#worthless

tantradiaries:

We’ve all had people in our lives who have “made us” feel worthless. However, these people haven’t made us feel worthless, they have just forced our own lack of self-worth to surface. Nobody can make you feel worthless except yourself. In the end, these people push us to learn to love ourselves more. You can be bitter and torture yourself some more or you can be grateful and transcend that nonsense.  

Dear diary…

It’s so… Hard to hold on to life…

But… I try.

I have been trying lately, more than ever, to hold on to the little things that make this life a little less unbearable, and to ignore everything else…

And it’s hard to ignore all the shit my mind tells me everyday… But I think I really am trying.

I don’t know if life is worth it. And I know I won’t think this way once I break down again. But this is how I feel at this moment, I guess…

“Try to save myself, but myself keeps slipping away.”

Nine Inch Nails, “Into The Void”

Dear diary…

I try to be here for people…

I try to be enough…

But… I’m always a disappointment.

I always ruin everything…

And when I try to help, I only make everything worse.

I’m useless. I’m worthless.

I’m never good enough.

I will never be good enough…

“The thought of healing is unappealing to the voice inside my brain.”

Slaves, “Like I Do”

“I think that the truth is I’m scared. I think that I’m just scared to live… I think that the truth is I’m everything that I hate.”

Senses Fail, “Angela Baker And My Obsession With Fire”

“Seeing you cry makes me feel like saying sorry.”

Hawthorne Heights, “Saying Sorry”

Dear diary… (Trigger warning)

I hate how a single chromosome can fuck up your life.

I just wish I didn’t have a body at all.