraced her, making you worry that her parents were going to scold Isaac for almost tackling their child to the ground. You were opening your mouth to tell him to let go of her, but were interrupted.
“Brooke, you don’t have to be so shy” you heard a male voice say.
You looked up and were met with two beautiful icy blue eyes. You were taken back by the man in front of you; he had a warm smile on his face as he looked down at Isaac and what you guessed was his daughter. Your eyes were immediately drawn his left arm covered with tattoos forming a beautiful sleeve that complimented his strong arms. Dark brown hair that almost reached his shoulders was tucked behind his ears, but you could honestly say that his blue eyes were the most beautiful thing you have seen.
“I’m sorry for my son,” you said apologizing to the father that your little girl was hugging like there was no tomorrow.
“It’s no worries, although it’s a bit sad when Brooklyn more luck with people than her own father…and she’s only five,” he said jokingly, making you smile as well.
“Mommy, this is my best friend Brooke,” Isaac smiled as he let go of brunette who had eyes just as blue as her father.
Brooke…the name was familiar to you; you smiled knowing that this was the Brooke that your son would talk your ear off when you picked him up from school. His only friend since he started this year and would always mention about inviting her over, but the timing was never right. Isaac had a bright smile as he presented you to her, the same one he had on when he talked to you about her. You looked down, your eyes meeting Brooke’s blue ones, and could already tell that she was beyond shy, complete opposite from Isaac. She was too shy to even return his hug, as her hands tightly held onto the straps of her Spiderman backpack. Brooke slowly looked up to her dad, a small tint of pink tinted on her cheeks.
“Dad, this is my best friend Isaac,” she introduced her voice coming out so low that you could barely hear it. But her father heard it loud and clear, his smile getting brighter as he realized who your little boy was.
“So you’re the famous Isaac,” he said squatting down to be at eye level with your son. You don’t know why you found it nice that he got down to his height, unable to hide the small smile forming on your lips.
Isaac nodded, not shying away at all, typical of him.
“well,” he said with a bright smile, “thank you for taking good care of Brooke, I know that she’s really shy and can’t make many friends, so I’m glad she has you by her side,” he said ruffling his hair, “Brooke talks about you all the time, saying that she’s glad you’re her best friend,” he said with a smile, earning him a small playful smack from his daughter, “ok she doesn’t talk about you all the time,” hoping to not embarrass his little girl any more. He brought his hands to his knees to help him stand back up. “Sorry for messing up his hair,” he said as he softly smiled and scratched the back of his neck, making you guess that maybe some of Brooke’s shyness stemmed partially from his father.
“It’s no problem, by the time I pick him up from school, his hair is a lot messier than this,” you said with a reassuring smile, as you smoothed out his hair.
“Bucky,” he said with a smile.
“Pardon?” you said, wondering if you misheard something.
“Name’s James, but I like Bucky instead,” he said extending his hand to yours, seeing the look of confusion from what he prefers to be called, “James Buchanan Barnes,” he said with a bright smile, “this here’s Brooklyn Sarah Barnes”
“(full name),” you responded as you shook his hand, instantly feeling how warm and calloused it was, “and he’s Isaac Nathaniel (l/n),” Isaac already holding out his hand for Bucky, always the eager one to meet new people, “Buchanan? Don’t think I’ve ever heard that name before”
“I know, not the most common name, reason I go by Bucky instead,” he said with a smile.
“Isaac talks about Brooke all the time, it’s good to know that she has a patient kind friend, since I was told from the teachers that he is a bit too loud and energetic for the other students,” you said.
“Other kindergarteners find him loud?” he said with an uncertain tone, almost not believing it.
“Yeah I know, weird,” you said with an odd look, you looked over to your child seeing how he was talking to Brooke about who knows what, his hands moving everywhere as he told his story to her, and the shy girl keeping up with his fast speech. .
The bell rang, letting you both know that it was time for your children to get to school, you reached for your son, hoisting him up, to give him a kiss and tell him that you will be here to pick him up and told him to wait here for you if you were a bit late. You looked over at Bucky, and noticed that he was at eye level with his girl, bringing her in for a hug as he tickled her, loud giggles filling the air around you both, which made you smile too, as he explained that he’ll be right on time to pick her up.
Both children ran into school, seeing how comfortable they both were around each other, leaving you and Bucky smiling as they walked into class.
“Your son’s is adorable, he’s such a ball of sunshine, dad must be happy to have a son like him,” he said with a smile.
“His father isn’t really in the picture, haven’t seen him, since he found out I was pregnant,” you answered.
“Oh he left…I’m really sorry,” he said hoping that he didn’t offend you.
