Im bipolar is this normal?

So i have early onset bipolar (diagnosed in a sych ward not self dx lmfao im antiselfdx) And i need to know this but im 13 and i get easily jealous over everything and angery and idk just lose my shit so easily ex all someone in my life has to do is talk to one of there friends and ill immediatly assume they hate me so ill say awful things like “kys bitch” or “i hope you get cancer” “i hate you” “you hate me” “your ruining everything” “douchebag” “bitch” “whore” Only a couple times ive gotten pysical but ive shut someone out before and they no longer am friends but im worried that if i keep this up ill have no friends help??? And i want them its just idk im strange if i don’t get any affection i feel abandoned but if i do get affection and love i feel uncomfortable its confusing i feel like a piece of shit. and then i forgive them an hour or day later (depending) then do something else rude. i basically have no control.