some rare?? photos of the krays

Ted Bundy’s Volkswagen Bug after it was impounded after his arrest in 1975.

Today marks 42 years since the tragic murder of Steven Mark Hicks.

On June 18th 1978, Jeffrey Dahmer picked up 18-year-old Steven Hicks who was hitchhicking his way home from a concert in Chippewa Lake Park. On that day, Dahmer had been home alone due to the recent divorce of his parents. Years prior, Dahmer had been having fantasies of picking up a hitchhiker. That day, he saw Hicks shirtless, waiting for somebody to pick him up. Dahmer offered Hicks alcohol and pot in order to try and lure him back to his house. Hicks obliged and they went back to Dahmer’s home.

The pair drank for a while and when Hicks mentioned that he should get home before it got too dark, Dahmer got hold of a 10lb barbell, and out of the anxiety and frustration he felt over him leaving, he struck Hicks over the head twice with the barbell. He then strangled him to death with it.

R.I.P Steven Mark Hicks

(First photo enhanced by me).

Jeffrey Dahmer childhood home videos.

(sped up and music added by me)

Members of the Summit County Sheriff’s department and Bath Township police videotape pieces of evidence found at the childhood home of Jeffrey Lionel Dahmer on July 31st 1991, in Bath Township, Ohio. Authorities were looking for the remains of Steven Hicks, who was the first victim of Dahmer and was murdered on June 18th 1978.

Celebration of the execution of Theodore Robert Bundy, 24th January 1989.

lol I already posted this on instagram but the intro to the ted bundy tapes y'all-

I just finished the new Jeffrey Dahmer documentary. Y'all ever just?? feel breathless or smth after watching something some impactful like that??? I am speechless honestly-

good evening, I can’t stop fucking laughing at this i’m-

y'all…. I did a thing..

My dad ordered this for me :))

new pathetic turn-on for my virgin ass unlocked:

purposefully drooling when you play with yourself to feel the hot spit roll down your chin like it’s cum

if you’re a moot i love you and thank you for either being as horny as i am or for putting up with my horniness

*sigh*

oh woe is me, the struggles of being a whore.

just thought about getting my pottery teacher onto his knees and having him beg for me while i squeeze his face and call him a pretty boy- OH GOD THESE EDWARD NASHTON FICS ARE GETTING TO ME

i’m too tired to figure out how to make a poll but- for english i get a choice of independent reading books. which one should i readddd i can’t choose

pride and prejudice by jane austen

lolita by vladimir nabokov

love in the time of cholera by gabriel garcia marquez

please like comment which one or something i don’t know please help

i tried flirting with a girl to take my mind off of JC. not to hurt the girl, just because she seemed interested and i could see us in a relationship. but after a week, someone told her that i liked her (which is so high school like what the hell?) and she called me to tell me she didn’t feel the same. is it just not the right time for me to date someone? like what is the universe trying to tell me? i just want some sort of love or physical affection.

normalize me getting fucked!!!

i just wish jc would like find this blog, realize i was talking about her, and then either fuck the living shit out of me the next day, or take me out to dinner

I WANNA GET FUCKED SO BAD

The Menéndez Brothers who were convicted and sentenced to life in prison for the murders of their parents José and Mary Menéndez, appearing on a Mark Jackson NBA trading card. The buzz surrounding the card caused thousands to be purchased and sold online since the story broke. Their murders were so gruesome and barbaric that José and Mary were rendered unidentifiable by 15 rounds from two 12-gauge shotguns. So brutal that the police believed the killings were a mob hit. The night of the crime, the brothers told police they’d gone out that night to see a movie but had to make a pitstop to retrieve Erik’s ID. That’s when they discovered their parents’ decimated bodies and dialed 911, they said in their interviews. The officers who responded to the 911 call found Erik sobbing on the lawn before entering the crime scene. During the period between the crime and their arrests, the brothers went on to spend an estimated amount of $700,000 of their fathers fortune who was worth $14 million at the time of his death. Buying a Rolex, cars, a restaurant, clothes, a $50,000 personal tennis coach, and more. In 1988, after getting caught in a string of burglaries, Erik was required by the court to go see a therapist by the name of Dr. Jerome Oziel. Therapy sessions continued and Oziel ultimately got both brothers confessing to the murders on tape. Oziel confided in his mistress who he had a complicated relationship with. She claimed he was controlling and abusive, after allegedly attacking her she contacted the police to reveal the Menéndez Brothers confessed to their parents’ murder. The trial began in 1993, broadcasted on Court TV, the brothers claimed that the reason behind their crime was their father being emotionally abusive and molesting them since childhood. The death of their mother was to “put her out of her misery.”