“Don’t, I spend a long time feeling bad about it, it was a better choice for everyone, he didn’t want kids and why would I make both our lives miserable if I forced him to stay. Besides we are doing fine by ourselves,” you said with a smile, hoping you weren’t coming off as rude “Brooke’s really shy, does she get that from you or her mom,” you asked.
“Most likely from me, since her mother isn’t in the picture either,” he said with a soft smile.
“She left you too,” you said not understanding how anyone could leave him like that.
“Uhh…sort of” he said scratching the back of his head seeing his eyes sadden for a brief second making you wonder if they had recently divorced.
You looked down on you watch seeing that you were going to be late if you didn’t start moving. You much like Isaac couldn’t be late either.
“Are you alright?” Bucky as most likely picking up on your small distress.
“Don’t want to be rude, but really better start walking to work before I’m late,” hoping he didn’t think that you just wanted to stop talking to him.
“Do you need a lift? I’m more than happy to take you there.”
“No I don’t want to be a burden, you most likely have somewhere to go as well,” he really was a kind man.
“Trust me, I don’t mind besides if Brooke finds out I let you walk, I’ll hear about it later. I can afford to be late, come on,” he said gesturing you over to his car.
You thought it over looking down at your watch, knowing even at your best pace you may not make it in time, and followed him to his car.
This is SO CUTE!!! Sweet and a bit hot but oh so loving. I adore the relationship Bucky has with his daughter and how patient he is with the reader. Aaagggh. And how SOFT he gets for her just makes my heart melt.
The way Bucky moves behind her to rest his hand on her shoulders? Gold. The way he just holds her? PeRfEcT. The ways he shows her how much he loves her????!!! my HEART.
And sweet Elaine is just so perfect. Love her innocent yet so smart attitude and ways she approaches life. Adorable.
(Not sure if you know, but I think the link for “Reminder” is broken, as I can’t seem to access it. ..)
this is for a Bucky Barnes x female!reader. If anyone would like it changed to adoption instead of pregnancy or nonbinary!reader or male!reader, I can post that too. Xx
I would honestly have to say that I would die for dad!bucky
Now, in the early stages of your marriage, he’d totally see you with nieces, nephews, friends children and imagine your life together.
Like whenever you’d be at a family gathering or with Morgan or Clints kids, he would just be in a total state of awe.
Sam noticed it first, teasing his friend before Bucky finally admitted he wanted it.
The family.
The security
He wanted all of it.
So as soon as the two of you got home, he wanted to start trying for that baby, taking you to bed and not letting you go for hours.
You were just as on board, a little less than he was but just as enthusiastic, and couldn’t wait to have your own children running around the house.
Bucky would hold you in his arms, his hands brushing through your hair as you discussed the future
“Bucky,” You whispered as you leaned into his chest, feelings his hands brushing through your hair. “Yeah,” he mumbled, kissing your forehead as the two of you looked at each other.
“What would you name your child?” She asked. Bucky wasn’t expecting the question so he thought about it before answering, “Becky or Winnie, for my sister and mother. Or maybe if it was a boy, something to do with Steve. He saved me life more times than I could count,” he explained.
So when you kept getting those negative tests, every one was like a kick in the gut, like someone was telling Bucky that he wasn’t worthy of having this family.
But one morning you didn’t feel so great, and not wanting to get your hopes up, you thought it was just a flu.
Bucky, on the other hand, thought you should get a test done just in case. So you reluctantly decided to do it.
And you sobbed on the floor of the bathroom when you saw three pregnancy tests all saying the same thing.
Positive
He was overjoyed when he found out, holding you in his arms and whispering thank yous.
When you got the news officially from the doctor, you were both full of happiness and Bucky didn’t think he could love you anymore.
The entire avengers facility was full of joy when they found out that the two of you were expecting a baby, Tony instantly taking you of the rosters for missions.
Everyone was ready to be the fun uncle and aunt, Nat and Sam having constant arguments over who was the coolest out of the two of them.
At the baby shower, you didn’t really care about the gender. You just wanted them to be okay and healthy.
But Tony pushed for the party, inviting all the avengers and watching as you and Bucky popped the baloons.
When he saw the little pink ribbons falling from them, Bucky swept you up in his arms before kneeling down to kiss your stomach.
“Hey baby girl,” he whispered as his hands cradled the bump that was very obvious to everyone now, “You’re gonna be just as brave and brilliant as your mummy aren’t you?”
You couldn’t believe this, your heart filled with joy as it all became real, as everything became just as you wanted. Bucky stood up, holding your face in his hands and pulling your lips against his. “I love you,” he whispered and you chuckled, whispering it back.
