Hello everyone, ik. I haven’t been active as much and the truth is that i have lost a lot of passion and for a ling time, a connection with J. I dont selfship with him anymore, tho i miss being here. Tbh i have been gone so long idk where to start posting again. What should i do? I might doa face reveal on here bc u know what, im not so embarrassed of this account as i used to be.
About what has happened with me: i haven’t been doing so hot. My mental state has become very dark. I’ve started to selfharm and restrict food. I have started to listen to more music and watch fewer films. Tbh my world has revolved around The Cure. I dont do much outside of the cure anymore. Tho i miss Patrick. He’s been reaching out. I can feel him. Still. Eric too. Sorry i have been away from this account for so long.
I think the next thing i will post will be an edit. If u guys are interested i might post a mix of cure content, joker, eric, and patrick stuff.
I miss Heath. I’ve never met him so it’s a bit stupid to miss somone you’ve never met, but i do. I get in these moods somtimes and it sucks because for a few days I miss him and wish he was still alive. Not that i dont wish he wasn’t alive, its just…his death hits harder on certain days. Dreaming of him last night was happy-sad. I had a dream that i met him. He was in the hospital for some reason and we talked. We talked about music movies home. He was laughing and smiling the entire time. It was nice seeing him genuinely happy. I told him how happy i was to see he was alive. He just smiled. I had to go into another room for somthing i realized it wasn’t him. He wasn’t there, he was still dead. Suddenly i was home and the interaction never happened, it was all in my head. Somtimes I wonder if it was really him, just trying to give me hope.
To myself, you weren’t stupid. Now that I’m a few years older, I do think it could’ve been him, his happy loving spirit. It’s strange Im the same age as him. God…I’d give anything to have him back still, give him a kiss on the cheek.
Hey does anyone want any comfort character letters? I was hoping to write again and i thought it might be fun to try writing comfort character letters.
BLURB EVENT TIME!! i am free from college, i officially have a bachelor of arts in scriptwriting and a minor in film studies!! so to celebrate having all the time in the world on my hands, why not do a blurb event??
rules:
choose up to 2 prompts (can be one or two total) or send in your own, for one character. no descriptions please. also, please send the number, and not the sentence.
if you see one has been done for the person you want, select another number or person.
regarding that, if you send a number that has been sent in that i haven’t done yet (meaning it’s been requested but i haven’t posted it when you send yours) i will either choose the other prompt you selected or ask that you send another, if you only sent one.
there are 50 prompts, so please be diverse in selecting them. if you see one number has been sent in a lot, for a few different characters, please choose differently.
when it gets to the point where i am not able to think of much for the number and it has been requested for at least 3 characters, i will cross it out from the list.
requests will remain open until i say so!
some of these are from smut prompt lists, but i will not be writing smut. steamy and suggestive, yes, but no smut.
people to request for:
josh kiszka
danny wagner
patrick verona
derek hale
paul lahote
jacob black
embry call
seth clearwater
prompts:
“you’re so important to me.”
“i know you’re mad at me, but will a kiss change your mind?”
“god, i miss you so much.”
“i can’t believe you’re all mine.”
“i hate you.”
“i had a nightmare about you and wanted to make sure you were okay.”
“why are you pushing me away?”
“no, don’t cry, i hate when you cry.”
“you’re perfect to me.”
“your eyes are so beautiful.”
“your lips are so soft. i could kiss you all day.”
“i think i might be falling in love with you.”
“no no, it’s alright, come here.”
“no, please, don’t leave.”
“are you jealous?”
“we need to talk.”
“spend the night with me.”
“this is a one time thing.”
“each of my thoughts about you are improper.”
“don’t give me that look.”
“i’ve never done this before.”
“would you shut up and kiss me already.”
“the first one to make a noise loses.”
“tell me what you want.”
“we’re not just friends and you fucking know that!”
“friends don’t do this kind of shit.”
“i really want to kiss you right now.”
“no one can ever find out about this.”
“let’s go somewhere a little more private.”
“i like you a lot. i just thought you should know.”
“please, just go.”
“say it one more time.”
“please just talk to me about it.”
“i would do anything for you.”
“does he know about the baby?”
“i love you and i am terrified.”
“you’re trembling.”
“i’m not going anywhere.”
“i can’t keep kissing strangers and pretending that they’re you.”
“you’ve thought about this, haven’t you?”
“we need to talk about what happened last night.”
“how much of that did you hear?”
“i should have told you a long time ago.”
“i tried to move on, but there’s a problem. they’re not you.”
“i don’t remember a fight or a reason, so what happened? why did we break up?”
“i love being with you like this.”
“come to bed. i can’t sleep without you next to me.”
