Just thinking about how my beloved was my first kiss <3 hehe (◕ᴗ◕✿)

pretty weapon to kill rivals with! <3

Please give me MORE of your love I need it; your love is more addictive to me than any drug.

love me more love me more love me more

tonight, You belong to Me.

I’ve started making an irl shrine and omg I’m obsessed with it <3

I can’t wait to watch my darling sleep every night ~

The look on his face so pretty, I’ll take soooo many pictures hehe ~

I’ll do anything to save you baby, even if it hurts me. You’re worth any price, any pain, and I’m willing to endure it all for you <3

I’m obsessed with my bf he makes me so happy and I just want to cuddle him and kiss his face over and over again until he knows he’s mine and only mine~

Love me darling, like I’ve never been loved before ❤️

Me and my beloved be like ღ

I want to feel that burning passion to do things for him again, all for him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him, him. ♡

Why is it always this way? Why cant I make the most important person to me happy? Why cant I make everything better? Why do I feel like its all my fault.. Am I a bad boyfriend? Am I a burden? I make everything worse and worse dont I? No matter how hard I try Ill never be good enough,, Why cant I even make You smile, why cant I make You happy to be here.. It always goes like this.. Am I being selfish? Am I not doing enough? I can do more.. You know I can do more.. Just tell me what and Ill do it.. Please dont leave me.. I cant be left alone.. Do You want me to cut my arms? Will that make it better again? Please tell me how to make it better.. Why didnt You tell me sooner.. I dont want to be a bad boyfriend.. Please let me help.. Please.. How can I make it all better? So that You wont feel this way..? Youre my everything.. Dont take it away from me..

Without You Im nobody.. Without You I dont want to live.. Youre my only purpose in life.. I cant live with the thought that You dont want me anymore, with the thought that I hurt You like others did.. Please.. Please I want to make it better again..

I want to rip open Your ribcage and get inside that way You wont get rid of me. You wont be able to escape as our blood vessels connect. Ill hammer it into Your head if I have to.

I wonder if they realize that all the bruises and little cuts I have are made for them~

I cant lose you.. If I see him around you ever again. I am going to change my career path and become a snuff film producer just to make a special 5+ hour special with that gross maggot. Ill make sure to get my message across to whoever would try to get close to you just like he tried.

My intrusive thoughts have been getting way worse and its all because of that stupid little bitch still being there.. Its like salt in a wound, it burns.. Thats why I strongly believe he has to die. I want him gone. Do you understand that?

Its such a pleasant feeling to make something for the person you love, and put your whole heart in it.. Literally.. And they love it~!<3

Written on 14/02/22

Darling..

I would have rotted all the way to my bones. I wouldve cough up blood and vomit out my organs.. My skin would feel so cold and numb,, A true lifeless husk walking amongst men.. But you, my Darling, you give me purpose. You, Sunshine, make my life have a true meaning. Everything I have is because of you, my Love.

Nothing else holds any meaning to me, others are just a waste of space. Only you matter, it was always you who was important to me. Your presence makes my eyes glow and my heart fall into a palpitating mess.. To me, youre way more than a person I love. Its not just love, its obsession. A sick desire. I need to have you.

How is it that I cry each time I thank you for always being with me. Why do I break down into a sobbing, pathetic little thing while thinking just how lucky I am to have you all for myself.. I simply cant believe how overwhelmingly happy you make me. Its hard to not get filled with pure euphoria when I see a message from the one I love so dearly.

Sometimes I think of a way to hold you closer to my heart without splitting my ribs apart and forcing you to hold my heart close to yours so they can beat together in sync.. Thank you for spending each day with me and making this Valentines Day the most special Ive ever had. I cant wait for more days, as every second with you is a pure blessing my love.

I love you.

I just want to be good enough for you,, Is that what I have to do to make you notice me.. To make you care about me..? If thats really what it takes to be loved by you then Ill do it.. I want to be in your arms so bad,, I need you to come to me and tell me that you need me just as much as I need you.. Please come to me,, Ill try my best not to disappoint you,, I really just want your love.. Why cant you see that? Darling please.. Dont make me beg,,

Say,, Do you even think about me throughout your day? Do you wonder what Im doing? Do you think if Im okay? Because I think about you all the time,, thats why I did what I did.. Because I was thinking about you,, I did it all for you my love..

