dreamed i found a comic book (yes american comic book) that revealed nishida’s canon backstory. he was an actor before joining the yakuza. An Actor. who would have expected this.
so much to say about this whole scene—the fact that its raining just like it was when dojima attacked yumi, framing the scene as a ‘redo’ of that night; all the ‘rebirth’ symbolism; the DIALOGUE and the VOICE ACTING. but just. this is arguably nishikis lowest moment. two seconds ago he was about to kill himself, then this jerk comes in and starts randomly spouting off about how much better kiryu is. and even then. even here, the moment where nishiki decides to essentially become a new person, a second after he’s baptized himself in blood, he STILL doesn’t think ill of kiryu or of what kiryu did. he thinks ill of HIMSELF. even when the whole WORLD is pushing nishiki to hate kiryu, nishiki still thinks HE wronged KIRYU.
nishiki is very far from perfect and i love him to bits.
ok we dont talk about this enough. this moment? right here? probably the bravest thing nishikis ever done. he has a RAGING amour-propre, he’s SO sensitive to how people perceive him, so attuned to slights, so desperate to be confident and in control, and here he forces all of that pride and insecurity down and willingly embraces the humiliation he thinks is necessary to save his sister.
the strength this must have taken is incalculable. however he may have gone wrong, nishiki was a champ through and through.
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