#codependence
in my mind’s eye, you’re frozen
in time, in place
not even revolving, never evolving
taxidermied, preserved, stuffed
until the next time we meet,
face to face
and you ask me to reassure you,
learn you all over again
this time:
i see you
you look soft and spiky,
like a tumbleweed
happier drifting with the wind
and your thorns
but when you latch on
to your chosen rock,
they’re stuck with you,
more often than not…
because you’re endearing,
as much as you’re wearying.
again, you ask me to reassure you
i hear you
you said: i’m ready to bloom
and i said: let me take a step back,
and you can have the room
and i wait
it seems i’m always waiting on you
to let go, to latch on
to latch on to me, preferably…
ha!
instead, i see you grow
i hear you, and i know
it’s my problem, not yours
but
i’d like to cultivate my roses, too
and i can’t do that
if i’m letting you still my room,
waiting on you to see me
and the space that i need.
I’ve been deeply heartbroken for two years. I’ve faced a lot of pain, negativity, deceit, and darkness. I fell in love with a married person who didn’t love me back and who I thought was my twinflame , I felt deeply manipulated by somebody who considered themselves a “friend”, I moved home and faced domestic abuse from the narcissistic tendencies of my family, I questioned my sanity, and I miraculously found my way out of it all.
I have felt locked up, unable to share this with the world. But now is that time. Here’s my truth. Please watch my video. Link is in my bio or can be found here for outside platforms: https://www.youtube.com/XBrittney89
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Every time you choose to take more of your power back, it creates a wave. That wave will be felt by many people. Some may even consider your move toward self-empowerment and freedom an act of aggression upon them. It’s not. These people need to find their own power within. It’s not your duty to bleed yourself dry for anyone else. It’s not your job to make them feel more comfortable. This doesn’t serve their self-empowerment either.
Don’t ever feel bad about setting healthy boundaries or walking away from a negative situation. If this feels like where you’re at, start by building up your self worth, and quietly find ways to feel more safe. Strengthen your confidence and clarity. Know undoubtedly that you deserve the absolute best of life.
Your relationship dynamics and behaviour will change naturally as you shift how you see yourself. You may find yourself becoming more angry as you see how much nonsense you’ve been tolerating. That’s completely normal. You deserve better, and it’s not wrong to know it.
You can use your anger to move out of feeing stuck, to find your power and your voice, but don’t get sucked in to the violence. Keep moving through anger toward the type of power that brings you peace and knowing. Let the old cycles die.
