So, recently I’ve realized something. Sometimes on things such as iFunny, Tumblr, Vine, etc. there’s posts saying reblog/repost/revine/repub if you are/wish/etc. ____. Now for a lot, I would reblog/repost/revine/repub because it includes me. But I don’t. That’s because I am afraid to. I feel if I do, shitstorms will come my way. No, it’s not even if I feel I do, it’s I know it will. People commenting on all my posts (or sending anon hate through asks) telling me to kill myself, trying to ban me even though I did nothing, insulting me until I can’t bear it. And many people will say “Just ignore it.” “Block the person.” “Delete the comment.” But I can’t ignore it when that’s all that I can see on my notifications and I can’t block the person or people will call me a pussy and I can’t delete the comment or they’ll just come right back saying “Deleting my comment won’t get your parents to love you.”. You might think that it’s stupid to let internet hate get to you and they’re just kids hiding behind a screen trying to be cool, and I’d say the same, but it’s not the truth. Every little word, every little insult, every little hate comment, every little “kys” “drink bleach” “remember kids, down the block not across the street” takes something away from me. They hurt. They leave me feeling just a little more empty. It leaves me afraid to show who I am, unable to be proud of what I’m like, forcing me to dump everything that makes me me and joining bandwagons and being like everyone else just so I won’t have to deal with people crushing me. It should not have to be that way. I’m even afraid to tell some of my bestest and closest friends what I am, what I like, how I roll, just because I can’t get it out of my mind that they’ll leave me. They’ll judge me. They’ll try to change me. They’ll be disgusted. I’m afraid I’ll be alone because everyone I love will think I’m a freak/weird/a faggot/etc. I know I’m not the only one who faces this problem. Hiding in the shadows due to fear. Hating on their own fandom/interests/sexuality/etc. just so people don’t make any assumptions. There’s so many people I know who are terrified of people, of society, of themselves.
People look at the bad parts of things, whatever it is. So, those who aren’t the bad parts of everything, are automatically assumed to be part of it when they come out. I hate being ashamed of myself, my interests, everything. But it’s how I am. I just want to say, despite me giving some people hate. Despite me trying to hide myself. Please, don’t be ashamed of what you are. Whether it’s your sexuality, your gender identity, maybe you’re in a fandom that most people hate. Whether you’re a feminist or an offensive or anything or anyone, don’t be afraid. I can’t say the same about others, but I won’t judge you. I understand if some don’t want to come out. I’m not making you. I’m simply lending an ear to those who want to talk or confess. I want to make people feel better about what they are, because not everyone has someone who will.
It’s not pastel but still needs to get out there!!! ~Leo
i can’t get my shit together after watching second chapter i want to die cause of this gay drama i love theese boys so much they deserved better :’’’’( *ugly crying*
“Hey, boys, ready to try again? He he. I saw what happened to your last beers when you were playing hold it with those cute girls. But I’m sure they’d love to give you a rematch any time!”
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