this took so long to do, but i hope it was worth it
Taeil
“Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted.”
Johnny
“If you expect nothing from anybody, you’re never disappointed.”
Taeyong
“I like people too much or not at all. I’ve got to go down deep, to fall into people, to really know them.”
Yuta
“Perhaps some day I’ll crawl back home, beaten, defeated. But not as long as I can make stories out of my heartbreak, beauty out of sorrow.”
Kun
“I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am. I am. I am.”
Doyoung
“I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead; I lift my eyes and all is born again.”
Ten
“And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited.”
Jaehyun
“Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren’t having any of those.”
WinWin
“If the moon smiled, she would resemble you. You leave the same impression of something beautiful, but annihilating.”
Jungwoo
“I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery—air, mountains, trees, people. I thought, ‘This is what it is to be happy’.”
Lucas
“Kiss me and you will see how important I am.”
Mark
“There must be quite a few things that a hot bath won’t cure, but I don’t know many of them.”
Renjun
“How we need another soul to cling to.”
Jeno
“We should meet in another life, we should meet in air, me and you.”
Haechan
“Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing.”
Jaemin
“I didn’t want my picture taken because I was going to cry. I didn’t know why I was going to cry, but I knew that if anybody spoke to me or looked at me too closely the tears would fly out of my eyes and the sobs would fly out of my throat and I’d cry for a week. I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in me like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full.”
Chenle
“I have the choice of being constantly active and happy or introspectively passive and sad. Or I can go mad by ricocheting in between.”
Jisung
“Can you understand? Someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little, love me a little? For all my despair, for all my ideals, for all that - I love life. But it is hard, and I have so much - so very much to learn.”
been in kind of a funk lately, hope it doesn’t last long
i know it’s still like a month til autumn starts but it’s my favorite season and i’m looking forward to it so here we go
Taeil
“At no other time (than autumn) does the earth let itself be inhaled in one smell, the ripe earth; in a smell that is in no way inferior to the smell of the sea, bitter where it borders on taste, and more honeysweet where you feel it touching the first sounds. Containing depth within itself, darkness, something of the grave almost.” (Rainer Maria Rilke)
Johnny
“There is something incredibly nostalgic and significant about the annual cascade of autumn leaves.” (Joe L. Wheeler)
Taeyong
“He found himself wondering at times, especially in the autumn, about the wild lands, and strange visions of mountains that he had never seen came into his dreams.” (JRR Tolkien)
Yuta
“No spring nor summer beauty hath such grace as I have seen in one autumnal face.“ (John Donne)
Kun
“Love the trees until their leaves fall off, then encourage them to try again next year.” (Chad Sugg)
Doyoung
“And all at once summer collapsed into fall.” (Oscar Wilde)
Ten
“Autumn is the hardest season. The leaves are all falling, and they’re falling like they’re falling in love with the ground.” (Andrea Gibson)
Jaehyun
“Autumn carries more gold in its pocket than all the other seasons.” (Jim Bishop)
WinWin
“Autumn seemed to arrive suddenly that year. The morning of the first September was crisp and golden as an apple.” (JK Rowling)
Jungwoo
“Fall has always been my favorite season. The time when everything bursts with its last beauty, as if nature had been saving up all year for the grand finale.” (Lauren DeStefano)
Lucas
“Why is summer mist romantic and autumn mist just sad?” (Dodie Smith)
Mark
“Aprils have never meant much to me, autumns seem that season of beginning, spring.” (Truman Capote)
Renjun
“Listen! The wind is rising, and the air is wild with leaves, we have had our summer evenings, now for October eves!” (Humbert Wolfe)
Jeno
“Autumn is as joyful and sweet as an untimely end.” (Rémy de Gourmont)
Haechan
“Autumn is a second spring where every leaf is a flower.” (Albert Camus)
Jaemin
“I cannot endure to waste anything so precious as autumnal sunshine by staying in the house.” (Nathaniel Hawthorne)
Chenle
“Autumn…the year’s last, loveliest smile.” (John Howard Bryant)
Jisung
“Don’t you love New York in the fall? It makes me want to buy school supplies. I would send you a bouquet of newly sharpened pencils if I knew your name and address.” (Nora Ephron)
my junior year of uni starts next week so uploading will probably become more sporadic than it already is, if that’s even possible lol
warning(s): none (please let me know if there are any!)
