Dawn of Realization

I woke up today at 4 am after a restless night of changing positions and ocassional pondering over weird scenarios with a frantic inner monologue as they unfold. The pessimist in me went on a ramapage but only after looking at my cracked window. Looking at it i thought, how fragile it is, like our lives. We could easily be damaged, whether it is through our personal relationships, or a loss of a beloved being from our lives. Even small things have a lasting impact on our thinking and affects our concentration to do other things. I thought about my life and its many cracks which is still yearning for light to enter and shine its darkest corners. Somewhere out there in the world there are people who are completely shattered and may have lost all hope for any light. I wonder what those people feel who beg to live for a day or two. Those who are already born with cracks. These cracks may never mend but it has made it possible for some light to enter. Hardships and unbearable moments are a part of this chaos called life. I wonder who or what is going to fix these cracks. But it’s also possible that you won’t ever grow into the person you hoped to become without these cracks. I guess i’ll have to wait. It is all there is to life; wait. Wait for that glimmer of light. Sometimes i ask myself, is it even worth it? You always have a fear of unknown and death. You never know who or whats going to hurt you and take you to a certain despair and anguish state, a lostness of the human condition. Who or whats gonna make you happy, though it happens rarely(in my life).The inexorable passage of time does not care about your good or bad moments, it just passes and takes you along. It is the human desire and hope which form a basis for human struggle and suffering.In the famous words of William Irvine, it is desire which animates life, ‘Banish desire from the world and you get a world of frozen beings who have no reason to live and no reason to die.’ Hopes and desires are personal aspects of human life, and it is these desires that tell us to wait a little longer. But for now i am just waiting at my balcony for that sun to rise.