Yesterday, during class, M was telling us about a little game he liked to play daily. He told us during the sectional that he played it every morning, right when he woke up to his alarm.

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Soo…just finished playing it for myself. Right after I woke up to my morning alarm. Had quite a bit of fun. Maybe I should, y’know, make this a routinely thing….but not for any reason in particular. Just, you know. Maybe.

The first day that M returned last week, I could not stop bringing him up during the car ride home while I was talking with my mother. She asked me, smiling, “If he was your age, would you go out with him?” 

And I, feeling confident and happy that day, grinned and replied, “Probably.” 

She started squealing about how I was in love and stuff, then I quickly changed the subject, haha. I guess my mom for sure knows about my feelings for him now. That’s so odd to think about. 

Day 1: Happy New Year! Any hopes for the new year? (TC or non TC related?)

I hope to get closer to M this year. I would love to have regular conversations with him like I’ve seen him have with other students. With my growth of self-confidence over the last year, I plan to initiate more casual conversations as well, so he knows that I am actually approachable. Of course, this would be when he isn’t busy, haha. 

I suppose the same could be said about W; we’ve drifted apart ever since I left the school, so I would like to be a pal to him again by the end of the year. 

Day 2: Do you have any nicknames/codenames that you call your TC? Do they have any they call you?

M does not have any nicknames for me, but I wish he did, haha. He has his own numerous nicknames based on his appearance and first name, but of course, I won’t reveal them. They’re quirky though— he loves it.  

W is just W. He called me “tuba mom” once, but that’s all I remember aside from his many weird pronunciations of my name. I have not heard of any names people have given to the guy, haha. Kids have said he looks weird and crazy though at first glance, so I’ll give him that. Some kids just haven’t gotten to know him like I have (which honestly isn’t too much!). ^^u

Day 3: Describe the moment you knew they were more than just another teacher.

I’ve explained M’s before, but to keep it brief: It was the middle of band camp. I had known M for a school year now. I was stuffing my face with a piece of bread, then everything just suddenly came to me. I thought of everything — the way he made me smile and laugh, and how he made me look forward to waking up every single day. Even how he would make fun of me if he saw me wolfing down my roll. Right then and there, I realized that this wasn’t something I’ve felt for anyone before. I realized that I loved this guy. 

I have no clue at all when I fell for W, but I think it was during virtual school. He had let out a soft giggle while we were playing a funky part of Sleigh Ride. I remember getting all giddy about it and giggling to myself behind my screen. I suppose that’s how it happened. 

Day 4: Do they decorate their classroom much? What does it look like?

M and W both have their band halls lined up with trophies on shelves, all awards from past competitions and stuff. Otherwise, it’s just a whiteboard and a plethora of music stands and chairs, as per usual. 

Their offices, though? W’s office isn’t too decorated last time I saw it, I just remembered seeing a lot of tools and jazz there. M is the complete opposite though— he has tools and stuff like pencils of course, but he also has one or two figurines, along with a couple small decorations spread about. It’s way more minimalistic than W, whose place is very messy. 

This doesn’t surprise me though. M has always been super organized. I love the way he decorates. ❤️

Happy New Year, TCC!!

Last year has been such a life-changing experience, and I am so grateful to have gone through it with you all by my side. I’ve made so many great memories with M, and that’s like pure gold to me. We have grown closer, and I have great faith that this bond will strengthen throughout the span of 2022. ❤️❤️❤️

I hope all of you have several experiences filled with happiness, contentment, and love this year. Sending wishes for great moments and interactions with all of your TCs to come as well!! Christmas break ends soon— let the crushing commence!!! Haha

I recently received a bunch of new outfits to give my wardrobe a bit more character. I’m so excited to show them off after break. I can’t help but look forward to seeing if M likes the clothing as well, since I don’t dress up like this very often. 

Hope he likes brown. :)

Oh my gosh, this is 12 days late. Pardon the wait! I am currently building the posts about seeing W to post, then I am planning to write more about a 4-day band trip out of state that I just took part in!!! 

Afterwards, I will probably keep the posts short and simple most of the time, as I would rather this blog not feel like as much of a chore as it has been. I’m sure you all understand that. I’m just here to obsess over my teacher like everyone else. Haha.