as sam kim’s where’s my money blasts in the background, your focus is on one specific individual only.
his pale platinum-brownish locks is dispersed away from his eyes, unlocking a view to his sharp set of coloured contacts. taking the strands of hair to the side, he plays with it until he’s satisfied.
you can’t help but be hyper fixated on him.
when he notices your gaze, he careens his head. “eh? what are you looking at, y/n?”
pairing:bf!chenle x gn!reader |genre:fluff |warnings:hair - i am aware not everybody’s hair bleaches so easily the first time, i’m sorry about that! | word count: 620
“So, I did a thing,” you commented as soon as your boyfriend closed the door to your apartment behind him.
“Hmm, now I’m worried,” Chenle replied, placing the snacks he’d bought at the convenience store on your kitchen bench. “Do I want to know what you’ve done?”
“Yes, and I actually need your help with it!” Chenle’s eyebrows raised as you raced to your room, returning a few seconds later with what looked like shampoo bottles in your hands.
“Uh oh,” Chenle stated as you dumped your haul onto the living room floor. “What have I just walked into, Y/N?"
"I want to dye my hair pink.”
Chenle stared at you for a moment and blinked slowly, giving himself a chance to take in this information before he replied. “And you want my help?”
“Yeah, I figured you’d know what to do.”
“Well you’re not wrong.” Chenle approached the bottles and picked them off the ground, examining each one briefly. “I think I can work with this.”
You let out a squeal and ran to your bathroom, Chenle chuckling at your excitement as he followed you. You found an old towel and wrapped it over your shoulders as Chenle opened the bottle of bleach and pulled on the plastic gloves. “Are you ready?”
When you nodded in response, Chenle squeezed the cool substance onto the top of your head and used his fingers to rub it into your scalp, your eyes closing as he essentially gave you a head massage. He’s a pro at this, you thought as Chenle ran his fingers down the length of your hair, making sure no spot was missed.
Once he was finished, Chenle wrapped your bleached hair in glad wrap and fetched the snacks he’d bought earlier. He joined you in sitting on the bathroom floor as you both watched a episode of your favourite show together, him occasionally feeding you snacks as he wrapped a hand around your waist.
Thirty minutes later, a timer on Chenle’s phone went off, and he unwrapped your hair before you jumped in the shower to wash out the bleach. He waited patiently for you to finish, smiling when you emerged with your hair dripping all over the floor.
“You’re a mess,” he laughed, wrapping the old towel around your head and manually drying it for you. He then fetched your hairdryer and sat you on the toilet and he ran his fingers through your hair, drying it.
“Can we put the pink dye in now?” You asked, a glimmer of hope in your eye.
“We usually have to wait at least a day,” Chenle started, but soon gave in to your pleading puppy-dog eyes. “Although our stylist always dyes our hair right after it’s been bleached, so it should be fine.”
Chenle went through the whole process again with the pink dye, and you managed to make it through another episode of your show before you jumped in the shower for the second time. This time, when you emerged with your hair sopping wet, a proud smile graced Chenle’s features.
“What?” You questioned as he pulled you out, starting to dry your hair with the blow dryer. Once all the water was out, Chenle spun you around to the mirror above the sink and your hand automatically rose to cover your gaping mouth.
“Oh my god, Chenle! This looks so amazing,” you cried as you turned your head to the side, examining your pastel pink strands of hair. “I didn’t realise you’d be so good at dyeing my hair.”
“Of course I would be,” he replied, grinning as if it was nothing. “Maybe now I should bring back my pink look and we can be matching!”