Sometimes Bucky would be worried about whether he’d be a good father but you were sure that he was.
When you finally went into labour, he went into immediate dad mode and had to help you throughout all of it.
“One more push please ma'am,” the nurse asked as she knelt down, “We can see the head now,”
You just sobbed throughout it, hand clamped in bucky’s as you glared at him, the pain overwhelming. “I’m so proud of you baby, come on, just one more,” he cooed and you let out a scream.
The room was silent as they looked at the baby in the nurses arms. “Why isn’t he crying!” You asked, heart pounding in your chest as you and Bucky shared anxious looks.
But all that worry dissipated when you heard that loud crying from your baby girl who was clearly loving the drama and the stress she was putting her parents through. You just let out a sigh of relief, glad she was here.
You decided to name her Rebecca Natasha Barnes, after his sister and your best friend.
Bucky didn’t want to hold his baby girl to start off with. But when you had fallen asleep, he was hesitant to pick his baby girl up.
But when she was looking up at him with those doe eyes, he held her against his bare chest, holding her gently as he sat down next to you.
He would whisper sweet things about how he was never going to let anything hurt his little girl. Never.
When you two went back to the Avengers compound, everyone instantly fell in love with Becca Barnes.
He would watch you and her constantly whenever you were together. He loved the family that he had managed to have.
So when she began to babble about nonsense, he kept trying to coerce her into saying his name first.
“Come on baby, say dada” he said as he knelt in front of the high chair, the rest of the a Avengers watched the big strong Winter Soldier being turned into a soft man by his daughter.
You chuckled, leaning against the counter as you watched Bucky. Becca babbled for a second, reaching her hands out, “Red,” she babbled out and everyone turned to look at Natasha.
“Yeah, the kid knows her auntie,” she said with a huge smile on her face as she looked at the little girl who was giggling at her fathers horrified expression.
Even despite the fact that their child’s first word was about Natasha - presumably - the kid lived her dad more than anything.
As she grew into a little two year old, she would often try to fiddle with Buckys metal arm, laughing whenever she felt the cold metal.
One day, as they watched the 7 year old Morgan play with the small toddler, Bucky leaned into his wife, kissing her gently.
“I want another one,” You said and he chuckled, not even shocked because he was thinking the same thing too. “Lets start as soon as possible,” he whispered as he pulled you in for that bruising kiss you didn’t know you had missed.
With this pregnancy, it didn’t take as long to coercive but the actually pregnancy itself was a lot harder.
You were tired all the time and Becca was so interested in your pregnancy and it was hard to keep up with everything.
Bucky would try to keep her busy, knowing how tired you were. He presumed it was because this one had inherited more of his super soldier strength.
The Avengers loved looking after Becca whenever the two of you went to appointments and she loved spending time with them.
This time, you went into early labour and everyone freaked out, Bucky being taken away as you were rushed in for an emergency c-section.
He couldn’t stop pacing back and forth as he waited, Steve actually having to come and calm him down.
So when he was allowed in to see you, despite your tired and exhausted disposition. He was overjoyed to see you holding the baby boy against your chest.
James Steven Barnes. The brilliant little boy that he had been able to meet.
He was was more of a handful growing up. He was just as crazy as his dad and would love to run around and cause as much chaos as possible.
You couldn’t keep up with any of his super human strengths because even as a growing child, he was able to do more than any other kid in his class.
Every Christmas, the four of you would go to Tonys cabin with the others and the whole Avengers compound would spend the whole Christmas together with all the kids and all the adults partying all new years eve.
When Becca was 7 and James was 5, you hadn’t expected to see that test read positive. Not once, not twice, three times.
So when they went to the doctors and found out that you were pregnant again.
Once again, smooth sailing, the kids were delighted to have another sibling on the way but you and Bucky were sure this was the limit. Three was already a handful of children.
At least that was until you found out it was twins. Twins for heavens sake, how could this have happened?
So when the twins were born, in good health might I add, Bucky and the kids were once again overjoyed.
Grant Buchanan Barnes and his twin sister older than him by 6 minutes, Winifred Peggy Barnes.
Natasha loved Winnie instantly, knowing that this girl was going to be just like you.
“Shes so sweet,” Nat said as she held the girl in her arms, watching as the little girl reached out and grasped her hair, pulling on it, “Just as fiesty as you,”
Bucky was the ultimate dad. He would go to every sport with them, coaching the girls soccer team.
The mums lived that. You’d always glare slightly when the women would fawn over your husband, trying to seduce him.