Alright, enough being said, enjoy!!

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1. Do you have more platonic or romantic feelings for them?

My feelings steer more towards romantic than platonic towards them. Especially M. 

2. Have they ever physically touched you?

YEAH!!! I get so happy and excited whenever the thought comes to mind. M has initiated a lot of shoulder and arm pats, and he’s always perfectly fine with hugs too!! It’s so sweet.

I met W during the COVID era, so we never hugged, but we have bumped fists before on the last day of school. I also took a picture with him— but that’s not quite physical touch. Haha.

3. Would you ever plan to pursue them when you graduate? (And when you’re legal if you’re a minor like me)

Ahh, if they both weren’t married and had children, I would have definitely tried to shoot my shot in a very subtle way after being well over the legal age. All that matters to me is that they are happy though. In the best case scenario, I would at least love to stay friends with them. 

4. Do you know their birthday/zodiac sign?

I DON’T??? I have no clue how I don’t know, but I’ve been wanting to figure it out for a while.

5. Do you know their favorite color?

I can assume W’s is green? I think M’s may be black or blue. I’m not exactly sure though.

6. What do they teach?

Both teach band! They are band directors.

7. Do you think you’re their favorite student?

Haha, as much as I’m smiling right now thinking about this question, I think, to some extent, they enjoy my company. They are both very nice to me and have told me many times how talented they think I am, and how nice they think I am. So sweet.

8. Are they tall, short, or average height?

M is about my height, maybe a couple inches taller— so 5′7? W is a bit taller than we are, so my guess for W’s height is 5′10. 

9. Do they have any pets?

Ohh, yes!! M has two dogs. I’ve seen them both on a Zoom meeting before, one briefly, as they were barking at the window. Haha. His other one was quite calm though. She was so cute and small. When M held her, it was so sweet. ❤️

I am not sure about W, but he seems like a dog person. So if he did have pets, they would be dogs.

10. Do you ever plan to confess your feelings to them? (Careful with this one, they could possibly lose their job or get you in trouble)

I have been debating with myself on this one. On one hand, I want to tell M at some point that I have liked him for a very long time, and that he has changed my life more than he could ever realize it. On the other hand, I don’t want to strain our relationship in a way (though it’s probably obvious nonetheless). 

M loves his wife and children, and he is the most genuine and loyal person I know. I would never want to take that away from him. If I did tell M about my feelings, I would not expect it to go anywhere by any means whatsoever. I care about M and his life more than anything, and if I jeopardized his career or marriage, I wouldn’t know what to do with myself. 

For W, I’m not too keen on telling him. I may tell him one day in passing, like “I had a small crush on you in middle school. Haha.” But honestly, I think the crush was more-so developed due to M’s absence. I do find W attractive in his own way, of course— but again, it probably kickstarted because I wasn’t used to M not being there. You know?

11. Do you know any of their talents?

M can SING. Like, he can really sing. Whenever he sings in class (not super often), his low voice is so angelic, and it could be because I’m in love with him, but I find it to be so beautiful. I adore his voice, he is stunning. He also stated himself that he is good with helping to link people together, business-wise or not. He believes he was made for that. 

This last thing is self-explanatory, but M is amazing at helping people. He can comfort you so much. He has comforted me and reassured me countless times, and just being around him is like being in a safe space. He’s like another home to me. He can teach you so much about everything too. He is so smart it’s crazy. He is such a hard worker and he does it not only for himself, but for the growth of the people around him. I look up to him so much for that. 

Haha— I typed so much for M, but W is a great teacher as well. He is very spontaneous and cheerful, and will always crack a joke to make you laugh. He is also quite smart, but he doesn’t show it all too much. He puts himself out there as a funky sort of dude, but he’s really not all that crazy. He’s good at lifting spirits. 

12. How often do you think of them?

Let’s be real— there’s almost never a time where I’m not thinking about M. He flows in my mind like water in an ocean — he just never leaves. 

I’ll think about W too, but it’s not daily. It’s weekly, to put it into terms. It’s apparent, but my feelings for him don’t measure up to my feelings for M. 

13. Have you told anybody irl about your crush?

I have told my sister about it!! I’m so grateful that she’s open to listen on and on to my ramblings. She thinks it’s cute. In some way, I have told my mother as well. She’s figured it out, but I don’t talk to her about it casually.

