#someone stop me
i have a deep attachment to angry, guilty women embodying angry, impulsive men, expressing awful repressed emotions that they don’t feel like they have the right to feel through a veil of Boy Rage while waving around guns, which is why the killer in me and i only have eyes for you are the two most underrated buffy episodes
but no like seriously
both the killer and me and i only have eyes for you come off of heavy bombs of episodic pain, i only have eyes for you in the form of operating after the trauma of innocence, surprise, and passion, and the killer in me operating after the trauma of seeing red, two to go, villains, and grave. these episodes were a powder keg finally going off, the burn and the explosion and i only have eyes for you and the killer and me are the initiators of that burning sitting in the wreckage looking at what they’ve done and somehow - trying to deal.
buffy and willow lost someone they love, dramatically, painfully, and the idea of forward movement, buffy refusing to blame herself for angelus, willow finding someone else to be with, they treat as morally reprehensible because the two girls are inundated with bearing it - the notion that they must bear it, that sins and pain and grief are for their backs, all the time. and both times, a masculine presence forces its way in to articulate what the two cannot say in their own sacrificial unhappiness. warren tells willow, and us, that willow cannot deal with kissing kennedy, with being with anyone, because tara’s memory is too fresh and too beautiful and willow is at too much fault to try and move on. james tells us that buffy unknowingly unleashed a monster and in her efforts to put it down she refuses to acknowledge forgiveness beyond the horizon. james and grace dance. willow screams at kennedy in the garden with a gun.
the two of them become someone they fundamentally are not, warren creeping his way into willows mind and james borrowing buffys body for a ride, to elucidate what the two have been feeling and suppressing and suppressing for so long and to illustrate quite plainly how the future needs to be.
warren tries to gun kennedy down and willow knows that she has to be with kennedy to make the vengeance go away. james and grace tell eachother that it’s okay, that it can be better, and buffy understands quite plainly that she needs that betterment for herself
idk man feelings i have them
i love spencerrrrrr
hi. uh hey. it’s been a while. have a spencer appreciation post
- “to be honest i didn’t know this was football”
- “i’m just going to have a heart attack real quick”
- “you’d be surprised what comes up when you type death into a search engine”
- “you kick like a twelve year old girl”
- “there are phds. three of them”
- “i don’t hate you. i’m just not necessarily excited about your existence”
- “it doesn’t matter what she looks like, she’s already the most beautiful girl in the world to me” (this one really had me crying)
- “no, i didn’t lie, i am a doctor so technically it wasn’t a lie.”
- “without a gun i look like a teacher’s assistant!”
and lastly of course
- “is there any more jello?”
me vs. everyone else
normal human: omg he’s so hot i wanna fuck him so hard
me: i want spencer reid to so much as breathe the same air as me so that i can scream about it on tumblr
reid starts playing piano with sammy in s6 ep16
me:
The problem with having placed an order for tiny lego versions of my OCs is that now I want to also buy a lego castle in which they can live and some lego horses and maybe a lego forest and a lego campfire and–
Choi Jun-woong Pikachu = Serotonin
Me telling my brain to stop thinking of new fic ideas:
My brain:
I’m those close To making angsty fics. It’s always in my mind!
When the strap-on ain’t enough so you start finding different ways to please your girl
Oh look at these two fun AlcinaxTransReader projects I can take my time on and enjoy!
*my gremlin brain*: what about a modern day human AU fic
Me:
Just listening to Brandy by The Looking Glass. Because I don’t need another fic to write, here’s the idea:
A waitress at 79’s reminisces about Commander Keeli. absolutely in love and adoringly remembering the last time they were together. How he told her in another lifetime he’d have married her in a heartbeat. She keeps his picture in a locket. In the last line we find out that he’s been dead two months as she thinks about what could have been.
i need to not text my ex back wen she texts me
I finally finished my arrrms, like 12 sessions later.
as a queer person, growing up I always felt like I was stumbling through life, tripping over my own shoelaces. that’s why this pride month I’ve partnered with the president—
more like meet the loser who can’t buy a switch with salty tears, amirite fellas?
hahahahaha hahahahajahahaAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Hey! Don’t you know its rude to peep in on a ghosts bath time?!
Based on the iconic Tom and Jerry scene
Loki’s mentor- Loki (Old Loki)
Loki’s love interest- Loki (Sylvie)
Loki’s pet?- Loki (Lokigator lol)
Loki’s enemy- Loki (President Loki)
I’m calling it Loki actually gave birth to himself and he’s his own father not Laufey hahahhaaha Loki Lokison hahha