#rainbowbridge
Our baby Lenny will live forever in our mind, heart, and soul. He became a part of who we are as a family, who I was as a person, and helped me, his loyal cat momma to love and see joy again. His life was way too short. But he lived it more richly and expressively than anyone I have ever seen. May you live forever with God, Lenny. We will miss your shenanigans and fun loving spirit most of all. Until we meet again, our sweet loving boy.
We will be with you until the end. That just one of the promises we made you, Lenny. Every loved one deserves to feel and know love as they pass from this world, especially you. We consider it a true blessing we were able to be there for you as you left this world. Some people aren’t that lucky. We showered you with kisses and whispers of I love you, soft pets and ear scratches. We made crystal clear to your care team and doctor that life is the most important thing we have in this world. We could not let him make it final without giving the chance for God’s miracle. They do happen, we have experienced them. But, it was an instant understanding that you were ready to go home. With the tilt of the head, we gave a simple nod and you left us peacefully, quietly as we held your hand, hugged you, kissed your head (times 1000+), and whispered I love you for enternity. It does not get easier as the days pass. We just miss you more…
Couldn’t love anyone more.
The other side of goodbye
I have to tell you
‘Thank you’
.
This world without you
I meet you
had kind eyes
My dear friend
.
It’s always in my dreams
In my mind
.
さよならの向こう側
僕は君に伝えなくちゃ
’ありがとう’って
.
君のいないこの世界で
君と逢う
優しい瞳の僕の友達
それはいつも夢の中
心の中
.
. 『Torasan’s memories ④』寅さんの思い出
Your thoughts
A wish that rises to the space
its carried away by the centrifugal force
of the earth
.
Like dust floating in the space
Where is it wandering?
.
Or is it being left behind by gravity?
.
You’re crying all alone
.
If you could just be there
I wouldn’t miss you
you just have to be there
.
Universal gravitation play a prank
Even though every time we pull apart
stays with you
My heart
.
あなたの想い
上昇した願いは
遠心力で宙にながされる
.
宇宙のどこを彷徨っているの?
.
それとも重力が置き去りにしているのかな
.
あなたは一人で泣いている
.
そこに居てくれたら
僕は決して見逃さないのになぁ
そこに居てくれればいいんだ
.
万有引力のいたずら
引き合うたびに離れていっても
心はいつも傍に居る
Nobody still knows
That time is eternal.
unusually quiet
A cold day
Angel’s Ladder
only feel your body heat
The world is
just you and me
your body
fur
cell
preparing to be reborn
Time have stopped
Leave a mark
like the meteor
Fall into the future,
and dwell in the here and now
Repeat
Whispers of life
Nobody still knows
あの時間は永遠だと
まだ誰も知らない
.
異常に静かで
寒い日の
天使のはしご
.
体温だけ感じる
世界は君と私だけ
.
君の体の
毛の一本一本が
細胞が
生まれ変わる準備をする
.
時間が止まった.
隕石のように
痕を残して
未来の
今ここに宿る
.
繰り返す
命のささやき
まだ誰も知らない
——–
Long time no see. everyone ^^
This is a painting I drew for the anniversary of Gonta’s death on the 13th of this month. I was surprised that the function of tumblr has changed drastically. I’m busy, but I’m drawing a new picture now. Tumblr also wants to update the pictures I drawn so far little by little.
お久しぶりです。皆様お元気ですか?ここのところ久しぶりにtumblrを触りながら、皆様のところにお邪魔させていただいてます。。機能も色々変わったなあとびっくりびっくり。全貌がまだよくわからんです。
こちらは今月13日ゴンタの命日のために描いた絵です。仕事忙しくてさらに新しい絵を描きながらなのでいたりいなかったりですみません。少しずつですが、またtumblrも更新、サポートできたらなあと思います。見ていただけましたら嬉しいです
When touching,
Rainbow across the sky
Please keep this in mind
心触れるとき、
虹がかかる
覚えていて
Japan was in the “Obon” season between August 13th and 15th.
Obon is a Buddhist festival in Japan to honor the spirit of our ancestors. We welcome back the spirits of the dead during Obon every year.
Gonta、Chibi、welcome back.
yes, The second cat, Chibi passed away in April of this year.
Chibi’s birthday is unknown. I think he lived about four years.
For the last two years he fought the HIV. It was a scary illness. I couldn’t do anything for him.
The fourth picture is my first oil painting. In the sunshine in the garden that Chibi loved.
Chibi, thank you for coming to my house. I miss you. You may have been less happy. but, please come back anytime.
.
日本はお盆でした。ゴンタお帰りそして、、ちびもお帰り。
今年4月、次男猫のちびはHIVで亡くなりました。誕生日は分からないままだったけど、4年ぐらいの生涯。そのうち、2年ぐらいはずっと闘病でした。
病気になってからはすべてがあっという間でした。本当に怖い病気でした。何もできなかったです。
下の絵はちびを描いた、私の初めての油絵です。^^
ちびの大好きだった庭の光の中。
ちび、うちに来てくれて有難う。今、あなたが居なくてとても寂しい。
幸せは少なかったかもしれないけれど、いつでも帰っておいで。
『Shadow of the Universe』 /Poem
for instance, summer
River sound, Hot air, Trees swaying in the wind
I stand where I was with you
A memory skittered across my mind
For a moment, I feel you, in one shadow
The shadow of summer is blacker,
Then, a hole named loneliness opens in my heart
Your body is swaying lonely in the universe
No ground, no wind, no sound
Its universe is eternal
The sun always illuminates you whimsically
beyond the empty sky,
and make a hole in my heart
Memories, if it was really LOVE,
A deeper lonely hole opens.
Inside my heart hole,
Eternal universe
And our eternity attract each other
It’s surprisingly natural
Shadows will always be here
If I accept it silently,
Wherever I’m in the world
We repeat eternity
例えば夏
川の音、鼻につく熱風、風に揺れる木々
君といた場所に立っていた
よぎる思い出
瞬間、一つの影に君を感じる
夏の影はひとしきり濃い
するとぽっかり心に孤独という名の影の穴が開く
宇宙で孤独に君の体が揺れている
風も音も地面もない
その世界は永遠
太陽はいつも気まぐれにその姿を照らし
さえぎるものが無い空を超えて
私の心に穴をあける
思い出、それが本当に愛なら、
より深い孤独の穴が開くでしょう
私の心の穴の中に永遠の宇宙
永遠はお互いを引き合う
それは自然なこと
影は必ずここにできる
黙って受入れれば
世界のどこにいても
永遠の繰り返し
“At the Rainbow Bridge”
This was an as unusual as special commission by one of my clients.
A portrait of a beloved family member with a bad diagnoses, and the place she will hopefully wait for them.
It reminded me, of what our work can do.
And I’m thankful for the opportunity.