14. Be honest: Do you think you’re in love?

With M, there’s zero doubt— I AM in love. I have never truly fallen for someone before I met him. I constantly think about him and how much he has done for me in my life, and how much more I want to know about him. Whenever he’s gone, I wonder what he’s up to. I wonder when the next time I’ll get to see him again is. I constantly want to do everything and nothing with him; watch a movie, lay down and stare at the ceiling, try and fail to bake cookies, and the like. 

Even through his tougher moments, his faults, and his mistakes, I still truly believe he is the most perfect man ever. I am deadset on that statement. There is no one like him. There never will be. He is absolutely phenomenal. 

I really do think my feelings for W aren’t fixed. I don’t know how to label them. Love or a crush? I don’t see myself living with him forever and everything for sure, but at the same time I do find him attractive and I would love to build a relationship with him. I’m not too sure. It could be a huge crush or a little bit of love. I’ll get back to it eventually and ponder on it more. For now, I’ll keep the question open. 

15. Do they motivate you to come to school?

YES. Always. Every single day. I always get out of bed with the thought of seeing them again. And the days they’d be gone, I would still go to school, partly so I could keep working harder to make them proud in the future. It’s also for my own education and whatnot; I love them dearly, but if they’re gone I’m not going to be irresponsible. 

This feeling is the same with both M and W. They would always motivate me to wake up and attend class. 

16. Have you ever seen them cry?

I have seen M get pretty close to crying a few times. I haven’t physically seen him cry, but I hope he would eventually be open to being that vulnerable around me so I can help him feel better. I would never judge him for that. He’s seen me cry twice, and he dropped everything to make sure I was okay— so I would never have a problem with doing the same for him. (Will probably post the story of this happening eventually, when I get more time and motivation to revisit and write it all.)

W isn’t too open with his more sorrowful emotions either. If anything, he would try to mask it with dark humor. He tends to jump a lot between super energetic and super serious. There are a small handful of times I’ve seen him be genuinely serious around me, but most of the time he is upbeat. It may be a facade or his real personality. I can’t be too sure of it yet. 

17. What kind of dynamic do you guys have?

Pfft, I’m not sure. 

M and I’s dynamic isn’t too concrete, but it can be explained as follows; We are at a point with each other where we can trust each other with things, and he’s comfortable starting and carrying a chat with me. I am the same with him, and I love to poke fun at him on occasion, but not too much as to not make him think I’m ridiculing him or anything. 

In addition, he’s kind and oh so caring towards me, showering me with such lovely words of encouragement and compliments often. I am the same towards him. We’ll worry about each other; I’ll ask him if he’s okay and vise versa. I’ll buy him gifts sometimes as a token of gratitude. 

I suppose, in summary, our dynamic is “a motivational, supportive person and their appreciative, sympathetic person”, if that makes any sense.

With W, I guess it’ just the “wild, outgoing dude and the more reserved person who’s soft with them”. Haha. While I was in class with him, some may remember, but we would chat sometimes outside of, before, or after class. He would look at me when he made a joke, I would laugh. Just the simple stuff. He could trust me and I could trust him. We had fun. 

18. Have they ever caught you staring?

For sure!! Every time I start staring at them, they’ll eventually catch me. I’ll end up catching them gazing too, a lot of times…unless there are several times I haven’t, and I don’t know about it. Hahaha. The act of catching the other staring goes back and forth— but I’m usually the culprit staring at them in that scenario. 

19. What was the most embarrassing thing you’ve done in front of them? (All of us have done some pretty embarrassing stuff, let’s be honest.)

HAHA UM. With M, there’s so much I’ve done, especially when I was younger and, henceforth, way more immature. For instance, I forgot my tuba to a concert once (ended up getting it there before the performance though!). I also started a debate with M in the bus once about how he wasn’t actually bald “because he had tiny hairs on his head”. It went on for a while. It’s so embarrassing to think about. I really hope he forgot about the second occurrence mentioned above. 

Of course I have done some embarrassing things in front of W as well, but not too much comes up in my mind when I’m thinking about it. The occasional messing up in class— OH MY GOD, WHICH REMINDS ME. The one time I REALLY blasted on my instrument for the first time ever in front of M and W. That was absolutely EMBARRASSING. God, that was so much. Hahaha. 

20. Do they make you feel safe/loved?

Without a doubt, one-hundred percent. Being around M is one of the safest places I can be. M is the most sweet, charismatic, sympathetic, caring, and genuine person I know. He really cares about me, and he has shown me that several times, both in my presence and away from it. He has done so much for me in the years that I have known him and there is no one else that could ever make me feel as seen and as loved as he does. 

