#codependent
I’ve been deeply heartbroken for two years. I’ve faced a lot of pain, negativity, deceit, and darkness. I fell in love with a married person who didn’t love me back and who I thought was my twinflame , I felt deeply manipulated by somebody who considered themselves a “friend”, I moved home and faced domestic abuse from the narcissistic tendencies of my family, I questioned my sanity, and I miraculously found my way out of it all.
I have felt locked up, unable to share this with the world. But now is that time. Here’s my truth. Please watch my video. Link is in my bio or can be found here for outside platforms: https://www.youtube.com/XBrittney89
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Holding space. The haven I had created for myself slowly withered away when I became entangled with you. I felt safe at first, but soon the vulnerability became overwhelming. I felt myself restructuring the walls around my heart. Stronger than they were before. Impenetrable. By the time I had noticed that my walls were back up and twice the size they used to be, I had fallen so far away from the person I thought I was. I don’t recognize the girl in the mirror staring back at me. The only time I feel comfortable is when I am completely alone. I become someone else when I am with other people. I love the person that I am when I am alone. I know what I want, I know what I like, I think I know who I am. As soon as another person is in the picture it’s like I forget who I am, and I mutate into these unrecognizable versions of myself. I don’t even know who I am when I’m with you. I hate who I become when I’m with you. It’s like all of the inner work I’ve done just disappears and I’m a wounded little girl again. I become a monster who can’t control their emotions, let alone feel them.
One of my obscure show recommendations: I Love Bekka & Lucy. It’s a dramedy about two codependent best friends in their early 30s, and it will have you in fucking stitches. It’s created and written by a black woman (Rachel Holder), led by two black women (Jessica Parker Kennedy, aka Max from Black Sails, and Tanisha Long). And it’s just a criminally underrated series. It won an emmy (Outstanding Actor In A Short Form Comedy Or Drama Series). And yeah, I mean, it’s truly obscure- there’s no fucking wiki page for it lol. Got an 8.3 on IMDb. You can find the show on YouTube.
