#my heart huuuurts
Time for a little vent post
It hurts so much that the girl I like replaced me so easily. She finds out her other friend likes her and the next day it’s like nothing ever happened between us. We talk every day like everything is normal but every time she brings her friend up and gushes about them it hurts more each time. I know her and I would never work out anyway because long distance doesn’t work for me and I don’t think it works for her either. But fuck it hurts seeing her liking someone else as if her and I weren’t acting like we were dating weeks ago. She doesn’t even know how much it hurts because I don’t want to be a jerk. I feel like I’m not allowed to be upset. But fuck was I really that easy to replace? I think I jinxed myself at my last therapy session, “things are getting better I think” well this is the exact opposite of better.
..now confirmed, the monster baracaded himself into an empty classroom that was attached to another, which was full of children and two teachers, celebrating attendance and honor roll, as they were 48 hours from summer vacation.
in specific words and context, let me repeat, SPECIFIC WORDS AND CONTEXT, the monster approached the full classroom, and said “You’re going to die.” He then proceeded to successfully massacre, slaughter, and mow down every individual in that classroom, killing every individual in that classroom.
Over 223 rounds were found in that classroom, meaning he also successfully massacred their faces and heads and bodies to the point where all that was left were chunks and pieces. Meaning, parents last night, had to have their DNA sampled, so forensics could properly identify all body pieces appropriately with their appropriate kin.
i don’t want to hear one fucking word about IML, or your summer body, or your conservative values and rights. get your ass up out of your selfish, egotistic life, and get your ass volunteering and educating and doing something. am i the only fucking white person alive who gives a shit and who does things besides share a photo or send my thoughts and prayers?!? (btw i actually send prayers, i did the full rosary 5 times yesterday, which takes just about 5 hours total). so fuck your “prayers.”
i stand with the victims soooo much, and weep for them and their families. the Latino and Latina community is so special and SO DEAR to me. they are a major influence in my life and in my past. i cannot stop weeping for these innocent angels and weep for how they will be forgotten and just another two-week cover story. they were gunned down worse than cattle yesterday. they were gunned down worse than a shotgun board on a shooting range yesterday. it’s time to give these children some fucking respect and some real fucking change.
that’s all.
#uvaldetexas #uvaldeschoolshooting #UvaldeMassacre #TeAmo #IRememberYou #myhearthurts
Cruel universe; I’ll never be worthy of you.