I feel fairly safe around W. I know he’s there for me and that he cares for me. Of course these feelings aren’t to the emotional extent of how I feel about M, but I do feel safe around W. I feel like he cares about me, and he has displayed this many times as well. ^^

21. Have they ever rendered you speechless?

Oh yeah. There have been more occasions with M seeing that I’ve had him longer, but for sure. Those two can really do a great deal on my heart. 

Especially like?? M in a suit?? His beauty is absolutely jaw-dropping. Every time I see the outfit, it’s like I’m seeing it for the first time. So stunning. 

22. Are they a good teacher?

M? YES. And it’s not even because I’m utterly in love with him. Many, if not all students would agree that he is amazing at his job. Countless awards and a reputation of gold. He is so motivated and if he wants something, nothing can get in his way. 

From what I’ve seen, W is a pretty effective teacher as well! He has earned several awards as well in his time teaching, and he has taught me quite a bit as well. He is very smart despite his childish and loud attitude.

23. Is there something they do that gives you the ick? 

With M? I suppose so. There are times when he fails to realize that other people think differently than others. For instance, I am very passionate about being in the band program, so much so that I am dead-set on pursuing a musical career. My great friend, though, has lost interest and is wanting to leave band. 

Whenever he would talk to them about this situation, he would always try to find countless reasons for them to stay. One time he even went down the guilt-tripping road. (Eg. “Well, R wants you to stay too!”) Although I do agree with him and think it’s sweet he’d consider me in the scenario, I think he should try giving more kids like my friend grace in their options after they’ve expressed their disinterest multiple times. They’re a great player, but they’ve lost that spark. 

Staying in band helped M too, with his future as a band director and whatnot, but he tried to leave once as well. After leaving, he came back right away because he missed it. I feel like he should give his students that opportunity as well, so that they can really see what school life would be like with the absence of band. — I rambled a lot, but in summary, I think he should give the students more freedom to explore their options if they want to. Sometimes he can be a bit too overbearing. 

W will butt into a conversation he isn’t a part of, and I believe there were times he couldn’t read the room either. Sometimes he does something before thinking about it beforehand, and it bugs me. That’s the primary thing I can think of.

24. Are you guys close?

With M, I’d say we’re pretty close. I don’t know too much about his personal life via him telling me one-on-one, but I know quite a bit about him still. He knows some about me too. We don’t talk casually yet, but I would like to at some point in the future. 

I am not as close with W as I am with M, but whenever we do chat I think it’s a short but fun time. 

25. Have you ever looked for their initial in those stupid TikToks that eight year olds make? (If you don’t have tiktok: do other students like your tc?

AHEM. All the time. I constantly look for M’s initials. Honestly, I don’t even focus on W that much anymore now that I’m out of his class….it’s all just M at this point. I feel so childish admitting this, but I’m always looking for even the slightest chance that he’s thinking of me too. It’s fun. 

26. Have you ever dreamed about them?

I’ve dreamed about both of them! I’ve shared a few kisses with M in different dreams too. It was the sweetest thing ever. ❤️

27. Do you see yourself in a relationship with them?

Thinking about it hard, I don’t think I could be in an actual committed relationship with W. 

M, on the other hand, is another story. I have seen M during his higher points and some of his lower points, and although I haven’t seen him at his absolute lowest, I am always willing to help him through it. He has done the same for me when I was down in the dumps too, and mutual support is one factor that really builds a stable relationship. 

And thinking about the very feeling I get just seeing, hearing, or even thinking about M? He’s definitely a keeper. I would do anything and everything for that guy, as much as it may seem odd to say, considering we’re not even together. I am fully in love with this man and have been for years. All the little things and big things, I’ll always fawn over. I could totally see us being in an actual relationship. 

But of course, he does have a wife and beautiful children. I would never want to take what he loves away from him. I am more than happy just seeing him happy. 

28. Have you ever cried in front of them?

Yes, I have only cried in front of M on two separate occasions in the span of a week. I never usually let myself break down like that in front of other people, but I am so glad it could be M that saw me in that state. I could not ask for anyone other than him to be there for me. ❤️ He is everything to me. 

I’VE BEEN SO INACTIVE??? So many wonderful things have happened with M though, so whenever I get some more free time I will write more about the most important days!! I have one or two in mind already that I will be posting at some point.

ALSO!! Spoiler alert, for the last two weeks I have been able to see W again! I’m so thrilled to tell you all about it! 