♡dear y/n, i’m writing you this letter in the hopes that it gets to you well. our relationship has been tumultuous, that’s for sure, and i thought it was high time i wrote you a letter detailing all the times you said “i love you” that are important to me.
genre:chenle x reader, angst, fluff, supernatural!chenle, vampire!chenle
warnings:violence, blood/gore, death (of animals), guns, general vampirism
The first time you said “I love you”, I thought I was going to have to kill you.
That night we first met, I was not in a good state. My family had recently been forced to move from the commune we had called home for twenty years by your kind, and we were essentially on the run in search of a new, friendlier place to stay. Because we were vampires, my family could only travel efficiently during the night and so we were tired and very, very hungry. My mother, older brother, and I had managed to find a dingy little abandoned warehouse to stay in and we’d been taking turns to go out and feed on the wildlife near our new home. When I met you, I was scouring the forest for something to eat. A deer, a rabbit, a fox - I would eat literally anything at this point. Shit, even a frog would have been enough to sustain me until my family joined the vampire commune rumoured to be near your city.
Running almost blindly through the forest due to the large trees blocking out any moonlight, I had picked up the scent of what I assumed to be a wild deer and was doing my best to catch up to it while working on extremely low levels of energy. As a half-vampire, my senses were not as strong as a pure vampire even when they were functioning at normal capacity, let alone when I had been starving for days. I’d never ever been this hungry before in my whole life - I could feel my vision clouding and the bloodlust taking over my mind, pure adrenaline and craving coursing through my veins.
After a few moments the deer was within my sights and a couple of seconds later I was close enough to pounce on top of it and send us both rolling through the damp forest floor. The poor creature had no idea what was happening - one second it was standing peacefully alone and the next it was being chased by an inhuman creature, unaware of what its fate would be. Trust me, I did feel guilty killing the poor thing, as I’d only ever fed off of willing mortals at the old commune. But as my fangs sunk into the deer’s neck and its hot blood flowed into my mouth, down my throat, and to every fibre of my being, remorse was the last thing I was feeling.
Johnny: Pours soda in a cup of ice but one of the ice cubes has a fake roach in it and he’s awaiting your reaction.
Taeyong: You just asked for water and he made a five course meal.
Yuta: Pours a glass of red wine and jokes about how it looks like blood. And tells a story lie about how he use to go to blood drinking parties.
Doyoung: Gives you the best looking glass of ice water with a slice of lemon
Kun: Makes a mug of coffee and brings you croissant.
Ten: Brings you the strongest margarita you’ve ever had while he drinks the rest from the blender with a straw.
Jaehyun: Tosses you a warm beer straight from the box.
Winwin: Brought out two Capri Suns and puts your straw in it for you.
Jungwoo: He carried two cups of juice along with a plate of cookies. He held one cup in his mouth and accidently gave you the cup that was half full and in his mouth.
Mark: Brings you a cold store brand soda with a mcdonald’s straw from the drawer full of McDonald’s straws and condiments.
Lucas: Passes you a 2 liter bottle of sprite he just drank out of.
Xiaojun: Brings two cups of lemonade but he was holding bella while pouring the lemonade in the cups and now there’s dog hair in your lemonade.
Hendery: He drank it on his way to you and had to go back and get you more in the same cup he drank out of.
Renjun: Pours evian water in a glass of ice with lemon slices and spring of mint on the rim with a glass straw and short bread cookies on the side.
Jeno: Pours sprite into a glass of ice at the table and puts a bendy straw in it.
Haechan: He’s waiting for you to bring him a drink.
Jaemin: Makes two ice coffees in cups big enough to be vases. And brings a plate full of sweets.
Yangyang: He was holding two cups of juice and took a sip of his then thought you had too much and took a sip of yours then took a sip of his to even it out. By the time he got to you there was just an ounce left.
Shotaro: Pours a non alcoholic cocktail into a pineapple with a silly straw and tiny umbrella.
Sungchan: Gives you a bottle of chocolate milk and bag chips.
Chenle: Leaves for a bit and comes back with an assortment of beverages and snacks.
Jisung: Brings out two juice boxes and two sandwiches Jaemin made and cut into triangles.
