#btvs rewatch

i no longer feel shame abt the fact that i am spending 2 hours per episode of buffy the vampire slayer. watching season 6 is just Like That.

chasingfictions:

chasingfictions:

I MAY BE DIRT. BUT YOU’RE THE ONE WHO LIKES TO ROLL IN IT, SLAYER. insane line they put in this insane show. help. help im. help?????????????????? anyway im combusting

also ummmm again with the – ‘last night was the most perverse,
degrading experience of my life’ .. 'yeah. me too :))’ . spike both reveling in and shuddering in the experience of being profane. something so vulnerable-achy abt him identifying himself as dirt of his own volition. something so queer and freed about him taking buffy’s description of perversion upon himself. the layers. the layers the layers the layers :)))

ok maybe it’s about like. the idea of being 'dirty’ as not being intrinsically bad – actually being good, being delightful. but also that feeling butting up against the fact that he knows she doesn’t perceive dirty as a good thing, despite how much she likes and wants and craves it. what is it to be both yourself divorced from the idea of shame and desire and also to have someone else enact their feelings of shame and desire upon your body . for that person to desire your body and despise it because they desire it. ummmmm.

chasingfictions:

I MAY BE DIRT. BUT YOU’RE THE ONE WHO LIKES TO ROLL IN IT, SLAYER. insane line they put in this insane show. help. help im. help?????????????????? anyway im combusting

also ummmm again with the – ‘last night was the most perverse,
degrading experience of my life’ .. 'yeah. me too :))’ . spike both reveling in and shuddering in the experience of being profane. something so vulnerable-achy abt him identifying himself as dirt of his own volition. something so queer and freed about him taking buffy’s description of perversion upon himself. the layers. the layers the layers the layers :)))

Him, 7.06

Him, 7.06

Him, 7.06

Him, 7.06

Him, 7.06

Please tell me someone else has seen Rose Red before and gets why I can’t hear this song

Selfless, 7.05

Selfless, 7.05

Selfless, 7.05

Selfless, 7.05