Not much happened today, but it was so, so nice to hear his voice again after days. His voice is so therapeutic, and I could listen to it forever. Earlier in the day, he was in a more wistful and happy mood, and although he did crack some jokes throughout the period, he seemed to grow a tiny bit more frantic as the period went on. 

I hope he’s feeling okay. He confirmed that we have a rehearsal after school tomorrow, so that’s great to hear. I hope it doesn’t stress him out too much— I don’t want him to get overwhelmed. 

Posting the rest of these while you wait for my TC story posts!! I’m going to begin writing them after I finish this. At least….for the days I end up remembering well. Haha!

Enjoy !!

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Day 18: Do you know of anything they do outside of work? What do they enjoy doing in their free time?

M - He watches football games and scrolls around on Reddit. Haha. He also told the band that he constantly has our program playing in the background so he can take it all in. That’s all I remember off the top of my head.

W - I don’t know! He spends time with his kids but that’s all I remember. Haha.

Day 19: What goes on for you when you see them? How does your body react?

Hahaha, ummmm!!!

M - When I see M, there is an immediate feeling of surprise and a flood of butterflies in my chest coming from absolutely nowhere. A smile immediately settles on my face upon spotting him. It’s a feeling of happiness, excitement, and admiration.

W - I get more excited than anything. Just to talk to that guy since I know him quite a bit.

Day 20: What have you done, or what would you do, to spend more time with them? Join a club/sport they’re in charge of? Sign up for an extra class they teach?

M - Back in my early crushing days, I would stay after class on most days to tell M to have a nice day, then hug him. Now I just try to make it earlier to events we have scheduled so I can have a potential chat with him.

W - I mean, I would go to the class early from lunch if I ever had the chance! I don’t quite remember what else I did aside from asking him questions and stuff after class— not as much though.

Day 21: How often do you dream about them? What do the dreams usually consist of?

M - Once every two or so weeks. We usually chat briefly in these dreams, but during those rare times we would kiss, I was so happy.

W - Once a month? The dreams either contain chatting or me getting a mini heart attack just seeing him stand there. Haha.

Day 22: What’s a little detail you’ve noticed about them that you aren’t even sure they’re aware of? Do the run their hand through their hair often? Do they subconsciously bite their lip?

M - M will either bite or purse his lips whenever he’s in deep thought. He also runs his hand across his head when he’s conversing as well. 

W - W will also run his hand through his hair sometimes when he’s talking. I sort of forgot everything else, haha. 

Day 23: If they weren’t a teacher, what do you think they should be?

M - A motivational speaker. That guy brings me to tears every time he starts one of his bigger speeches. He’s so moving. 

W - I’m actually not too sure! He said he’s very invested in history and almost became a history teacher, so maybe he would do something correlating with that.

Day 24: Do you think other people in your school may have feelings towards them too? Why?

M - Oh, one-hundred percent. M is the most charismatic, caring, beautiful, and talented person in the universe. It would be insane to think no one else has liked him before—student OR teacher. I have seen other students smile and laugh a lot around him, as well as get shy, so I think I have some reasons to believe this too. Haha.

W - I’m not too sure. As opposed to M, the majority, if not all people would choose M. At least, that was what seemed to be the case last year. I think a ton of people are more interested in spontaneous, playful wild cards like W, though, so I’m sure he has some other people crushing on him as well. 

Day 25: What are their classes like? Do they talk a lot? Is it mostly independent work? Are there a lot of notes?

M - M usually deals with bigger announcements at the beginning of class, which will last around five to ten minutes at most. Afterwards, it’s the usual shabang; twenty minutes of warmup since we have the time, then we dive into our concert music. After each rep, he gives advice to the sections, then we play again, as per usual. 

Occasionally, M will stop and tell us an entertaining story from “back in his day” or something of the sort, when he was young and stupid. Or the tale would be a more recent one. Maybe he’d make fun of one of the students. It’s a love language. Nonetheless, the band would always get a good laugh from it. ^^ There’s always something to look forward to. 

W - W’s classes were usually more slower-paced as opposed to M’s, since he would often get off topic as well and ramble about. He would tell us either a funny or really bad dad joke, a story from his past, or something similar. He would also get some laughs out of us. 

Day 26: How would you describe their personality?

M - M is a witty, sarcastic, genuine, and work-driven kind of person. He always has a goal in mind that he aims to reach. He does everything he can to make sure everyone is comfortable and truly happy in their community. He really does care about and wants the best for everyone, even if his serious personality may not seem like it.

