Warnings - Not literal Infidelity, but they are on the verge of it. Mentions of alcohol abuse, Mentions of Self harm. (There are no heavy triggers, only slight mentions of it.) The warnings are limited to the first few chapters. It gets better i promise)
Summary - Love is indeed a beautiful feeling, but does not come without its obstacles. When your 7 loving, idol boyfriends think it’s better to date someone within the industry or like they put it “Someone who knows their world”, you have no choice but to accept their abrupt decision. Time goes by and you think you’re doing just fine, One long lost dream, One given up identity and one drunk mistake and a few clicks is all it takes until the limelight falls on you and living your life behind a camera is an option no longer available.
This post is long over due, tea pictures are sooo incredibly hard to take, i guess i’m just not close to being an actual photographer yet.
This is a north viet/yunnan mix of puerh tea, retaining the yunnan puerh classic earthy taste, while the smoothness of the north viet pu erh. Aged for roughly 10 years, the aged taste is evident in this tea. Can’t wait to taste this in another 20 years.
And then suddenly you missed doing the things that you do. #art #art #arttherapy #fashion #fashionillustration #fashiondrawing #drawing #fashionista #overdue #ladygaga #davidbowie #grammys #2016#igers #instamood
She used to be rather reserved and demure. Rarely did she show an excess of skin, and often worked out in her little home gym. Now, at a hefty 44 weeks with twins, she’s really come out of her shell! Maybe it was the hormones, maybe it was the way her partner oogled at her huge belly, or maybe she just really likes being pregnant… but now, she jogged outside, midriff bared for all to see. She often got very positive comments from other joggers, and even the occasional interested hand on her belly. She didn’t mind as long as they asked first. Only time would tell if her confidence would stay after giving birth.
This is the only top that fits me anymore… it’s supposed to be a dress! It’s supposed to go down to my knees! I don’t know what I’m supposed to do?! I was due 3 months ago but I’m still growing! I can barely get up the stairs anymore… and I’m eating myself out of house and home… The other day I made a cream cheese and rotisserie chicken sandwich! Sure it was… half because of cravings, but it was also half because that’s all I had to eat! Going grocery shopping is just so much effort, and it’s only getting harder… I hope I can give birth soon…
Another day, another inch to her waistline… or at least that’s how she felt. Being 60 weeks with a singleton was no easy feat, especially when the kicks and squirms are all the stronger. Being pregnant by time-and-a-half was miserable. Her feet were constantly swollen, even when propped up, and while she was always hungry, her stomach was so squished she couldn’t fit more than a few bites, leaving her constantly grazing. She felt and looked huge, and she couldn’t remember the last time she sat with her legs together. She sighed and eyed her belly, wondering if it would be empty before she hit the two year mark…
This character is a combination of 氵 water and 帶/帯 belt. 帯 is a phonetic element signaling the on’yomi, but is also lending its own connotation of “contain/restrict,” and here carries a meaning of “stop.” With 氵 this gives “a flow of water stopped and unmoving.” It has come to mean “stop/stagnate” in a general sense.
Hi sweet baby girl! We are anxiously awaiting your arrival. It’s so strange playing the wait game. I know this may sound crazy, but the longer you are in there, the more scary things seem.
I want you in my arms, I want to look into your face, feel your breath, I want our worlds to finally collide!
You are clearly on your own time lol. Momma and auntie Bear have attempted every so-called home remedy to naturally induce labor and you, my child, are not having any part of it.
So before I get the amazing pleasure of meeting you face-to-face, I wanted to take the time to tell you of our love story.
We spent Christmas of 2013 back at momma’s second home, Daddy’s first, in St. Lucia. It was there that Daddy and I knew we wanted you. We spoke you into existence. You were thought about, wished for and planned.
I still remember the moment I found out I was carrying you, I remember the shock, the excitement, the happiness. I remember the love.
Instantly I fell in love with you. Before I ever laid eyes on you, before I ever even heard your heartbeat, I loved you completely.
I will ALWAYS love you completely. I will always see you, I will always hear you, and it will ALWAYS mean something to me.
This world can be a big scary place, often hard to navigate. Lucky for you you were blessed with a daddy who has the patience of a saint and a mommy who is never afraid to speak up for what is right. I hope like hell you inherit my spirit, and daddy’s logic.
Last night I was so excited. My contractions picked up and we headed to the hospital, even our midwife thought you would be making your appearance. I walked like crazy all the while telling you how much I wanted to meet you, but snuggled inside of me, so close to my heart, seems to be your comfort zone right now.
I love you little girl so very much, but I will continue to wait until you are ready. Just know that Mommy, Daddy and big sister MJ couldn’t be more excited to bring you home and love you up.
Life’s only real requirement, baby girl, is that you breathe. So just breathe baby girl…and breathe easy! The rest you will learn, you will be taught, you will be amazing.
I wish for you so much laughter. Those kind of laughs that make you scream at the same time and lead to tears flowing.
I dream for you a spirit of integrity, a fighter’s spirit.
I hope for you life lessons that never break you but serve to help you grow and become better.
I pray for you everyday, for your happiness and your health.
I want for you love on every level, the obvious unconditional love from me and daddy, a sisterly love with MJ, a soul-mate love like I have with Auntie Bear and even the scream it from the mountain top type of love that Mommy has for Daddy.
I need for you to recognize your self worth, to understand the impact that you can make on people and the world. It’s a choice little girl. You can be someone who is content with just going a long for the ride, or you can be the master of your own fate -staying attentive to the journey and actively participating.
I’d love for people to always treat you amazing, I am terrified of the thought of seeing you hurt or sad. Inevitably it will happen though, please don’t let people steal your sunshine. Understand that YOU decide what can and can’t affect you.
Yes, even when people try to break your spirit, keep on loving, keep on caring, just keep on and remember that what you put out, is always going to come back.
So put out positivity, put out love, put out intelligence, put out handwork and dedication, put out faith and hope.
Sometimes the world and people will seem overbearing. In those moments I hope you take the time to sit in silence and just let life speak to you. Listen to your heart, your mind. Now I will be perfectly honest and tell you that sometimes there is a disconnect between what the heart feels and what the mind thinks, but always trust your gut. Listen to your intuition it will NEVER lead you astray.
I want you to know that you are pre approved! We are waiting for you, ready to love you, naturally we are already in love with every thing that you are.
So as you continue to take your time. Sweet girl just know that I’m on the other side waiting. Ready to be for you whatever you need of me. Daddy is here too! He can’t wait to hold you close and make you laugh. Big sister MJ talks about you daily. She spends so much time rubbing and kissing my belly, she can’t wait to make you her best friend for life.
Take your time baby girl, but we are more than ready for you. The world is ready for you! You may not know it yet, it may take you a very long time to comprehend it, but I will always be here to remind you that you my child will change the world!
