Even if you believe your memories to have never happened, they’re still real to you. They matter and they’re important, and they’re no “less” important than past-life memories. If you have exomemories you believe happened, those are also important and real. ALL types of memories are completely valid.
If your system can’t switch or switches rarely, that’s perfectly fine. You’re not broken or fake, being semi permanently or even permanently frontstuck is a common experience.
the guy who changed “multiple personality disorder” to “dissociative identity disorder” in the 90s didnt do it because of a better understanding of the disorder or the “science” (there is none). he openly admits that he did it because he doesnt believe that multiplicity exists, he thinks that all systems are fakes, and his hands were tied even as the chair of the DSM committee so changing the definition was the “next best thing” to striking MPD from the DSM entirely.
they dont know anything. do you hear me? do you get it? they make these DSM decisions arbitrarily, based on the opinions of whichever wealthy, privileged, neurotypical white male shrinks happen to be on the committee at the time. the DSM is not a tome filled with Absolute Truth. its FINE if your identity is based on being a Trauma Holder or a Protector or a Traumagenic DID System, thats FINE, but we have to remember, we have to really internalize this: they Do Not Believe In Us. they dont know shit. there is no scientific proof that early childhood trauma is the only way to be multiple, or that the DID/OSDD definitions actually mean anything at all. they were written in an attempt to discredit any multiples who were easier targets, in an effort to get rid of us, in order for one guy to be able to say “i dont believe they exist AT ALL but fine, fine, if anyone at all really IS a special snowflake system then its SUPER RARE and can only happen this One Specific Way because i said soScience”
brains and experiences are weird and we dont know hardly anything about them, about ourselves. be kind to one another. be kind. your experiences are not universal. endogenic systems have EXACTLY as much Scientific Evidence of their existence as DID systems: none at all. dont let some musty old ableist prick define someone else out of existence just to make yourself feel more valid.
I went back and forth on adding the link to the article, so: here it is but please be warned that this is some of the most vile, disgusting, infuriating ableism I’ve ever had the supreme misfortune of encountering. Please read at your own risk and prioritize your own mental health.
Therapists and psychiatrists and psych nurses etc are not required to tell you, “No you’re fine, you’re not disordered at all!” if you come to them and ask them straight up, “Do we fit the criteria for this disorder or not”.
When you’ve had several, including a trauma and dissociative disorders specialist who’s very prominent in the research on DID, say flat out “If being many in one head doesn’t cause you distress or dysfunction it’s by definition not a disorder”? But anti-endos with more hate-fueled ignorance in their veins than actual blood say crap like “No that’s impossible, you’re either disordered or faking”?
Seriously, which should you believe, the experts or the trolls?
The sheer audacity of the trolls who insist they’re right and the experts are wrong really astonishes me lol