W - As stated beforehand, he’s more spontaneous, playful, and sort of a wild-card. He tends to be more cheerful, but he can hop from that to blank-faced and serious in a snap. 

Day 27: What’s the weirdest thing they’ve ever worn?

M - HE WORE A DOG SUIT FOR A FUNDRAISER AND IT WAS THE FUNNIEST THING!!! Every time I look at any of the pictures taken of it, I smile so hard. 

W - A pure neon outfit. Neon pink shirt, neon green pants, neon green and blue tennis shoes. It was just awful. Hahaha.

Day 28: What’s something you don’t quite fancy about them? A quirk you find odd? A physical trait that you aren’t a fan of?

M - He is very upfront and brutally honest with people. There are times when he tries to motivate people in a way that he would be motivated from when he was younger, but it actually doesn’t do anything but hurt the person. Of course, he is the most genuinely kind person I know, but sometimes this stuff happens and it just hurts me to see it. 

W - He doesn’t think before he speaks at times, and it’s sort of irritating. He’ll butt into random conversations without reading the room, and though he is very talkative, it just….makes me cringe.

Day 29: How long have you had a crush on them?

M - More than three years. It’s so crazy. Three years and about eight months now if I’m being exact. 

W - WHAT?? It’s been a year now! A year and almost three months. That’s crazy. 

Day 30: Write a poem (short or long) about your TC.

Here goes.

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M

A band director

Merely another person in my life

One that would teach me

Like so many others did before.

I’m sure neither one of us

Would have even imagined

That we would go through so much

In such little time.

I truly believe that

You are a saint on Earth

And I am so glad

God destined for us to meet.

And even though

I’m sure

The feeling is not mutual,

I think that getting to meet you

And getting to know you

And getting to love you

Is the greatest thing

I ever got to do.

And even years later

I still find myself

Falling more and more 

In love with you

Each day.

<3

~~

W

When I first met you

You struck me

As someone who was adjusting

To his new surroundings

And looking for a place

To truly belong.

When we talked to each other

And we asked each other questions

And we laughed together

I had left the building

With happy thoughts

Telling me that we

Were going to be great friends.

Never did I think

That after experiencing love

For the first time

That I would be

Falling down the same rabbit hole

Once more.

And in M’s absence

Though my love for him

Never once began to falter

I found myself

Falling in love

Yet again

With someone entirely different.

I began to fall in love

With you.

Day 31: Do you have anyone in your life who knows about your TC? Anyone you can talk to?

My sister knows about my TCs—mostly M. I never stop rambling about him to her, haha. I’m so grateful she’s there to listen to me. I suppose my mom also knows about M now, but I don’t usually talk to her about it.

Writing his name in the snow ❤️

I FORGOR

I’ll write the post for Friday and today some time this week!! Not a ton happened, so it shouldn’t be too long of a wait. Regardless, each day had its absolutely golden moments. Can’t wait to share those with y’all. ❤️

Okay, let’s get answering!!!

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Day 5: What’s the age gap? Did you ever think you would fall for someone that much older? Are you comfortable with the age gap?

M - 32 year age gap

W - If I had to guess, maybe 21-25 years? 

I would have never thought it would be someone over twenty years back then, but now I believe that, as long as the committed relationship is HEALTHY and each of the people in question are well over the age of consent, I’m totally cool with it.

Day 6: Describe the first time you saw/met them. How did you meet? What was it like? Were you automatically attracted or did it take some time?

M - I first actually *met* M during a full band rehearsal. Although I did feel differently about him than I did the others, I never quite exactly recognized the feeling. It was more anticipatory, and I was always eager to see him again. The guy would always make me so happy. I was totally attracted to him very quickly, but it took some time for me to figure that out.

W - I met W for the first time when I was invited to volunteer for next-year prep for the band. We had chatted and stuff, he told some crappy dad jokes, and I mean REALLY bad ones, as well as got some work done. It was cool to see us all working together like that. I didn’t really know how to feel about W. I remember actually being relieved, yet a little disappointed about the fact I didn’t think I would be in love with him. Compared to M, he was just so…new. Luckily, as you can tell, thoughts have changed. Haha.

Day 7: Do you plan on keeping contact with your TC after graduation? How do you plan on doing it? If you’re graduated, have you kept in contact? How have you managed that?