Im so sorry for having bad days,, Im sorry for being sad,, Ill try to not do that again, just please promise me that youre not mad at me.. I want to see you smile, I want you to be happy that youre next to me.. Darling please..

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Darling,, you know I want you only for myself.. But you should belong to me, my dear, thats how it should be.. Call me a stupid, selfish idiot for thinking this way, as long as you put “my” in front of it..<3

You know how much I adore when you call me all those sweet things.. To you its probably not even a big deal, huh? I know Im just a nobody,, But you still care so much about me.. That must mean something, right?

Right? Tell me Im not being delusional.. Please..

I want to give you flowers, I want to spend hours writing letters for you and send you paragraphs on how important you are to me.. I really need you..I know I tell you that you mean so much to me a lot but do you really understand that I mean it? Do you know to what degree I care about you? Can you imagine what I mean when I say I would doanything for you? Youre always so sweet to me.. Do I truly deserve you? Heh.. Even if I dont.. I wont let you go now. I will never let you leave. Its not like youd ever want to leave me in the first place, right?<3

Do you really think you can just leave whenever you want? Do you really think Ill let you just go whenever you please? Darling, dont be fucking stupid.. Dont make me do things we both might regret.. You dont want me to lock you up, do you?

You know Im not the person to negotiate.. Especially not when it comes to my most precious gem.. I told you numerous times, you cant leave my dear. I refuse to be left alone again. I refuse to just let you walk around without a thought.. You need to understand only I am good for you, Ill never hurt you.. Ill be the best for you! I promise! Just dont try to leave.. Or else Ill cut your legs so you wont run..

Make the right choice my love..

You really make me feel wanted.. Like Im not just some nobody.. That I actually matter to you, the person I care so deeply for..I cant help but craveyou..Maybe I shouldnt feel this way.. Is it wrong? Do you want me? Im not just delusional.. Right?

You said Im special.. I cant believe you actually think that way about me.. Youll make me cry.. Please stay by my side.. I feel like without you Ill just fall apart.. I need you..

Promise youre not like others.. Promise you wont just use me, get bored and leave me..

I dont think Im able to take being left alone again..

I will die without you, darling. <3

How can I possibly not be jealous over everybody that has ever been near you..

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Fuckfuckfuck what did you do to me.. Why do I feel like this around you?! WHY AM I LIKE THIS WHEN YOURE AWAY?? WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO ME?! I cant function without you.. I cant fucking think of anything else.. Only you.. Is this what insanity tastes like? Or maybe its just dependence.. Or even desperation,, I am desperate for your love.. I need it.. I need you. Its not okay to be this selfish is it? I cant have you completely to myself.. BUT I WANT TO AND I WONT STOP UNTIL I GET WHATS ALREADY MINE~ My head was spinning so bad today~! I feel like Im intoxicated on you..! I love you! Uh.. Where are you my dear.. Oh yes, youre asleep.. I told you to go to sleep.. And youre my sunshine, of course you listened.. Today.. I was thinking a lot.. About you, us and love.. I came to a simple conclusion. You, my love, are the only one who can calm me down.. Thank you<3

You called me your cute little puppy.. You called me your good boy.. You will make my heart explode darling! You said you love when I talk about you! That you love me!!! You said that I cant even think of leaving you or youll hurt me! Youre so sweet! You want me all for yourself! Ah please say that over and over! You want to lock me up away from everybody! Make me dependant of you! Make me think only about you! Make me yours forever my love!! Youre so perfect for me!

Did.. Did you just confess to me? Say it again.. Those 3 magic words.. You cant possibly mean it in a romantic way! Dont get my hopes up!.. But you mean it? You do? You really do? You blocked him? Like I told you? You did it because I told you to do it.. Hehe.. You love me, you really do.. Ah you called me sweet.. That you want to protect me.. Be mine then, be mine forever.. Ah you finally told me how you feel ny darling, you did!! My sweet you have no idea how happy you just made me! Please keep me as yours for the end of time and longer. I love you too darling! I love you I really do!

Now promise you will stay with me forever. I will keep you close to my heart.