#self positivity

Chopped.

If you are lost, you will find your way again. if you are feeling hopeless, you will find hope again. if you are sad, you will find happiness again. it may not be tomorrow, but one day you will look back and be so glad you kept fighting.

Text reads: Sometimes we have illnesses, disabilities, or other health conditions that prevent us from doing everything our peers can. Please do not feel as though you are “less than” if this is you. You do not need to be able to do everything they can do in order to do extraordinary things.

I have been Suffering for days. Between a migraine, dislocated ribs, back pain from sitting the wrong way, and joint pain from the recent rain in my city, I’ve barely had the spoons to do much and I feel bad because I can’t even pick up my 7 lb cat without pain and it makes me feel weak and pathetic, especially compared to my husband, who is very strong and healthy and can do all kinds of things that I can’t. I’m trying not to feel bad about it. Making this meme helped.

Text reads: Compulsive skin picking can make you feel awful about your appearance and make you feel like you’ve lost control of yourself. It might seem hopeless, like you’ll spend the rest of your life tearing up your skin, and you may not be able to believe people when they tell you that you’re still beautiful, but I want you to know that you are not a failure for not being able to control it, and no matter how you’ve damaged your skin, you still deserve to be treated with kindness and respect.

This is something I needed. I’ve suffered from excoriation disorder(also known as dermatillomania) since I was a child. I got made fun of a lot for all the scabs on my face and every inch of my body I could reach, and my mother(truly a nasty piece of work if I’m being honest) used to tell me to wear makeup because it was embarrassing to be seen with me with my skin looking like that.

For the last week I’ve been so stressed from my ongoing migraine that I’ve been picking more than usual and my face looks like a train wreck. I’ve covered most of the right side of my face with liquid bandage to help it heal without getting infected. I look terrible.

I know there are resources out there to help one stop picking, such as a site called Stop Picking On Me that one of my first therapists told me about, but I either keep forgetting to look at it or I just don’t have the spoons.

Text reads: You don’t have to blaze like a star until you burn out to please someone who has expectations you can’t meet and treats you badly for not being what they want. If you just shine brightly enough to light your own path and see who you want to be, that is good enough.

Another one that I needed to make because Encanto made me cry like a baby. The person in my life who does this to me isn’t who I should be worried about pleasing, and I shouldn’t hurt myself trying to please them. I know what I want, I know what kind of person I want to be and what I want my future to look like, and I know which people appreciate me, and these people are the ones I really want to care about pleasing.

Text reads: Do you have someone in your life who holds you to unfair standards and makes you feel like you’ll never be good enough for them? I know how that is. I know the feeling of never being good enough hurts a whole lot, but you are good enough, no matter what they or anyone else says.

Yeah… I just watched Encanto and yeah, I cried. I do have someone in my life who regularly makes me feel like I’ll never be good enough for them no matter what I do, and they have treated me badly many times because I couldn’t meet their standards. I have to remind myself that regardless of my relationship with this person, I don’t have to be good enough for them. I only have to be good enough for the people who truly appreciate me, and I have to be one of the people who appreciate me too.

Text reads: It is all right not to be popular. You do not need scores of people wanting to be your friend or wanting to be you, in order to be good enough. You are already wonderful as you are, regardless of how many or how few friends, fans, or followers you may have.

Text reads: Cooking isn’t always easy! Sometimes the food just doesn’t turn out right and that’s okay. It doesn’t make you a failure. Don’t beat yourself up about it. Just figure out what went wrong so you can get it right next time.

I made this one because it’s something I personally needed. I somehow undercooked the chicken in my husband’s lunch even though I stuck it in several places with the food thermometer and it read that it was the correct temperature. The battery does need to be replaced so maybe that’s why. Next time I’m baking it instead of cooking it on the stove. But I feel really bad about it because I pride myself on being a decent cook so I made this to make myself feel better. Hopefully it’ll help someone else feel better too.

I’m gonna get tan this summer just wait

Andddd just a few more pics

Being single is boring. Who am I supposed to send my spicy pics to now?