Haha, oh, for sure!! I would love to keep M as a close contact and just a pal I could hang out with on occasion, and maybe even for assistance with my future career plan in the fine arts industry. 

Day 8: Is there something that tends to remind you of them? Like a sport, food, animal, etc…?

M - A certain character from a movie, baseball caps, coffee, batons, metronome, Yoda (don’t ask, haha), more dark, desaturated tones, etcetera 

W - Dinosaur, puppy, green and white/black masks, neon colors, etcetera

Day 9: Do you have a memory you are particularly fond of with your TC? Any cute stories?

M - I now have the time I cried in front of M for the first time as a core memory. I will write about it on this post eventually, but man, that changed me. 

W - THE CHRISTMAS PARTY BACK WHEN I HAD HIM WAS COOL

Day 10: Have you ever touched your TC? Like a hug or a brush of the hand?

M - Yes, I have! I have hugged M multiple times, patted him on the shoulder, and he has hugged me as well, and patted my shoulder and arm. Once we were walking next to each other too, and our hands brushed. I apologized and he said it was okay. It was so cute. ALSO THERE WAS ONE TIME I WAS GOING IN FOR A HUG AND HE WAS CONFUSED SO HE PUT HIS PALM OUT TO TOUCH MINE??? THAT WAS SO NICE

W - Our hands may have brushed, and I also have him a fist-bump, but I had him during COVID so I don’t believe I hugged him. At least….not yet? 

Day 11: How often do you talk to them? Do you talk to them outside of school?

M - Every day, either a little or a lot. It is on occasion that we exchange words after school, but it would only be for matters like questions and me texting him about gifts or something.

W - We don’t talk anymore since I go to a different school!! We used to talk just about every day though. 


Day 12: Have you ever had any previous TC’s? What were they like?

M was my first love. There is no one like him.

Day 13: If it were to happen, how do you imagine the perfect kiss going down with your TC? If by chance you have kissed your TC, how did it happen?

UHHHMMMM!!! HAHAHAA

M - I feel like we would be at a special event, and it would be late at night. We would be standing or sitting, lingering in the night sky, talking amongst ourselves. Eventually, one of us would say that the other looked so beautiful under the refraction of the moonlight. We would compliment each other back and forth until we end up telling each other how we feel about one another. We would then share a mutual kiss under the night stars.

W - I feel like our first kiss would be in public, but maybe secluded? Like a photo booth. He seems like the guy who would have it happen somewhere out in the open. I haven’t thought of specific scenarios. 

Day 14: Do you truly believe there is a chance that they’re interested in you? Has anyone else pointed out that maybe you’re special to you’re TC?

I do think that in some way, shape, or form, they like me. But I cannot be too sure. A big part of me wants to say it is, especially with M, but ??? I cannot truly tell whether the feelings expressed are of pride or love. 

I have had people tell me that M really loves me, as he would always shower me with compliments and stuff (in front of the entire band???) and allow me to be the role model of my section. It would always make my heart flutter. 

Day 15: Have you ever gotten them a gift? If so, what was it?

M - YEAH!! Many. A recent gift I gave M was a digital illustration that took me 11.5 hours, all as a Christmas gift. I’m fairly sure I posted about it here, but he loved it!!! It made me so happy!!!

W - I got him….Cheetos?? He didn’t give me any specific food choice during Christmas, so I had to improvise. I also got him some candy cane shot glasses from him and his wife, but haha, nothing too much. 

Day 16: If you’re in their class, what are your grades like?

Always hundreds. I don’t know how I would do anything less for them. 

Day 17: If you had to pick one feature about them, physical or personality, what would be your favorite?

M - His unique, witty state of mind

W - His ability to ramble on and on about miscellaneous topics


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I WILL DO MORE OF THESE LATER!!! I can’t believe it’s February already. Oh my gosh, haha.

I’m so excited for sectionals with him later, haha. Our last sectional we all talked practically the entire time, so I can’t wait to see where this one takes us. ❤️

I put on one of my favorite sweaters too. Feeling good! This’ll be AWESOME.

EARLIER TODAY I EMAILED W ABOUT HELPING OUT WITH SECTIONALS AND WHEN I FIRST READ HIS REPLY, THE ONLY TEXT SHOWING IN THE PREVIEW WAS “I love your” AND I REALLY THOUGHT HE SAID “I LOVE YOU”

INSANE BUTTERFLIES, EVEN BEFORE I READ THE ENTIRE EMAIL???? WHAT THE HECK I’M GIGGLING LIKE A FOOL