But he ignored that. What he didn’t ignore was whenever James’ friends called you a hot mum. That annoyed him.
As they grew up, he wanted to remember every single thing that happened in your lives, constantly taking photos.
He was also very overprotective and constantly looked after them to make sure that everyone was okay.
So when his daughter got a boyfriend, he was very, very overprotective.
“Whos that?” Bucky asked one day after school as he stood at the door, watching as the 15 year old Becca.
“Who are you talking about dad?” She questioned back and he knew she had the same way of avoiding questions just like you.
“The boy,” he said and you tried to stop him, “Buck,”. He shook his head, “No, a boy just dropped my baby girl home from school, who is he?” He asked, raising an eyebrow and staring at her. One that thing that girl had was the ability to stare back, the two in stalemate.
“I’ve got homework to do,” she said before walking off, ignoring the question.
The idea that his children were growing up scared him. James was the best on his team at only 13 and the 8 year old twins were the biggest pranksters he’d ever met, picking up too many tricks from uncle Sam.
He loved his children more than anything in the world, and that was something you loved him for as well.
Because for once in his life, he’d done something good. He’d done something really good.
Yeah, that’s my first headcanon. It wasn’t supposed to be so long but yeah.
Here is a list of fantastic works by amazing authors that I highly recommend.
18+ years old or older - assume all fics have adult content!
Marvel
Steve Rogers:
His Inheritanceby@jtargaryen18: Your father is the head of one of the most powerful crime families in Boston but he’s protected you from that life. In your quiet home outside the city, you’ve been cared for and protected. When the desires of a more powerful man with the will to dominate bursts into your life, all your illusions are shattered as he comes to claim what is his. (Mob!Steve Rogers AU)
A Few Good Reasonsby@angrythingstarlight: Steve has a few good reasons to get up this early. All of them revolve around the pretty new waitress that just started at his favorite diner. (Biker! Steve AU)
Matilda Roseby@christycurlswrites:the relationship between you & Steve fell apart. Four years later, Steve learns he has a daughter.
Bucky Barnes:
Thin Ice by@angrythingstarlight: Bucky has a few rules. The most important is that you always tell him you love him when you leave the house. Because “I love you, Bucky” are his four favorite words. (cute Biker!Bucky AU!)
Right Under Your Noseby@foxgloveprincess: It’s not your fault that you bump into two super soldier and endear yourself to them. Seriously. You have no idea what they see in you, but having friends you can trust implicitly is nice. Right?
Henry Cavill & characters
Syverson:
And So Much Moreby@sillyrabbit81: after a disappointing blind date, your best friend’s older brother comes to pick you up.
Where Kindness Growsby@rmtndew: The Great Depression took its toll on a lot of people and some had to get creative to survive. Seraphina’s father decides his solution is to sell his only daughter to a much older man. But when Sy overhears a conversation about the young woman, he makes a decision that will change his life - and Seraphina’s - forever.
People Like Usby@rmtndew: Sy is set up on a blind date with a single mom. When the babysitter cancels, so does his date. But Sy is determined to salvage what he can.
ACOTAR
Elain & Azriel:
A Surprise Bunby@tswaney17: Elain has a secret. One that even the male she’s been seeing doesn’t know about yet. But, when Cassian shows up unannounced at the townhouse, everything comes crumbling around her as her secret comes to light. And now she must face the reality of her hidden relationship with Azriel and the consequences it has brought.
Season of the Roseby@fawnandshadows: The agreement has been signed for the engagement of Lady Elain and Lord Lucien Anserra. Everything has been arranged - or has it?
Blooming Shadowsby@fawnandshadows: “Are you ready?” Azriel asked from the shadows. His tall frame leaned elegantly against the wall in the study, shadows licked and swirled around him as if shielding him from Elain’s gaze. It made her heart cry, seeing him hidden around her. There was a time when his shadows would vanish completely when she entered a room. When he would look at her and smile, but now, ever since the solstice, something had changed.
In the Gardenby@fawnandshadows:Elain saw Azriel watching her in the garden from a window. When she beckoned him to join her, he refused. But he can’t resist the lure of the loveliest flower forever.
summary: you met bucky and his crew during a bike week convention and never turned back. he was your everything and things get scary when an idiot doesn’t care about the dangers of texting and driving.
word count: 5.4k
pairings:biker!bucky x black!biker!reader
warnings: motorcycle accident, angst, hospital talk, close calls with death, pregnancy, cops (it’s bike week where i live and ive been itching to write a biker!bucky fic)
a/n: i give NO ONE permission to repost or translate my work on this app or any other app, credit or not. do not take credit for my work!
